Finally, I confessed to you how much i love you, missed you, worried sick about you. I kept ask my friend of you are still single or not. What you doing nowadays and how you are doing. How much I hate to see you with different girl in each week. And no offense, but you even go out with this tomboy.

Finally I got courage to said all that to you, in front of you in my dream.

clock have been tick tok tick tok for hours, days, months. And I always thinking where on this frikin earth have you been? There's no reason to get far away from me. I know you want to say something and I'm ready to hear it.

Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....



~Imperfect Desire **

Every soul will taste death.

She was there, standing straight, looked strong, smiled till showing her teeth, smiley eyes. She looked gorgeous in 80'some fashion. Her hair tied in ponytail. My small hand in her hand. Yeah we are on vacation that day. We had so much fun. Dad was there too.

Now,
She is lying on her own bed, she became small and her back is hunched. Her eyes sometime open and close. She just dressed in not-a-beautiful-dress. She lost a lot of her hair. My hands holding her hands but she don't respond. My eyes are watery. I tried to hold it back but i can't. I don't want to lose you. I love you so much that i rather die before you go, leaving this world.