You wear your heart on your sleeve
Like Christmas day and New Years Eve
I remember staring up too late
Like we did on our first date

With a snow beaten covered path
You smile, I just laugh
I thought I’d never feel this way
I thought I’d never see the day

But here I am, staring in your eyes
With feeling like we could fly
You say darling don’t you waste your time
Don’t you know it’s a crime

So I’ll hang my hat on the door
And hold you close like I did before
Now I know you’re the one
I promise you not to run

If I go, if I stay, I promise we’ll be okay
If we fight, a different night, we’ll find a way
There’s too much love within our hearts
Why don’t we just restart

I’ll say you have a pretty smile
You’ll tell me to stay awhile
Listening to Help Me Make it Through the Night
As we lay and watch the Northern Lights

Think of all the time we waste
With all the problems we have faced
Hold your breath and face the sun
Hold me close and love me, now that the day is done

I awake to a cold breeze and skeletons in the closet
Turn the water on and watch it pour from the faucet
It gets harder day by day, play by play
From starring in the mirror to her eyes, looking for the words to say

“You look like you need some rest” she said, I smirked
Why don’t you try to tell me how to make us work
I know, I know, it’s cold, it’s cold
I’ve done burned up all the lies I told

I glance at the mirror, to eyes the shade of blue
Though I must admit they grow bigger when looking at you
But a man of habit, is a man of creature
There is no such thing as a bad teacher

We’re like gasoline and nicotine
So why don’t we go and light all our dreams
Burn, burn em’ all and shake the frost
Never to question what it cost

We’re staring at each other through the front door
The same memories and feelings; we’ve been here before
I turn the handle, but it doesn’t open
I try to speak, but these words have already been spoken

They say your heart skips a beat, is it true?
Sometimes it feels as if mine adds two
I think you can read me by the look in my eyes
These feelings fly, just as birds in the sky

The leaves and their changing colors
Are no match for you my lover
Rest your weary eyes upon my soul
Let’s fade to black just like coal

Let’s plant seeds to grow flowers in our hearts
Or run away somewhere for a fresh start
Please do try to understand
I’m broke and may never be a better man

So when the rain drops begin to fall
Try not to make yourself feel small
Look past the darkness of the night
And I’ll tell you everything will be alright

A father, a brother, a son
A friend, a lover, a foe
Who do you see? Why do you run?
Is it yourself or do you no longer know

Is it the demons? Is it the ghosts?
Of those ******, or those lost
Or is it those you hurt the most
Do you ever wonder what it cost

Open your eyes, tell me what do you see
It’s too late to ask for forgiveness
All I see is misery
Leaving you alone, alone in the bliss

You may ask who I am
The better question is who are you?
Open your eyes and act like you give a ****
Answer the question who is who?

Open your eyes and look in the mirror
Is that tears falling down your cheek?
Is it worse than you have come to fear?
Is the man in the mirror who you seek?

Whisper, whisper secrets in my ear
Of everything I have grown to fear
Paint me blue of all feelings
As if my souls is going through the ceiling

Make me heard and make me seen
Like a hungry hound and a feen
Don’t forget nor forgive when I do wrong
Persecute me and turn me into a song

When I die give me wings
When I fly crown me as king
For we both know I won’t see tomorrow
I’m out of time, there’s none left to borrow

The stars still shine in this mess
Leaving me alive, forced to confess
I gamble on circumstance, playing close to the vest
More or less I’m broken and ready for rest

So strike me once, hear the angels call
Strike me twice and you too shall fall
Leave me to the demons that need fed
”It is what it is” as you once said

She smiled, said she loved the fall
The color on the trees and the falling leaves
I smiled back, leaning against the wall
We didn’t know it, but the two of us were thieves

She stole my heart, locking it away
All it took was the look in her eyes
I stole her youth, turning her to gray
All it took was the stress from my lies

If only there was a way to make time rewind
For you know I would spend my last dime
To give you a chance to see inside my mind
Maybe we wouldn’t falter like wind chimes

You turn to me and say you’re starving, and hungry for another bed
Lover please…. don’t be a memory
Relinquish me from all these feelings I dread
If our love is ******, charge me as an accessory

She smiled, said she loved the winter
The bright lights and the falling snow
I smiled back, holding the door for her to enter
Another stranger to get to know

