Do you see?
There is more to this
I know there is
How can I see?
I have not found out
But I will

Tonight was a farewell.
And it breaks my heart
To feel this way,
But you proved to me
That our bond was broken.
Maybe one day we will
Talk about it and laugh.
But I really don't think so.

He is a candle of love with streaks all around
Light travels all the way from sky to ground
When with light His beauty comes to surround
For His kindness and mercy He is renowned

I feel Him in my heartbeat to tell and dictate
What is right and what wrong is His mandate
He is the Lord of Ones fortune and ones fate
Being Lord of universe He is supremely great

I enjoy being His humble servant to associate
To my Lord who is merciful and compassionate
He is so caring as well as really very considerate
His eternal light really makes me to illuminate

Col Muhammad Khalid Khan
Copyright 2017 Golden Glow

Nothing feels right
I feel everything at once
Months of being numb
The pain has just now just begun
The meds just seem to keep the feelings away
But now I have nothing I'm left with the pain
All the thoughts just echo through my head
Am i better off here or am I better off dead
So confused and don't know up from down
I'm left out here looking like a clown
I need a home and somewhere to go
Don't know what to do when everybody is gone
I need some stability, just a little at least
I prolly could use a couple good hours of sleep.
Now I'm drunk and alone and I need you more than most.
And ur at home sleeping with no clue I know.
My heart feels like it's been ripped into pieces
Thinking about you and the reasons I had for leaving
I want you, and us and everything in between
Forgive me if I ever came off as mean
I'm so lost without You in my life
Please come back and let me take you in stride.
I love you always more than u ever will know
Please take me back and let me come back home

I wish I could touch you again
To feel your body beneath mine.
I am angry by how beautiful you look
Because maybe if you weren't for a second,
I would be able to get a grip.
My feelings are a tornado
And I'm trying to find myself inside them.
But I'm worried I am lost.
The guilt I feel about loving you
Is giving me nightmares.
The happiness I feel from your touch
Is hurting my heart.
The sorrow I feel from your rejection
Is choking me.
But maybe it all makes sense when you look in my eyes
And
I swear
I can't help but love you.

Her body convulsed under the pressure
Her face crumpled at the thought
Her soul was being crushed
Drowning under all her worries

It was as though the world gave up on her
And poured her sorrows down
Tumbling from the sky
Came all the horrors of the ground

Her eyes were red raw
And shut tight to hold it in
But she couldn't do anything about
The sobs rising from her heart

Her tears swept down her face
Creating streams and creeks and rivers
And gasps arose from her breast
Escaping her frowning mouth

She looked like a deflated balloon
All the air squeezed out
So it seemed as she disappeared
Under a pile of doubt

Though the nicest thing happened
As she fell to the ground
All these people rushed to her side
To give her a helping hand

They caught her as she fell
And lifted her worries from her chest
They supported her and lifted her up
To join her departing soul

Her body and soul reunited
She opened her soden lids
And the sun came out from behind the clouds
As a smile lit up her face

The constant fight between my heart and my mind
I just want to have control this time
It can't be mine
Everything is spinning too fast to keep going
I don't think I've ever felt this lonely
I have no clue where the hell i'm going
Can't tell which way is up from down
I cry at night but I try not to make a sound
I can't hold it in and I just want to shout
The nightmares come back every night
Constantly, it's the same old sight
I can't escape the madness he put inside my mind
Not this time
I want it to be over but I cannot find
The peace I need to clear my mind
The guilt of sitting and just watching him die
I did nothing I just went back inside
My best friend woke up without her dad
I held her and cried, but I was kind of glad
I know that sounds bad
But he took something I can never get back
My innocence, my childhood, my peace of mind
Still searching for something that I cannot find
Two years he had his way with me
I don't know how nobody could see
I was choking and I could not breathe
Nobody saw me constantly gasping for air
I should have reached out but I was so so scared
Now I'm living in my own nightmare

Sleep.
Please let me sleep.
I shut my eyes.
I count the sheep.
But still I lay here.
And still I think.
Sleep.
1. 2. 3. 4. Sheep.
Keep on counting.
The thoughts are hounding.
It drives me crazy.
So I stay awake.

When you look to the sky and see nothing but Grey
When the cloud come through your eyes, it's been a bad day
Never forget the smile that you put on my face
Even when your mind must stray
You are more than what you give yourself credit
Your amazing in my eyes and never forget it
The way you light up a room as soon as you enter
You're not broken just bent, there's no need to fix her.
I hope you know just how special you are
I feel in my heart, I know you will go far
Keep pushing and when you look to your side
There I'll be along for the ride
I see great things for you and I hope I'll be there
When you put your head down and just want to stare.
I get those moods, so know I understand
Together we can do things never known to man
I'm excited to see where this chapter will go
Keep your head up darling, they are watching our show