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Skylar Williams  Aug 2013
SoC 1
Skylar Williams Aug 2013
Searching for the truth. All I feel is this unquenchable desire to create something beautiful. I don’t care if it’s a poem, a song, a painting, I just want to create something that expresses all of this life that I’m living. But everything has been said before, has been written before, has been thought of before. And I sit here trying in vain to create, create, create from my soul, but all I can think is what will people think? Is this good enough? Is this original? I feel like an amalgamation of all the experiences, people and places I’ve come across. Like if you stripped away everything that’s ever happened to me, there would be nothing left. Do I have a soul? Where is this stream of consciousness coming from? I don’t know. And I try to be okay with not knowing, but I don’t know if I am. I don't even know if I'm okay with not knowing if I can not know.

So in the meantime, I surf the web, look at beautiful works of art, and listen to music from decades long ago.  And I think that I’m changing, that I’m developing a clearer picture of who I am and who I want to be, but then I feel just as stuck as I did four years ago. Is this growing up? Because while I do hate the ignorance, the exclusiveness, the pettiness, I need the opportunities. I like to say I could live on my own, but I’m not ready for the jadedness, the financial problems, the 2.5 kids. I hate the restrictions, the normalcy, the surges of emotion, but I need the safety net. I like to act like I’m so wise about the world and the universe and everything, but the only thing I know is that I’m just as lost as everyone else. I’m so far from knowing the answers, I don’t even know the questions.

Or maybe I know the answers, I just don’t know how to implement them. Maybe I don’t want to. Maybe, as much I hate shoes and love being late, I’m a creature of habit as much as everyone else.  Maybe I know that I should be myself and not care what others say, spend my life helping others, that money isn't worth much in the end, that clichés of peace, love and happiness are what I really yearn for. Maybe everything they tell me is wrong. It all contradicts itself, really.
Be who you are.
             but adapt to your surroundings.
Listen to your parents.
                           but search for freedom.
Learn to be assertive.
                                          focus on serving others.
Fight for what you believe.
                                                 but strive for peace.
Fit in.
    Be  d i  f   f   e     r      e       n        t.
Cherish each moment.
                                                                but make responsible decisions.
Love everyone.
                                                                                but separate yourself from negative people
they say
so many "they"s
how many "us"

To the point where I simultaneously want to scream
And be ashamed of myself for fitting into a stereotype of the rebellious teenager, good girl gone bad, thinks she could change the world one day, gets herself depressed over problems that can’t compare to those everyone else is facing, but that’s part of why she’s depressed in the first place.

So I guess it’s all about balance. Finding the right combination of the spiritual and the physical, the senses and the thought, the good times and the bad, the acceptance and the growth, the they and the us, the serenity and the passion, the connection and the rebellion, the creativity and the burning of the old rusty fences that are holding you back.
Anjana Rao Oct 2014
I've never been an exhibitionist. Fame and money have never been my goals. If I played music it was for myself, softly so no one could hear. If I made art, it was unassuming doodles on scraps of paper that didn't matter. If I wrote, the final pieces were buried away, whether in journal pages or word documents in neatly organized file folders.

Social media changes everything.

Suddenly, everyone has a voice. Suddenly I'm thinking, why not my voice, what's wrong with my writing?  Sure, I didn't get an English degree, I hold no MFA, but plenty of people write online, after all, it's just the Internet.

"It's just the Internet." What a catch 22 - in my head, it's either "Don't air your ***** laundry, no one wants to know," or, "Go ahead, air your ***** laundry, you're a speck of dust in the grand scheme of things, who's going to care?"

I've never been an exhibitionist, but social media changes everything. You have a thought? Tweet it. You like a photo? Pin it. You have an opinion? Post it. Facebook, tumblr, ello, Hello Poetry, wordpress, blogspot - there are so many venues, take your pick. The world is your oyster. Express yourself.