Today I wrote you a letter
Per usual it was the same old stuff I say
I thought it might make myself feel better
Or at least help to get through the day

I gaze on out the window
Taking in the same scene
The birds and trees all for show
Oh, how I want to break the screen

You once told me of how I needed rest
I have one last wish before I do
You know what it is, you knew me best
So well I wouldn’t have to leave a clue

Once again I find myself lost in something beautiful
Staring into the eyes of an old lover
Wishing I could have been suitable
Wishing it was me and not another

The truth is I coward behind this letter
Knowing that my eyes will be the only ones to see it
Still I hope it may make myself feel better
Still I hope I’m a missing piece that will fit

Slow down kid, you’re living to angry, you’re living to mean
The world won’t make sense at fifteen
You’ll roll your sleeves and hide your heart
But you’ve come a long way from the start

It’s funny what can change when you’re twenty four
Staring into the eyes of a stranger wanting more
She’ll keep you close, but it’ll be hard to tell
If it was your or her that fell

At twenty seven, you’ll start to dream
You’ll start questioning what everything means
You might even get a tattoo
But you’ll let your heart guide you true

When you reach the end, you’ll crack a smile
You’ll look into her eyes and realize it’s all worthwhile
The journey and the memories that were made
Knowing that none of it will ever fade

So slow down kid, it's not your time
Just work on the reason, find your rhyme
Stay true and walk the line
For one day too, you will shine

The measure of a man is judged by his actions
Not by the way he walks, nor by the way he talks
For many are guilty of infractions
But to me that is no shock

Reflection is a virtue, that few understand
I don’t like the person I see
The hurt caused for the upperhand
All the pain and all the misery

The ones I love have turned to strangers
Bad habits and fever dreams
I continue throwing myself into danger
As if I know what it all means

Maybe I should have put up a facade
Let these feelings continue to linger
Allow myself to corrade
Yet you replaced me in anger

I’ve gotten good at hiding the guilt on my face
A cold should has become second nature
You felt as soft as lace
You were meant for someone much greater

If you were a ship in the sea
Then I would be your anchor
Holding you down from where you belong to be
So sell the ship, go and find a banker

Her voice echoed behind me, down the hall
I was too ****** to turn and look
I was too ****** to walk, so I crawled
Crawled myself into a nook

I stayed there and sheltered myself
Thinking about the wrongs I’ve done
All the foolish ways I wreck my health
Then I gazed to the rising sun

I want the strength of my father, but the love of my mother
I want to be free, free from the questions they ask
I’m a liar, I’ll lie to the face of a lover
Then I’ll hide, hide myself behind a mask

It seems like I’ll always be looking kin
So drop me a line or leave me a verse
I’ll wait here until then
And pray that I’m not a curse

I’ll sit and write a line or two
Filling my head with an empty muse
While all I hear is I miss you
Is it from my mind or the drugs I abuse

I reach out to you, to find a needle
It’s not a fair exchange, but it eases my brain
It forms a cloud over all the evil
The rain that follows is my life trickling down the drain

Ask a question for which I have no answer
Yes, me feet freeze and my mind stays cluttered
My heart skips beats and sometimes flutters
I must admit I am no planner

It happens when my eyes are set
When the world behind me disappears
When my vision becomes clear
I’m sure my face is full of sweat

Somehow she makes time disappear
An hour can feel as small as a minute
So much so as if there’s a time limit
I wouldn’t believe you if you said it’s been a year

The sun reflects all things bright
That’s why her smile can brighten a room
That’s why the flowers still bloom
She could outshine the sun, the way she reflects light

Be careful now, she’s hard to impress
But if she pulls you close
You’ll feel as if you overdosed
She’s the summer breeze in a winter’s dress

I have this dream each night
It’s you and me on a beach in Sandusky
You guide me along the shore, closer to the sea
I know it’s all wrong, but it feels right

We’re born to breathe, then to live and die
I can’t help this feeling of needing more
Yet every time I question what for
I was born to grow, to give and fly

So rest your weary eyes upon me tonight
Let the burning embers of the fireplace warm your heart
I’ll tell you where I been, right from the start
Keep me company until the morning light

The mountains and the trees, the rivers and their streams
They all seem so far away from me
I glance at your eyes, and I know I’m where I need to be
I open my own and realize it was never a dream

