I finally found you again
its been years but
I could never forget your
barley laced breath,
sneaking cigarettes
burning everything
but yourself
your burial only hid
the covers of your flesh
who knew that you would
resurrect
into someone I had never met
dipping himself in liquor
his angered tremble
is reminiscent of yours
how foolish was I to believe
you would ever let me out the broken
door of my existence
you must have missed this
you must have wished this
curse upon me!
I suppose its expected when a tomb
remains occupied with life
if only you would die
if only you would drown yourself
lifeless in liquor
if only you would bury me too
and leave me well enough behind.
It's been 5 years since I have spoken to my alcoholic/pill addicted dad, but sometimes I see him peering from behind the eyes of my lover.