Fame and money have never been my goals. And I don't say this in an attempt to be original. I don't say this with the idea that I'm above anyone who'd want either. Because let's be real, would I say no to being paid to write? Of course not.

No, what I'm really after is something else. Connections. If I unleash my thoughts into that strange universe that is the Internet, maybe, just maybe, I'll get something back, a spark, a "message received." Not a "Hi, how are you," but a "Yes, I understand. Let's share stories."
Storm  May 2014
Lana Del Rey
Storm May 2014
She's like a Lana Del Rey Song
Beautiful, deep, and once it gets stuck in your head - you can't get it out

She's beautiful in more ways than one, maybe it's her personality or it's the way her hair falls past her shoulders or maybe it's the way she looks at you with those eyes. Oh Those eyes that makes your heart race because you know they're on you. Those eyes you wish you could wake up to them in the morning. You find her actions cute and maybe that's another reason why you think she's beautiful. The way she calls you an ******* when you tease her the fact that you and her can have a cute playful relationship. Her giggle her laugh it's so beautiful, you can't help but to smile when you hear it probably because it's so rare to hear. She's beautiful because she is someone that you find interesting and interesting people are hard to come by now a days. Her soul though - you find the most beautiful. The type of person she is. What makes her so beautiful? You think to yourself - it's everything literally everything and you understand she may not understand but you do and well that's enough because you'll make her understand it. You want her to see herself the way you see her.

She's deep in oh so many ways, she writes poetry and reads literature. She's intelligent and it's like a breath of fresh air. When you speak to her even though it maybe about nothing at all so much is being spoken - it's not just in one ear and out the other words it's actual conversation. Those words, her words stick to you. You want to discuss the world with her and her views on life. You want to listen to anything and everything she has to say as she smokes her cigarette. You want to see the world through her eyes even if it's just for a moment. You want to know everything you can about her, the good as well as the bad. You want to know the person she is, you want to know what goes on in her head. Is there a war in her mind like yours? Or is her mind peaceful? She is the exact opposite of you, yet you and her are the same. Would that make sense to her if you tried to explain it? Eh you hope so. Then again would you even explain it to her? Probably not because you'll probably never share this with her for the soul reason of being too afraid to share your thoughts on someone like her to her. You're also too afraid she won't feel the same way, and that scares you.

Then again just like a Lana Del Rey song she can be dark and it's not her fault and she can't help it. But do you care she has a dark side and messing with her is like playing Russian roulette? No in fact - you want to play. You want to take that chance, you think her imperfections make her absolutely perfect. You want to hold her in your arms, you want to push her against the wall and make out with her. You want to prove to her that not all people will **** her over, that there are people YOU who want to give her everything even the things she never knew she wanted until she had them. Others have just let her walk out of their life's like she was nothing. You think to yourself, you would never do that because you are not an ******* like the rest. You want to prove to her that she matters in more ways than one. You want to prove to her that she's worth every ounce of energy you can muster up. Most importantly though - if she left, if she ever wanted to leave would you let her walk out of your life just as easy as all the rest? No you would put up a fight to make her stay, even if that meant getting on a plane immediately to go be with her to tell her she's being ridiculous as you kiss her deeply to clam her down.

She's get stuck in your head and you won't be able to get her out, and you know what? That's okay because just like a Lana Del Rey song those lyrics so hauntingly beautiful you want her in your head. You want to think about what she's doing and if she's thinking about you at that very second. You think about the possibilities of you crossing her mind and if you do does she smile? You sure do hope so. You often wonder what it would be like to kiss her lips and feel her small frame against yours, it's probably pure bliss you think to yourself. You want to kiss her passionately to Burning Desire because for some reason that songs speaks to you about her, and grab her hips holding her close to Gods & Monsters because it's the first Lana song she sang to you and in some way that song is our song. However maybe it's just our song to me, although hopefully it is to her. But you want this and you want that, you can only hope she wants the same. Please want the same you think to yourself. You also wonder what it would be like to drag your teeth against her skin and kiss every inch of her body, yeah I'm sure it's complete bliss. You want her, you want her.