Pretty is the sun hitting the grain
With a sparkle from fresh morning dew
A sign I needed exactly in queue
I rest my head against the moving train

I listen for the silence in between the steam
Perhaps a train is too simple for those of greed
I pay no attention tucking away a freshly signed deed
As I dream of a little house by a stream

I wait day and night for your return
Surly I could find another
But how much ground would I have to cover
Our feelings are still yet to burn

So I’ll build for you a house on a strong cornerstone
I’ll place a picket fence of white and paint the shutters blue
I’ll plant fields of lavender, all for you
What do you say? Let’s stop spending our days alone

Pretty is the sun hitting the grain
With a sparkle from fresh morning dew
Pretty is the way she says “I love you”
I rest my head on the bed, what more could I gain

It’s a different night, but darling it’s the same fight
Tried and true, beaten and blue
We’ve exalted all our options, filling ourselves with toxins
Fearful of expectations, blind to considerations

You smile and change the verse
You say patterns lead to a curse
You do this all on your own
You cast me aside like stone

So instead I’ll make my own rhyme
With promise that I can deliver
Promises spent with my time
Promises that could fill the river

Now, now we’re on the same page
For we were reading the same book
It was just too much too overlook
Now, now we’re back on stage

Darling it’s the same fight, just a different night
Beaten and blue, tried and true
We fill ourselves with toxins, while exhaling all our options
Blind to considerations, fearful of expectations

If time was the ocean and we were the sea
I’d let our waters trickle down to the willow tree
seeping and flourishing its roots
Making our connection ever so absolute

A face to see, a face to meet
The sun to shine, I feel the heat
Let it slip, like sand in your palm
Let it settle, make yourself calm

Lead me to your darkest door
Let me feel the same as before
Whisper all your secrets
I’ll share my regrets

Leave behind your trail of fears
If lust is blinding, help me to see clear
Make note: the sins of a man
Try not to understand

I’m a broken creature you see
Cursed and scorned way beneath
I get high off chemicals
Like liquid gold and convertibles

In another life, I wouldn’t have thought twice
But a gambling man knows when to roll the dice
These are the last words I’ll write
Blind my eyes before you leave my sight

There’s a place in my mind where I go to dream
A place where all things feel so serene
Worries and stress cease to exist
And everything else is nothing but a wish

There’s a long hall that leads to a reflection
I’m greeted by a stranger, a cold face that shows no affection
He looks me in the eye, then whispers
Thoughts and feeling as if I miss her

It doesn’t take long for the glass to crack
I find myself lost on finding the way back
The darkness engulfs all the light
It attempts to let my fears take flight

I can’t help but let out a scream
As I feel the collapsing of the beams
A cry for help will do no good
I lived a life that no others should

The lights above me keep getting dimmers
My chances of making it out are looking slimmer
I attempt to reach my hand to the door
But instead I find myself bleeding out on the floor

I look out on the sea
The colors reflect those of my eyes
The same ones that always make me feel free
For out here there is no ties

It’s just me and an empty vessel
More than a question, but less than an answer
A quiet place for one to nestle
A saving grace from those who banter

It’s a quiet life out here
But there’s a peacefulness that comes with
The kind the brings forth no fear
Almost as if its a myth

I fear that I fear no man
I fear that I have become what I oppose
For this place there’s nowhere for me to stand
Just throw me in the river, let me rest with the crows

I don’t recognize your face
Even worse I feel out of place
There’s so many words to say
But that would take more than a day

Freedom is a burden
I choose to live in sin
By the choices I make
And the feelings I fake

Some point the world will get even
At that point I may start believing
I am who I am
Nobody else can give a ****

If I do any wrong
I’ll still be strong
I won’t feel guilty
I am the one who built me

I want to belong somewhere
Where? well I guess I don’t really care
Just a warm spot to soak in the sun
Somewhere to hide when the day is done

With the freedom of the wind at my back
To atone for all the good, I lack
It seems there’s more wrong than right these days
I find myself mostly in the grey

Let me be easy on my brothers
Kind and patient like none other
An inspiration for those to dream
A guiding force just as a support beam

So, when it does become my time
Convict me of a victimless crime
For I don’t want to live forever
Just let me enjoy the harsh weather

