Answer me why
When I am away
You act all strange
Indifferent to the things I say.

Answer me why
When I am close
You love me more
Hold me tight
And never let go.

Share with me
What goes through your mind
Seems so confusing
When you don't let me inside.

We've been together for a long time
Share your thoughts,
Your wishes,
What you most desire.

Open your heart,
I will keep it warm.
Why not trust
The one that you love,
The one that won't hurt you
And will only hold you close.

You don't seem to understand
The pain you are causing to your
baby and I.
We have not disappeared,
We are still here.

It seems like it's easy for you to
Ignore us, to hurt us;
Like the past 6 years with me
Were nothing, just gone, thrown.

You clearly understand how we go
to bed at night, Pillow soaked in tears and puffy red eyes, still we are brushed to the side like we don't matter and it's a stab to my heart.

I'm clearly the fool, I fell inlove with you, were you even in love too?
I gave you my heart and all that I am,
I gave you my life and all of my time.

Now I'm just slowly breaking into tiny little pieces, a pain I have never felt before.
I'd like to be happy and fake a smile but how can I when I'm so torn.

I gave you my heart and you just tore it apart.

How beautiful can feelings be
To just hear my heart skip a beat,
all it needs is the thought of you,
Or your touch against my skin.
Impressive how mesmerising
someone can become,
Once a stranger, now a love.
I'm captivated by the way you look at me,
As if I were the one bewitching you here.
Lighting bolts go through
your soul and mine,
connecting them more each time.
Could this be a sign?
Happiness could be so many things,
So many people we meet,
Just by sharing
Incredible memories.

Bottled up feelings
inside my heart
make my heart ponder
breaking it down.

How long will this agony go on?

This battle unravelling
between my thoughts
where have all the
happy memories gone?

Thinking of you
makes me wonder
what goes through your mind?
Don't leave me in the shadows,
enlighten my path.

Give me a sign
of what is to happen.
I just can't keep going
with a black fold
around my eyes.

Give me your hand
and guide my way
back into the place
where all the love lays,
and lets stay there
until there are no more days.

Where would you go?

If I were to tell you it will all end
the minute you
close your eyes
take a breath
it's gone
taken away.

Open your eyes
escape!
its not the only place

There is more out there
don't be deceived by the lies,
the map in your mind,
is all a trap.

The road ahead is an open terrain
nothing compared to what
is in your head.

They feed you the truth
but whose truth
what is true and what is false
in a world damaged by their cause.

Don't be fooled and open your eyes
Escape from the lies that they tell.
Find your own way.

All I can say is
ESCAPE!

Through hard times you have been by my side,
Holding my hand and giving me a shoulder to cry.
But now I am alone and empty
and the tears are pouring down.

I know you are not far from here,
I know that you still love me,
though there is something in my head
that wants to make me insecure
even though I trust in your words.

Hold me tight in your arms
and tell me its al right,
whisper in my ear
that you will always be here.
Kiss my forehead and say,
I'll always be yours
for now
for evermore.

A new world awaits me
every time I close my eyes at night.
I wonder where I'd go,
to Chicago or Hong Kong?

Will I fly there with my wings,
will I swim there with my fins
will I travel underground or
would it be a normal trip.

I can see the stars above me,
their bright light decorating the dark sky.
I fly closer,
I can touch them,
making me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

I can be a singer,
a bunny, and astronaut if I want,
I could travel far far, where no one
will know where I am

So you see me here
standing alone
you are far away, again.
So I'm lying here
crying myself
to sleep, again.

I don't know how long
it'll take for me to
understand you are gone
and wont come back again
it's done
it's done
you are gone.

Oh I wish I could turn back time
so you could be with me.
I wish I could at least find out
what happened to my dear.

I don't understand why
I can see you so.
Before me here you stand,
your ghost,
your ghost,
is gone.

See that girl that seems so strong but you don't know.
She smiles at you with glee so true and you can't help but smile too.
She cries inside all day and night, battling things inside her mind; wishing, hoping that something will change in her life.

She comes to me, eyes filled with tears, looking for hope, wanting to make her see not all is lost.
Open yourself to the world that we are in, don't close it down inside a worn shell, trust what you see love can be real, don't dwell so much in non-existent fears.

Just grab my hand I'll guide your sight to wonderful things ahead.
Don't be afraid, just have some faith that all that is here will someday change.

Luscious lips I want to kiss.
Baby blue pools I want to get lost in.
Wandering hands I miss so much,
How I wish you could be with me.
To feel your warm skin against mine,
to hold your hand and feel butterflies,
to hug you tight and forget
everything around you and I.

I am a powerful being of creation, able to control my surroundings.
All I need is a thought to manipulate what is around me.

I am the happiness that flows from one moment to another.
Its just life's way of letting me know that it can be every colour.

I am the love that wraps me and everyone around me.
Making me feel safe from any dangers that come find me.

I am the sweet melody that transport you to that place,
A safe heaven that temps you to stay.