She's like a Lana Del Rey song that's so hauntingly beautiful that you want to leave on repeat.

-soc
Aaron Menconi Jun 2015
Sometimes when I'm up late
and sleep's weight weighs downward on my eyelids
I focus on unspace and chase with my eyes
the ember fitted neatly between *******.

sometimes I sit there and think
of all the problems in the world
and weigh them on my eyelids
and they don't weigh nearly as much as sleep.

I have dreams that I'm in a zoo
watching a lion with a human *****
being stroked by two woman, clad in nothing
and I have to escape the maintenance men
who don't know I'm there.
I hope those women know what they're getting into.

I like to think they do,
stroking the lion's ***** in plain sight
of the maintenance men coming down the road in a red jeep;
sometimes I think they have no idea.

sometimes the weight of sleep weighs so heavy on my eyes
that I dream of a perfect world
where the lion is vanquished and submissive
and the lion is pleasing those women with ecstasy
but sometimes I stay awake to see that the world is not that simple.
Tiara I S  Mar 2019
Soc Anx
Tiara I S Mar 2019
When did friendship come with an expiration date
Since the first date we were strung out
Rung out and left to decay away
I thought I called Philotes all this time
Wrong dial- wrong mood- Oizys answers me in her place

It is the fear of absolment that vices my tongue
For I too often dissolve beneath others' acid
Quicker to cut the appendage than to gather my pride
Or what's been scraped from me
because I yearn for our friendship to remain intact and I do not think you quite understand how detrimental it is for me
The sky is gray. Everything is gray really. The ground is grey brown. The the trees are gray green, and the sky is gray blue. A lonely man jogs beneath me in the cold. Most everything is still save for the gentle swaying of trees in the edge of my panoramic window view. There stand in the middle of the lot two trees that have traded their resemblance to stoic poets for the whims of the winds. They make me wonder about my brother. I remember how he used to mow the lawn on sunny days, rhythmically flexing his jaw as it rang with the vibrations from the machine at his fingertips. I remember the smell of fresh cut grass. I wonder if he was as trapped in his head as those other autistics who prove to be quite sentient. I imagine holding a conversation with a brother who is more intelligent than i ever imagined. I wonder how he's doing? I havent heard much about him since he tried to **** mom. Ticking time bomb. Set free to nurses in a hospice center. Released into the hands of a familial tyrant bent on pimping my brother for pills and potential children. Fake flower petals nestled in the window attempt quite faintly to soak up the silver sunlight. The sun is lazy today. It hasnt taken the time to run around the sky and warm itself up. It's laying asleep in a bed of clouds and contrary to what people say about them, i don't see a single silver lining. Just blurred edges. But somehow they manage to still be beautiful. They are a tired sort of beautiful. Cold stones lie in a shallow grave atop the rooftop awning extending from the outer edge of the building. They are splotched with tar and mold. Rainwater takes it's toll. The trees are tipping again. sideways and sideways back again. They seem to be fond of that tick tock triage. Much like mine. But i am less fond. Mind goes back to autistic rocking again. Sometimes i feel like my heart does what special needs people do on the outside. If my heart had a mind it would no it were in a cage consisting of cracked ribs and the dreams of a miser. If it had fists, depending on what day it is, let's say a dreary tuesday, like this, it would likely lay down on its wall hung mattress and resign to twiddling with it's thumbs. If my heart had a tin cup it would rattle it against my ribs. I would feel it in my spine and try to remember why i was built this way. But my heart doesnt have a cup, so it's thirsty, and restless. Without instrument. on days like this i would rather stare straight into the face of a room more brusque, floor covered in dust and hinges tinged with rust than to pretend that i am blemish free. on days like this i would prefer mongering war with my self and wallow in a pile of my own pelts, flayed from me by my own sharp words. The truth hurts. But tomorrow. . .tomorrow. . . who knows, i might hang some curtains.
Josh Bass  Sep 2014
SoC Style 1
Josh Bass Sep 2014
No grin, frog lips
It's run, jump, punch
parta the apocalypse
Tired of being the
last ball in the hopper
Worth more than the
price of the copper

...now listen...

