I want to
lay next to you.

I want to
feel our hearts
beat as one.

I want to
feel your chest
rise and fall
as you breathe
me in.

I want to
feel safe
in your arms.

But I can't...
It's what I want,
not what you need.

(-DF-08/03/16-)

at night people drown in drinks and shots
while some of us turn catharsis into art
guess i could take your tequila and spill it on a napkin
so i can name the masterpiece "love's been lost for too long"

agonizing chants in unison that some of the 'sober us' wouldn't understand
how "take your shirt off" can sometimes mean
"peel your skin back and show me your soul"

and the barman mixes rainbow drinks that color up the night for
'the lonely us'
and there are no lovers waiting home
just dusty cd's that have the magic power
to make our eyes water black teardrops and turn whiskey into
'holy water'

sometimes i wonder the possibility of
planting a coin in my backyard
and water it with ciroc thinking
"maybe i can grow love out of it"

i should be replaying voices of ghosts saying
'i love you and i will never let you go'
but all that comes along are chants
of drunken nights and people dialling numbers that never pick up

see, you only need nine numbers to swallow tears and get the courage to jump off from the thirteenth floor
or maybe you could write a story
in which all of us get our happy ending

I don't want to see you like this,
I don't want to be the reason you say "No",
I've made you like this,
so just forget me and go.

I'm just a soul that wanders freely,
Unable to connect to the world,
How many times to I have to say it,
Just please listen to my word.

I have told you over and over again that everyone has forgotten,
So why don't you too?
My soul will just be left rotten,
No one even has a clue.

Chin up my friend,
Because I wont be returning soon,
So promise me you'll still keep your joy,
because this isn't the end for you.

No one has to remember anymore,
And no one has to know that this is true.

It's been years,
since I've heard of you,
it brings back bad memories,
of all our happy news.

I don't want to think of you,
I've already moved on,
I have new friends to care about,
to help me forget the memories that are finally gone.