I am everything I have ever hoped for.
I am everything I need to be.
I am grateful for what I have.
I am.

This little spark inside me.
The one that keeps my dreams alive,
I will make it shine brighter, as the days go by.

I used to think you were the one,
I used to want to be with you all this time.
It seems that only I used to think, used to wish, to be with you, while you...
You wouldn't think the same, I didn't know what went through your mind,
Though I wish you could say.

Now I sit here, not knowing how I feel,
I hear nothing from you and all I do is cry.
Even though I'm not alone, now a bit of you lives in me, yet you knowing this, all you did was run away and now I'm wondering.

Will you come back and stay with our baby and I?

Will you stay back and just leave us behind?

I used to think more of you, but now I'm here and I don't know what to do.

I am going to leave a note for my future self.
I have to let you know that I am content; I can look at his messages again.
I look at them with a smile because now I know what I've learned.

Its funny to see that today I feel this way, knowing that years back I couldn't even hear the sound of his name.
I'm glad for the lesson he left me and I am grateful for the happy memories we shared.
I can finally say we can part our ways.

Now I've found my way.
The path I should follow.
I learned that love comes from deep within myself and not from someone hollow.

Understanding that what you are is what you attract is something important to share and
If you're not happy with yourself, then that is a shame.
Be happy with who you are and what you are today.
Then you will see how everything falls into place.

This is the message I'll leave for you today.

The world likes to bring you down
The people around you drag you to the ground.
How can someone so happy crumble
They don't like you, want to see you under.

What can I do to change this solem state,
The funk I'm in is not easy to break.
I can see the light shine bright through the window above me, far from reach and its there to taunt me.

A thousand words want to scape me but I have no chance or break, I can barely free myself.

Prison cell I'm in.
If you could feel, would you be happy I'm here?

Messy mind is a messy state,
I want to break free of your chains.

Sgp

Through poems and sonets you express how you feel.
Each moment, emotions, making it real.
Losing my composure whenever I read, the wonderful things you say about me.

Awakened insparation, a muse to become.
A burning fire ravages thy soul, can't contain the excitement, your feelings a rush, truly a sight to behold.

Space entangles our state of being, expecting treasure that's been forbidden.
In my subconscious you leave a whisper, in time I will get its meaning.

Intended, how can you pursue this so?
Presuming fruitful results, is thy heart and soul prepared for what's to come? I don't know how you'll be able to hold.

Seasons may change and a tide may take what's been awakened there. Your heart may be unfazed but only time can show the legitimacy of your truth.

There are so many thoughts in my head,
some I wish they weren't there.
My heart keeps pondering over them,
while I try to forget.
When will things clarify,
I can't keep doing this to my heart.
Even though I seem strong,
you don't know how easy it is
for me to fall.
I'm scared of falling where
I might never come back.
It doesn't seem too far,
from where I'm sat.
Just hold my hand and
I'll know it will be fine,
that you won't leave my side,
that you'll let me feel safe
In your arms.

When the big day comes,
you will not be there.
Just another dance gone.
You promised we'll be together again.

And I haven't thought about it.
Still denying.

I fear the cruel truth,
that you are gone for good.
But you are not forgotten,
I always think of you.

I carry you in my heart,
you live in my mind.
I promise I'll do great things,
like you said I would.

So this is not goodbye,
and I won't be sad.
Just wait until my arrival
and save me a dance.

Sweet sensations
that completes me
from you I know I live
thank the heavens I will.

Beautiful sight
revolves around me
past the horizon I can’t see
where wonders reside for me.

Luscious taste makes me test
different cultures
different place
meet people along the way.

Alluring smell that traps me
a prison I won’t break
I sense it inflowing my body
I don’t want it to end.

Astonishing sound surrounds me
makes me feel free
don’t take away my fantasy
I want to reside here.

Sensation sensation
I feel with my hands
its too cold
or too warm
and never feels right
when I try to release it
it breaks my heart
but I have to keep moving
and leave everything behind.

Stranger you were, waltzed into my life, oblivious to what was to rise.
Broken and in pieces you found this soul, but yours was not better, so I'm told.

To confide and find solace in one another, has granted a spark to flourish.
It was rushed, you may say, yes I will not contradict, but at the same time I don't regret.

Time is irrelevant  once your heart starts.
To you that has my heart in his hands, I will leave you to care for it however you want.

In the darkness I was standing,
Your light slowly blinding.
Take my hand you said politely
I held it tight, please don't mind me.

Afraid of lifting,
thinking you'd fall by having,
my grip around your body tightly.
Yet you somehow pulled me out,
not fearing, the risks that were behind me.

You are the one I've searched for.
The one that came through.
My heart is no longer a void because of you.

I feel like I owe you something but you keep saying it's nothing.
You are the one that says, you and I were meant to meet.
It's fate, let it be

How can you shine so bright in a world that's black and white.
Tell me your secret and be my guide.
Don't let me be behind you, let me stand by your side.