I play my cards close to the vest
But I make sure to do my best
So, when I do start to feel like less
Lay my body down to rest

The city lights never fail
I smile as I walk down the street
Picking up a quarter, on tails
I have nothing but time to beat

A field of lavender on my right
I can’t resist to pick a few
The smell itself is a delight
Pretty enough to bring home to you

The railyards are all abandoned
Simpler times it seems it was
That’s not what the world demanded
I lay my head to the track… listening for a buzz

I’m getting closer, as I can make out the dock
It sits right on the edge of Plum Creek
There with a sign that welcomes you to Castle Rock
It has an answer you may seek

You greet me with a smile, that reflects the stars
I hold you close, as you hold my heart
Our lover itself is a memoir
I knew it was you from the start

Inhale, exhale, ash, burn
Dreams, dreams of mine
Gone, gone is a flash
Light, light, repeat, repeat

Smile, smile through pain
Drink, all of it away
Laugh, at nothing
Love, gone, gone, gone

Step, step, into the street
Bright, bright are headlights
Stumble, fall to the ground
Help, it’s too late for help

Inhale, exhale, ash, burn
Dreams, dream of us
Gone, gone in a flash
Light, light, repeat, repeat

Walk, walk, get up and walk
Hide, hide, go on and hide
Rest your eyes on the ticking clock
How many times have you died

Let it pierce, let it sting your skin
Fade yourself away into black
You’re long past committing sins
Soon you won’t be anything but a plaque

Another name on another stone
Just another hole in the ground
It’s too late now to pick up the phone
Even then you couldn’t make a sound

Your head falls, leaving a needle on the floor
We’ve been here many times before
But this time no one’s waiting at the door
I guess a habit is a habit and one that you can’t ignore

I met a pretty girl with soft brown eyes
And for a while she couldn’t read between my lies
Her brown hair shined with streaks of blonde
Deep inside it was hard to not feel a bond

The seasons changed and the grass went away
It was around this time, I was left with only a few words to say
We took a walk down to the water fountain
There on the lower east side of Spring Mountain

The smartest person in the world was sitting in front of me
Yet even she was too blind to see
I’m a betting man, but this was a gamble like none other
It hurt too much to let these things stay smothered

We walked in silence on the way back
By the time I dropped her off, the sky had faded to black
The darkness was the epitome of my head
Full now of answers, from the questions I dread

That pretty girl said she’d keep me in mind
She also said to give her some time
In time perhaps it will all rhyme
And I’ll go on to find

I met a pretty girl with soft brown eyes
That can read between my lies
Whose brown hair shines with streaks of blonde
And isn’t afraid to dream beyond

She asks me a question, I don’t hear
I’m too distracted by the stars
She asks again…. my greatest fear
Not knowing who you are

I close and open my eyes, but am still blinded
I joke, how bright the stars shine
She grins…. as if she could read my mind
I smile, while in the background plays Walk the Line

She asks me how many stars I see
I tell her, I only gaze to the brightest one
The same one that stares back at me
Her smiles widens and becomes brighter than the sun

The red from her hair fades into her cheeks
Here I am frozen on a Tuesday afternoon
Not knowing a moment like this could make me so meek
And wishing this moment wouldn’t go by so soon

The lights flicker through the night
It’s an attempt to brighten my dark overtone
But they never reach the same shade of bright
It just leaves me feeling even more alone

The floors still creek in certain spots
They talk to me as I walk
Maybe I’m the one beginning to rot
There's no point in trying to talk

Your handprint is engrained into the window
My does it feel as if times moving slow
I look out to the drive at that old Ford Pinto
I watch as leaves are scattered away as the wind blows

Even on the sunniest days, the sun could never
Replace and replenish the warmth I lost
For that feeling is supposed to last forever
But it was taken from me within the Winter’s frost

I find myself alone on a park bench
Tears falling in rhythm with the snow
Two feet in front, lays a freshly dug trench
And the last of love as far as I know

The summers gone and the leaves are falling
Don’t you hear old familiar feelings calling
I turn to you and say
We sure have had a day

A day of feeling less empty
Followed by a night, with some bottles of whiskey
I’ll stumble down the sidewalk
As long as you promise not to talk

Just lead me to, the place you hide
And don’t be afraid now, I’m on your side
Let me love and hold you
Maybe we could feel less blue

