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To wallow in and under drown,

To shape a tear, to form a frown.


Exaggerations embracing pain,

They weave a spell to summon rain.


A heart to crush, a mind to flood,

And veins that throb with rivers blood.


Confusion swims where soft truth flies,

A cauldron to mix a concoction of lies.


These fires scar, yet sear no flesh,

While times slow healing turns souls to ash.

Never thought I'd feel this way but I do,
I can feel the tears but that ain't coming out,
I'm crying inside,
This feeling is more painful than words can say,
The depression feels so real,
Life was so simple months ago,
Now everything is upside down.

I feel like I'm falling apart,
Where do I start to pick up the pieces?
My life has been shattered into pieces,
Nothing feels the same,
I made this choice,
I'll take the blame,
Something has to change.

The rainy days has became stormy nights,
Fight after fight,
Drama night after night,
The pain has deepened,
I feel like my heart has been torn from my chest,
In this life what's left,
Ever feel alive but inside you feel dead?