Jonzin for the days
Of Zee Emerald
and a loose tooth
**** is ephemeral
Like the era in a phone booth
Put a quarter up
E.T. Phone home
Kids today never had to
fear that dial tone...
Today to yesterday
Lesa Renee Dec 2016
Likened to abandoned theme park
Once fond memories cracked like abused porcelain
Affections taken over by invasive species
The fragrance and flavors once beloved, now poisoned and tasteless
My only want was to finally build a real home with you
A sanctuary
To capture a sense of pride and ease within the walls of our first attempt at creating this space together
To build something meaningful
To have a combined sense of accomplishment
What we are going through makes me think we do not bring out the best in one another
That we don't even like each other
That we are starting to become some angry sense of entitlement to our feelings instead of acknowledging the experience and skills we each possess and allowing them to be demonstrated
That incessant reference to one's opinion
Shouting from the rooftops just to be heard, right or wrong
The begging to just be
Respected
Cared for
Supported
Fought for instead of against
Overwhelmed by the demand for control
The chaotic pattern of pain
The bickering
The embittered, defensive replies to the simplest inquiry
The pushback against a simple difference of view
The lack of compromise because the war to be right appears to be more important than being happy
Sick to death of the exhaustion and sleeplessness and isolation
Happiness ruined by blame and selfishness
A creeping death, like a filthy air filter, will eventually have its way
So sick of contemplating a life beyond depression instead of living it
A life without a broken back
Without a broken voice
Without a broken heart
Starting to forget what it used to feel like to walk without the sting of these burdens around my ankles
Pulled into a stairwell of despair and breaking every bone on the way down
The constant ache
The stress from tiptoes on thin ice
The cuts from the shattered glass of the window pane
The threat of never recovering
Imminent with each misstep
Building upon an already cracked foundation
A landscape of burned out Earth, choking on the drought
Homeless dreams in littered streets
Dreams of you
A starving canine with your ribs showing, escaping reality by wandering the street for scraps
as I lie in wait, "slowly killing myself" as you look on
Past me
Through me
Those framed glass shards and their tattered curtains
Might as well be my body, my heart, and my soul
All in a seemingly endless, untenable state of disrepair
Scrubbing at the flaws until my hands bleed with no way to get the stains out
Gasping for breath with the hope of a new day
Stifled by the devastating collapse beneath the mountain of rubble
A stream of consciousness while being blinded by tears and robbed of sleep once again.
I.

Ô vous, mes vieux amis, si jeunes autrefois,
Qui comme moi des jours avez porté le poids,
Qui de plus d'un regret frappez la tombe sourde,
Et qui marchez courbés, car la sagesse est lourde ;
Mes amis ! qui de vous, qui de nous n'a souvent,
Quand le deuil à l'œil sec, au visage rêvant,
Cet ami sérieux qui blesse et qu'on révère,
Avait sur notre front posé sa main sévère,
Qui de nous n'a cherché le calme dans un chant !
Qui n'a, comme une sœur qui guérit en touchant,
Laissé la mélodie entrer dans sa pensée !
Et, sans heurter des morts la mémoire bercée,
N'a retrouvé le rire et les pleurs à la fois
Parmi les instruments, les flûtes et les voix !

Qui de nous, quand sur lui quelque douleur s'écoule,
Ne s'est glissé, vibrant au souffle de la foule,
Dans le théâtre empli de confuses rumeurs !
Comme un soupir parfois se perd dans des clameurs,
Qui n'a jeté son âme, à ces âmes mêlée,
Dans l'orchestre où frissonne une musique ailée,
Où la marche guerrière expire en chant d'amour,
Où la basse en pleurant apaise le tambour !