And if I ever, ever let you down
I’ll turn you a smile from a frown
Cause I’ve searched and looked for
Love and a lot less more

So, before you leave this evening
Don’t forget to share your reasoning
But if you decide to stay, my lover
The reasons I may never uncover

Now the fall has past, and leaves are dying
You’re sitting still and I hear you crying
You turn to me and say
We sure have had a day

I flip a coin, I flip a coin
Heads or tails? You crack a smile
What will it take for you to join
What would it take to make it worthwhile

You give a glance that says another time
But I’m reckless and impatient, I’m bound to do wrong
Why does loving you seem so much like a crime
I remain silent as you drag us along

Maybe it was a mistake
Or just maybe it is what was needed
For you, I could never forsake
And our feelings have been pleaded

Before you go tell me once more
Is there a future with us
Is there a version where my heart is not tore
I kiss you before you get on the bus

The months that I followed, I couldn’t shake the tears in my eyes
I guess you couldn’t either, so you called
The truth gets hard, sometimes it’s easier to tell lies
But you said you were coming back, right after the fall

It seemed like we were finally ready to make something out of this misery
We had all our hopes and dreams, but we never got far
That life will always remain a mystery
All that’s left is a one-page obituary, form an overdose is your car

The sun will shine on my face
The wind will blow at my back
I shall lose these feelings of disgrace
And thus, my anger will fade to black

No more shall I be tied down
The road is there, but I built the bridge
It’s time to leave this town
Head out far from the ridge

There’s a calmness between the road and I
An understanding of life
It helps me forget seeing you cry
Knowing I was the one that struck your heart with a knife

Yet here I find myself reading a letter
I’m not strong enough to mail it
So, I’ll burn it, and hope things get better
There’s no place in your life for me to fit

It’s a long drive from Jackson to Cincinnati
Just to find you’re in the Gulf Shores
So, no need to cry and get sappy
For you I would drive much more

I knew it was you, when the world looked different
I was a coward that ran away
Tried to forget, but that was me being ignorant
For you, I promise to stay

A flower can bloom many times
Each one different from the rest
Each bloom goes through its own test
Just as we have our own climbs

Strong roots will get you far
But faith and perseverance will take you farther
And lead you through when things get darker
Sonn you’ll shine brighter than a star

Thank you for being our inspiration
The seeds you planted long ago have grown
From all the love that you have shown
For when we bloom, we too shall have a good foundation

The valleys grown old and bitter, but it still has its charm
Cherry blossoms are spread like wild
The same ones I planted as a child
Back when I could do no one no harm

Rain sprinkles life into the new plants
And also leaves my footprints on the ground
Out here it’s quiet but also full of sound
I wish to go back home, but I know I can’t

The air around me feels all so familiar
There’s something pretty about a flower bloom
Like an unborn child in a mother’s womb
If only he hadn’t killed her

Why’s the grass look so strange Mama?
It’s burnt and dead
Or is it tricks inside my head
Is this the feeling of trauma?

One day I’ll find a way to run
Far from the guilt of leaving him
But I couldn’t do it, not with the world looking so dim
So, I leave my sins in the hands of my son

Wilted flowers and memories
Are all dried up and blown away
Leaving us with nothing left to say
And for this kind of pain there is no remedy

Have you any clue, how much I fell for you?
Or was I just bought on borrowed time
To think I held the world in this hand of mine
But your lies eventually slipped through

I was the plant you didn’t prune
You were the dead leaves holding me back
But now I’m back on track
New stems will sprout very soon

I played the game
It’s time for a new challenge
Was being friends too hard to balance?
Your answer always remained the same

Gone are the days
So, roll the dice, don’t think twice
No response will ever suffice
True growth is moving one, there was no other way

There’s twenty minutes until four
I comb my hair and take a seat
I can’t hide this smile anymore
As I tremble my nerves to my feet

One last chance to run out the door
It’s time to close the door of being alone
I couldn’t have asked for more
You would have thought that she’s my clone

If the universe every tried to split us apart
It would slice itself in half and cease to exist
There’s not stronger love than the one forged in our hearts
It truly is likes a bliss

I can picture now, the way she smiles
When she makes her way down the aisle
It’ll make it all worthwhile
Even if it took me a thousand miles

