i don't like being looked at
when people pay attention to me, i feel               sick
i act like someone else in a group
--- though they wouldn't know it, since that someone else is
invisible

i have never felt comfortable in the spotlight
the center of attention needs to stay far away
from me                                                                                                
the thing is, my point is ---
i don't like being seen at all, whether or not it is as a
girl

but somehow, i'm doing this because i want people to...
what, exactly?
notice me? look at me? pay attention to me?
yes, this is logical.
                                as logical as believing in that which we can't prove.

but what would i know?
i'm just a kid.
i'm just doing this to be my own special snowflake, even though all i've ever wanted was to be

nothing.