II.

Écoutez ! écoutez ! du maître qui palpite,
Sur tous les violons l'archet se précipite.
L'orchestre tressaillant rit dans son antre noir.
Tout parle. C'est ainsi qu'on entend sans les voir,
Le soir, quand la campagne élève un sourd murmure,
Rire les vendangeurs dans une vigne mûre.
Comme sur la colonne un frêle chapiteau,
La flûte épanouie a monté sur l'alto.
Les gammes, chastes sœurs dans la vapeur cachées,
Vident et remplissent leurs amphores penchées,
Se tiennent par la main et chantent tour à tour.
Tandis qu'un vent léger fait flotter alentour,
Comme un voile folâtre autour d'un divin groupe,
Ces dentelles du son que le fifre découpe.
Ciel ! voilà le clairon qui sonne. À cette voix,
Tout s'éveille en sursaut, tout bondit à la fois.

La caisse aux mille échos, battant ses flancs énormes,
Fait hurler le troupeau des instruments difformes,
Et l'air s'emplit d'accords furieux et sifflants
Que les serpents de cuivre ont tordus dans leurs flancs.
Vaste tumulte où passe un hautbois qui soupire !
Soudain du haut en bas le rideau se déchire ;
Plus sombre et plus vivante à l'œil qu'une forêt,
Toute la symphonie en un hymne apparaît.
Puis, comme en un chaos qui reprendrait un monde,
Tout se perd dans les plis d'une brume profonde.
Chaque forme du chant passe en disant : Assez !
Les sons étincelants s'éteignent dispersés.
Une nuit qui répand ses vapeurs agrandies
Efface le contour des vagues mélodies,
Telles que des esquifs dont l'eau couvre les mâts ;
Et la strette, jetant sur leur confus amas
Ses tremblantes lueurs largement étalées,
Retombe dans cette ombre en grappes étoilées !

Ô concert qui s'envole en flamme à tous les vents !
Gouffre où le crescendo gonfle ses flots mouvants !
Comme l'âme s'émeut ! comme les cœurs écoutent !
Et comme cet archet d'où les notes dégouttent,
Tantôt dans le lumière et tantôt dans la nuit,
Remue avec fierté cet orage de bruit !

III.

Puissant Palestrina, vieux maître, vieux génie,
Je vous salue ici, père de l'harmonie,
Car, ainsi qu'un grand fleuve où boivent les humains,
Toute cette musique a coulé dans vos mains !
Car Gluck et Beethoven, rameaux sous qui l'on rêve,
Sont nés de votre souche et faits de votre sève !
Car Mozart, votre fils, a pris sur vos autels
Cette nouvelle lyre inconnue aux mortels,
Plus tremblante que l'herbe au souffle des aurores,
Née au seizième siècle entre vos doigts sonores !
Car, maître, c'est à vous que tous nos soupirs vont,
Sitôt qu'une voix chante et qu'une âme répond !

Oh ! ce maître, pareil au créateur qui fonde,
Comment dit-il jaillir de sa tête profonde
Cet univers de sons, doux et sombre à la fois,
Écho du Dieu caché dont le monde est la voix ?
Où ce jeune homme, enfant de la blonde Italie,
Prit-il cette âme immense et jusqu'aux bords remplie ?
Quel souffle, quel travail, quelle intuition,
Fit de lui ce géant, dieu de l'émotion,
Vers qui se tourne l'œil qui pleure et qui s'essuie,
Sur qui tout un côté du cœur humain s'appuie ?
D'où lui vient cette voix qu'on écoute à genoux ?
Et qui donc verse en lui ce qu'il reverse en nous ?

IV.