The bells are ringing, it’s time to go
Time to make myself a new heading
Time to let my love show
For it’s her and I’s wedding

Of all the blue in the skies
No ocean could fill
The wonder in your eyes

Take away the color from the world
I'll be here standing still
Waiting to be unfurled

Of all the greens in the grass
None are such a match
For my heart of glass

Take away the pleasures in my life
Let whatever love is to come hatch
Then leave me abandoned, stabbed by a knife

Of all creatures to exist
You are too beautiful to hold
Perhaps true love truly is a bliss

If you choose to leave, go in the night
And don't be afraid to be bold
I'll look for you when I see the light

Everybody's moving out and moving away
Though it looks as if I'm here to stay
My Mind is chiseled, and my bodies grown old
I did as I was told, never dared to be bold

Somewhere along the way I quit
There was nothing else I could try to fit
It was my chance to live in ignorance bliss
So don't feel sorry for the miss

I chose to reject what I don't understand
In the end I never got the upper hand
Just a life of wasted dreams
And a debt to work for machines

I hope to find my soul again someday
I hope it was able to fly away
Fly far from this mess
Oh, how much I have to confess

When I die there'll be no burial for me to atone
My body’s already been turned to stone
Just face me out towards the sun
And know that my time is done

Make my mind a temple of thoughts
To account for the lack of time I have lost
If only time could be bought
But that would be a never-ending cost

Make my body free and clean
To account for all of my mistreatments
Wipe away all that is bad, leaving me keen
Keen on all my resentments

**** my spirit for the sins I have committed
The lies and persecution of my own
When judging, don't leave anything omitted
Let everything be known

Make me a man of wisdom
Let me learn when to stop
So that one day I'll make it to the Kingdom
For I too should have ripe crops

Allow me to live as you see fit
Guide me in my times of trouble
So that I may never quit
For you have pulled me from the rubble

If only and buts were candy and nuts
Then we would both understand, and I would be your man
The lies we tell ourselves, the ways we wreck our heath
The hardest things I had to do, was to learn to love without you

If I were a cloud, I would fly away
So far that none of my troubles could stay
I would pick a shape that fits me best
And hover myself over to rest

If I were the wind, I would settle down
And let the leaves take their selves to the ground
I would only move when the time is right
Such as a little one flying a kite

If I was the sun, I would shine for all
So bright nobody could be sure of what they saw
I would be a burst of energy, like something fun
To pick people up and let them know the days not done

Yes, if I was this, or if I was that
I could make my own new habitat
I could bring forth new definitions
oh yes, I would be a true magician

But it’s all in my head, and I am just myself
So, I'll put these ideas on a bookshelf
It’s all make believe, so it seams
Just me, myself, and I stuck in a daydream

I find myself stuck often times
Like someone drinking stale wine
And though I know the words to say
I tell myself not today

There so much that I do hide from you
So much you don't even have a clue
I'm hanging on by a rope that's turned to a string
But if I let go it may sting

There's a thousand different ways to confess my love
Each one there won’t be any white doves
Because you are unsure of what you want
A lonely heart out on the hunt

I would wait a lifetime
Perhaps that is the true crime
So, tell me now, before I go
Because I love you so

Call him a writer, call him a fighter
He'll just sit there and flick his lighter
Call him a poet, he'll laugh a bit
Deep inside its true he knows it

They say he's a man of his time
But to himself he lacks the words to rhyme
Some would say a true visionary
Born from words of the dictionary

A man raised on a hard grown spirit
That gets high off his own lyrics
Even through a smile he’ll deny
That his own words can fly

Those who know him call him out
But he hides in the shade, so no leaves can sprout
Ideas locked in the mind of his own
Words and letters that could never atone

Atone the deprivation of his creativity
Until then it'll stay locked away in captivity
For how long? Noone could really know
Because to himself, he has nothing to show

Call him a denier, Call him a liar
Tell him to show his true desire
A writers' high, its words he feens for
Call him a coward for not writing anymore

I picked you some flowers today
I tried to write you a poem
But I couldn't find the right words to say
Or perhaps I just didn’t know em'

I listened to your favorite songs
And laughed to your old jokes
My has it been so long
Are we turning into old folk

Yes, today was full of your Memories
The good and the bad
All of the love and energy
For the first time I wasn't sad

