We walked along the edge of the ocean,
Were our feet met the sea
Shes gripped my hand a little tighter
Then whispered something to me,

She said,

When we get home
I've got something to show you
Something your dying to see
I know you'll love it,
It's for you,from me..

I'm locked in.
I'm scratching to get out,
No one can hear me.
No one can hear me shout.

I'm locked in,
In a three dimensional cell,
Where no one comes to visit.
No one comes to help.

I'm locked in
and only I can set me free,
You've got the invisible lock,
I've got the invisible key,

Im locked in
and only I can see,
If I want to get out,
I just have to be me.

I watched the old man walking home (from the pub) stumbling up our street.
Swaying from side to side,
tripping over his own feet.

I listened to him mumbling,
under his *** stained breath,
telling himself that he's found his keys and his life isnt a mess.

I watch the old man stop and stare at nothing on the road,
he gives the moon one final glare before he rocks back on his toes,
hes off again,
an making pace,
even though its in the wrong direction,
He's heading back to the pub again,
Where he knows theres no rejection

She told me God was watching
And he had an almighty plan
He was gonna make me someone
Turn me into a man

She said that he would guide me
And always steer me right
Give me light in my darkness hour
Strength to fight my plight

She told me he was my saviour
And i should follow by his rules
I should lead by his example
And never play the fool

The problem is im sitting here
Ill as ill can be
Wondering what kind of man
Gives this illness to me

So you can tell me hes my saviour
And that he'll give me light
But hes not doing the chemo or
Being sick through the night

So keep your precious "almighty"
**** him and all his friends
We'll be having words
When my life comes to an end

It takes alot,
To get me to this place.
Dont stop now,
Just keep the pace.
Let me whisper in your ear,
There will be no other,
There will be no fear..

Dont stop now,
Just kiss my lips,
Close your eyes,
feel my fingertips,
Wandering down the length of your spine
While your legs are tightly wrapped around mine,.

Dont stop now,
Let me be inside you,
Let me feel your worth,
Let me find my place,
Bring me back to earth,.

Just dont stop now..

For me you were my everything,
For you i was everything that was
in between.
I was your favorite pass time.
You were my favourite dream.

I was everything that he was not.
You were more than just my friend,
You were everything id forgot,
Now it's come to a bitter end.

You look back on me fondly,
I look back with hate,
You look back with no regrets,
I'm still your favorite mistake.
                  
                          

Funny ****
You've saved me
From so many stressful times
You've liberated,
And ive craved thee
From beyond what I could find

Your more than words and comfort
Your more than just a ****
Your more than just a midnight friend
A buddy for the road..

Your bad for me i know
But you make me feel so good
If I could find another alternative
I still dont think I would,
Give you up from my life,
You've been around since seventeen,

Your the only constant i have,
You make my pain a dream,
You lift me up,
When im crashing down,
You hold me when I sleep.

Your my only form of pleasure,
Mary-Jane your all I know!
My release
My smoking treasure
My beauty
That grows..

You jumped.
I didnt think you would.
A straight drop.
Over thirteen hundred foot.

You jumped.
You've left me for real.
Now im stuck here,
Not knowing how to feel.

You jumped,
And with you
You took my heart,
Nothings the same now,
My worlds fallen apart.

You jumped,
Right to the bitter end,
Your in a better place now
Good luck to you my friend

                      ♡

I'm sitting on so much anger
I'm sitting with so much hate
I don't know how to carry on or even concentrate.

I'm holding on to bitterness
Its heavy on my frame
I'm crumbling under the undercurrent
From which I can't refrain

You said you enjoyed me
Like a fine wine
Then you finished me off...

I remember when back in the day, you used to bound towards my feet.
You'd stop so deadly at my heels,
Sit perfectly for your treat.

Your tail was always wagging.
Your tongue a constant pant.
Your eyes fixated on my stare, waiting for your next command.

You used to prance around in fields,
And wade your way through puddles,
whenever I was upset,
you'd come and give me cuddles,

But now your getting old boy,
and ive got to do right by you,
I've got to give you eternal peace,.
I just wish you only knew,

Just how happy you made me, coming home to you each and every day,
And the greetings that you gave me,
Set me on my way,
No matter what mood I was in, You'd always make me smile.
You were always in my life.
You were my boy.
You were loyal