Ô mystère profond des enfances sublimes !
Qui fait naître la fleur au penchant des abîmes,
Et le poète au bord des sombres passions ?
Quel dieu lui trouble l'œil d'étranges visions ?
Quel dieu lui montre l'astre au milieu des ténèbres,
Et, comme sous un crêpe aux plis noirs et funèbres
On voit d'une beauté le sourire enivrant,
L'idéal à travers le réel transparent ?
Qui donc prend par la main un enfant dès l'aurore
Pour lui dire : - " En ton âme il n'est pas jour encore.
Enfant de l'homme ! avant que de son feu vainqueur
Le midi de la vie ait desséché ton cœur,
Viens, je vais t'entrouvrir des profondeurs sans nombre !
Viens, je vais de clarté remplir tes yeux pleins d'ombre !
Viens, écoute avec moi ce qu'on explique ailleurs,
Le bégaiement confus des sphères et des fleurs ;
Car, enfant, astre au ciel ou rose dans la haie,
Toute chose innocente ainsi que toi bégaie !
Tu seras le poète, un homme qui voit Dieu !
Ne crains pas la science, âpre sentier de feu,
Route austère, il est vrai, mais des grands cœurs choisies,
Que la religion et que la poésie
Bordent des deux côtés de leur buisson fleuri.
Quand tu peux en chemin, ô bel enfant chéri,
Cueillir l'épine blanche et les clochettes bleues,
Ton petit pas se joue avec les grandes lieues.
Ne crains donc pas l'ennui ni la fatigue. - Viens !
Écoute la nature aux vagues entretiens.
Entends sous chaque objet sourdre la parabole.
Sous l'être universel vois l'éternel symbole,
Et l'homme et le destin, et l'arbre et la forêt,
Les noirs tombeaux, sillons où germe le regret ;
Et, comme à nos douleurs des branches attachées,
Les consolations sur notre front penchées,
Et, pareil à l'esprit du juste radieux,
Le soleil, cette gloire épanouie aux cieux !

V.

Dieu ! que Palestrina, dans l'homme et dans les choses,
Dut entendre de voix joyeuse et moroses !
Comme on sent qu'à cet âge où notre cœur sourit,
Où lui déjà pensait, il a dans son esprit
Emporté, comme un fleuve à l'onde fugitive,
Tout ce que lui jetait la nuée ou la rive !
Comme il s'est promené, tout enfant, tout pensif,
Dans les champs, et, dès l'aube, au fond du bois massif,
Et près du précipice, épouvante des mères !
Tour à tour noyé d'ombre, ébloui de chimères,
Comme il ouvrait son âme alors que le printemps
Trempe la berge en fleur dans l'eau des clairs étangs,
Que le lierre remonte aux branches favorites,
Que l'herbe aux boutons d'or mêle les marguerites !

A cette heure indécise où le jour va mourir,
Où tout s'endort, le cœur oubliant de souffrir,
Les oiseaux de chanter et les troupeaux de paître,
Que de fois sous ses yeux un chariot champêtre,
Groupe vivant de bruit, de chevaux et de voix,
A gravi sur le flanc du coteau dans les bois
Quelque route creusée entre les ocres jaunes,
Tandis que, près d'une eau qui fuyait sous les aulnes,
Il écoutait gémir dans les brumes du soir
Une cloche enrouée au fond d'un vallon noir !

Que de fois, épiant la rumeur des chaumières,
Le brin d'herbe moqueur qui siffle entre deux pierres,
Le cri plaintif du soc gémissant et traîné,
Le nid qui jase au fond du cloître ruiné
D'où l'ombre se répand sur les tombes des moines,
Le champ doré par l'aube où causent les avoines
Qui pour nous voir passer, ainsi qu'un peuple heureux,
Se penchent en tumulte au bord du chemin creux,
L'abeille qui gaiement chante et parle à la rose,
Parmi tous ces objets dont l'être se compose,
Que de fois il rêva, scrutateur ténébreux,
Cherchant à s'expliquer ce qu'ils disaient entre eux !

