i don't need your judgements,
i can't stand this place,
& the next person that rubs me the wrong way,
is gonna get punched in the face,
oh you''re just a waste of time and space,
same person, different face, sometimes i think
i hate the human race.

i don't need your ego,
i don't need your lies,
and i don't need your approval,
see, it's you that i despise.

shallow and hollow, ignorant and weak,,
i'd rather live in silence then listen to you speak,
arguing with you is like screaming at a brick wall,
you look at us like we're freaks, you don't understand
us at all...

so closed minded and cruel, just a bunch of brainwashed clones,
i will not follow the herd, mark my words, i would rather walk alone.

hold on, be strong.
dry your tears my dear.
this is not where you belong.

and all along they had you all wrong.
all along they had you all wrong.

you say it's getting hard just to cope,
you've lost all hope and you're at the end of your rope,
you can't put the broken pieces back together,
and you don't think that it will ever get better.
all your dreams gone up in smoke.

don't let go, don't give in to the sorrow,
there is hope for a better tomorrow,
please don't cry, i hear you say your
ugly, but you know that your lovely,
and that it's an ugly lie.

just keep your head up, and you will
get through, don't let other people get to you,
i know they do, just breathe and believe,
don't give up, just let go, there is so much more
for you, but if you walk away, you'l never know.

i light up the fire to drape the black cloud that constantly hangs over my head with beautiful color.  my black hole becomes a caleidascope, i have beautiful day dreams and visions of hope. i have found serenity in smoke,

can you hear me screaming from beneath the surface?
can you help me find my way?
i am lost in the darkness,  i feel worthless.
my hope has gone astray.

my dear, i'm just nervously standing here,
waiting for the fog to clear, overwhelmed
with sadness and fear.

confusion & anxiety, becoming a part
of my every day, i know that i'm negative & moody,
but trust me, i never wanted it to be this way.

i look out my window, at a world so dark & ugly,
a heartless society that tells me i'm unworthy,
i walk alone & stare down at the ground, while people stop &
stare, wanting to be found, but no one seems to care.
all of there acusations & these hopeless situations,
it's almost more than i can bare.
isolated, wounded & hated, it's just my reality,
everywhere i look, there is negativity.
& all they say as they sneere and look away
is "life is unfair." well trust me, i'm well aware.

you caused me to lose my balance & then you blamed me when i began to bounce off of the walls.

this fear, this hurt, it over powers me, it devours me, baby.
tell me that it's all not just a waste, that i'm the only one who
holds your heart, that i can't be replaced.

tonight i'll get high, & fly out into outerspace,
trying to erase all of your mistakes.

i'm breaking down again, & where are you?
i can't trust a single word you say,
are you falling for someone new?
& what will take this pain away?

i sew my mouth shut, troubled by all of these unspoken
words, all of these questions without anwsers, eating me
alive like cancer. just be honest & real, is it really that hard
of a task?, because i'm so toarn by all of these questions,
that i shouldn't feel the need to ask.

just tell me that you're the anwser.

that gleam in your eyes, makes me terrified,
what lyes beneath them?, & how much do you hide?
oh how i love those eyes, but have they left mine blind?
because of all of these anwsers that i can't find, to the
questions that take away my piece of mind?

it is her, who makes me an insecure monster,
should i just give up & let go? because i'm so
restless & unsure, it's torture, so if it's too laight,
please just let me know.