I am projecting
My self-rejecting
Onto other people

This harmless action
Destroys connection
All in my brain
A habit contained

Now realizing
Awareness sings
Let's liberate
Don't be afraid

Fears are surreal
Anxiety's real
People are mirrors
Of how I think and feel

I am trying to feel anything
Like others across the land
With senses dulled
And feelings cold
Here alone I stand

Here i am sitting far away from you
Missing the old days and the old you
Always have an asthma attack because of you
Your jokes could **** me but i won’t blame you
As i enjoyed every moment laughing with you
Like with my other 9 best friends not just you
And I’m very happy and thankful to all of you
For being my best friends, i want to thank you.

Here i am sitting right in front of you
Feeling so depressed and sad because of you
I should be laughing crazily right now with you
Instead of frowning while looking at you
Why are you being like this i can’t believe you?
I even sacrificed my little study time for you
As i always look forward to go out with you
Having fun wherever we go, aren’t you?

Here you are sitting right in front of me
But i feel a big gap between you and me
My dear friend, look at how you treat me
I mean how could you do this to me?
I’m deeply sad you’re not talking to me
When the only person around you is me
You keep looking at your phone rather than me
Choosing other people instead of me.

Some people: "be kind to yourself."

Me: "get to work, *****."