Et chaque soir, après ses longues promenades,
Laissant sous les balcons rire les sérénades,
Quand il s'en revenait content, grave et muet,
Quelque chose de plus dans son cœur remuait.
Mouche, il avait son miel ; arbuste, sa rosée.
Il en vint par degrés à ce qu'en sa pensée
Tout vécut. - Saint travail que les poètes font ! -
Dans sa tête, pareille à l'univers profond,
L'air courait, les oiseaux chantaient, la flamme et l'onde
Se courbaient, la moisson dorait la terre blonde,
Et les toits et les monts et l'ombre qui descend
Se mêlaient, et le soir venait, sombre et chassant
La brute vers son antre et l'homme vers son gîte,
Et les hautes forêts, qu'un vent du ciel agite,
Joyeuses de renaître au départ des hivers,
Secouaient follement leurs grands panaches verts !

C'est ainsi qu'esprit, forme, ombre, lumière et flamme,
L'urne du monde entier s'épancha dans son âme !

VI.

Ni peintre, ni sculpteur ! Il fut musicien.
Il vint, nouvel Orphée, après l'Orphée ancien ;
Et, comme l'océan n'apporte que sa vague,
Il n'apporta que l'art du mystère et du vague !
La lyre qui tout bas pleure en chantant bien haut !
Qui verse à tous un son où chacun trouve un mot !
Le luth où se traduit, plus ineffable encore,
Le rêve inexprimé qui s'efface à l'aurore !
Car il ne voyait rien par l'angle étincelant,
Car son esprit, du monde immense et fourmillant
Qui pour ses yeux nageait dans l'ombre indéfinie,
Éteignait la couleur et tirait l'harmonie !
Ainsi toujours son hymne, en descendant des cieux,
Pénètre dans l'esprit par le côté pieux,
Comme un rayon des nuits par un vitrail d'église !
En écoutant ses chants que l'âme idéalise,
Il semble, à ces accords qui, jusqu'au cœur touchant,
Font sourire le juste et songer le méchant,
Qu'on respire un parfum d'encensoirs et de cierges,
Et l'on croit voir passer un de ces anges-vierges
Comme en rêvait Giotto, comme Dante en voyait,
Êtres sereins posés sur ce monde inquiet,
À la prunelle bleue, à la robe d'opale,
Qui, tandis qu'au milieu d'un azur déjà pâle
Le point d'or d'une étoile éclate à l'orient,
Dans un beau champ de trèfle errent en souriant !

VII.

Heureux ceux qui vivaient dans ce siècle sublime
Où, du génie humain dorant encor la cime,
Le vieux soleil gothique à l'horizon mourait !
Où déjà, dans la nuit emportant son secret,
La cathédrale morte en un sol infidèle
Ne faisait plus jaillir d'églises autour d'elle !
Être immense obstruée encore à tous degrés,
Ainsi qu'une Babel aux abords encombrés,
De donjons, de beffrois, de flèches élancées,
D'édifices construits pour toutes les pensées ;
De génie et de pierre énorme entassement ;
Vaste amas d'où le jour s'en allait lentement !
Siècle mystérieux où la science sombre
De l'antique Dédale agonisait dans l'ombre,
Tandis qu'à l'autre bout de l'horizon confus,
Entre Tasse et Luther, ces deux chênes touffus,
Sereine, et blanchissant de sa lumière pure
Ton dôme merveilleux, ô sainte Architecture,
Dans ce ciel, qu'Albert Düre admirait à l'écart,
La Musique montait, cette lune de l'art !

Le 29 mai 1837.
PoetryHeals Jun 2019
It feels like I've been away for too long.
It hasn't even been that long but yet life goes on, and so do you.
It hurts. It hurts knowing that things we used to do, now seem insignificant because time has altered them.

Picking at every memory we ever had that made me happy, and making them about my insecurities is exhausting.
Are they insecurities? Or is it just another proof of what society wants us to do?
Questioning ourselves to the point where we even question if anybody else will ever love us?
Missing her.

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