I was happy for what was
And grateful for what is now
Also, thankful just because
It taught the how

How to love as I should
Enjoy the moment for what is
To not get caught up in what can be misunderstood
So, here's to you Miss:

The lighter of flames
True loves to blame

There's a full moon tonight
As I sit and wonder
If you see it shinning just as bright
It gives my mind something to ponder

I know we said we’d live and laugh
That we would love with no regrets
But right now, it feels like I’m missing my other half
If only I knew how much time we had left

Maybe I would have hold you a little closer
Or fought for us a little harder
Maybe that would have given us some closure
But I couldn't be that kind of martyr

Yet still I see you in my dreams every night
And every morning I'm left in the same scene
Wishing you'd come back and tell me I'm right
Then I wouldn't be stuck here in between

In between loving and losing you
Either way there's no way to fake
What causes me to feel so blue
Only for you could my heart ache

There's a full moon tonight
As I sit and wonder
If you see it shinning just as bright
It sure makes my mind sit and ponder

The day is normal as any other day
Johnny wakes up for school with a note by his bed
His mom tells him to behave and apologies she couldn't stay
He gets up and combs the hair on his head

On the way to school he cuts through the rail-yard
He stops for a minute to put some pennies on the track
On the way out he slips past the old guard
Times dwindling down, he knows he has to pack up the slack

At school he’s greeted by no one
He sits alone in his class, dreaming of escaping
Pondering to himself if it could really be done
As he stares out the window at the landscaping

When school is out, he rushes to the local diner
He scarfs down enough food to feed a family of four
As if he hasn't had any food that's finer
After he's finished, he still asks for more

On the way home he collects his now flatted pennies
He tucks them away in his pocket
Back at home he has plenty
He’s saving up to buy a rocket

A rocket to fly away from here
To go somewhere only he will know
So, then he will no longer fear
If only he was able to go

By the time he gets home, the sun has faded away
He walks through the door and shuts it lightly
He looks to broken glass on the ground with a loss of words to say
And he holds his fist ever so tightly

Before he can take another step, he is pushed to the ground
He feels a drop of beer hit his face
He looks up and his father ask if his mother has been around
Johnny doesn't answer, his father calls ham a disgrace

A few more bottles are thrown in anger
Johnny is then thrown and locked in his room
He wishes she could have taken him with her
And not leave him to this doom

Johnny cries though the night
Praying for a chance to leave
To fly away like a kite
He wonders if his being too naïve

When he wakes the day is as normal as any other day
Johnny wakes up for school with a note by his bed
His mom tells him to behave and apologizes she couldn't stay
He gets up combs his hair and wishes his father was dead

Sun, sun, sun, stay awhile
For the world can be so vile
What's it like up there
Is the weather fair

Sky, sky, sky, fly me away
Take me and leave me somewhere to stay
As I look on the beauty of earth
Provide me a new life to give Birth

Oh river, river, river take me down stream
Help me to realize what it all means
Am I tired or am I true
Let me try your shade of blue

Mr. Moon, moon, moon let me shine
And tell me everything will be just fine
For in the darkest of the nights
You're still beaming bright

Sun, sun, sun let me undo what’s been done
For you and I have had a good run
Just set the back down to rest
And know I really did try my best

In the peaceful hours of the morning
The sun helps provide clarity to myself
Almost as if I'm missing the warnings
Little signs that reflect my health

I think my mind lacks the inspiration to write
More often than not I try too hard
To turn on that create light
It still fails to shine staying on guard

Though the writing is the easy part
conveying what's really important is not
I thought the trick was to speak from the heart
Yet doing so makes my bran rot

Doing so turns into a million different ways
Different ways of saying I love you
I write as if you never went away
Perhaps one day my heart will have a clue

She gives me a look likes it’s all okay
As to her it is just another day
She says we can still keep on being friends
As if these feelings would just end

Is it selfish to think I could not
My heart feels as if it’s been tired into a knot
Yet she smiles like she still cares
But to me it just doesn't feel fair

For I love her, but she must love another
And so, she looks at me as just a brother
Now I have no choice but to accept
Accept learning to live with reject

When she does find the one she wants
I hope that I can be a little more nonchalant
In my head it’s hard to compile
That at one point I was the one that made her smile