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Aaron LaLux Jul 2016
Who is this H.P. Lovecraft,
was he even a poet,
this whole industry’s a bloodbath,
I’ve got four aces in my hand and I’m willing to show this,

to who’s pleasure do I owe this,
how can I be the greatest,
when they’ve got me battling ghost,
in this never ending matrix,

I ate the red pill and the blue pill,
maybe that’s why I’m so confused,
plus THT1 should be #1 for real,
but right now it’s sitting at #2,

I’m behind a dead man,
Mr. H.P. Lovecraft,
fck that,
fame is a deathtrap,

who is this H.P. Lovecraft,
not even alive some random published his book,
now he’s at #1 and I’m at #2 worldwide,
for real take a look!

I just published a new book,
take a moment to check it out,
all profits go to charity,
to prevents child abuse and ****** assault,

so not only are you getting an epic book of poetry,
but you're also supporting a good cause no doubt,
because I believe we can change this world for the better,
but we have no time to waste so let’s start now!

Here’s the link to the new book: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01I4621OE
For real...
Aaron LaLux Jul 2016
So I published a book recently; The H Trilogy Volume 1: City of Angels
And I'm REALLY frustrated because the book should be #1 on the Amazon Hot New Releases right now in Poetry but instead there is an HP Lovecraft book in the #1 position and I'm #2. This is an atrocity to the integrity of all  us real writers because for one the anthology is not New. HP Lovecraft is dead. And the anthology was not released by him. If you read the reviews on the Lovecraft collection you'll see!
There are many 1 star reviews from people that I don't know but that share the same perspective of outrage as I do.

PLUS, Lovecraft's work is public domain and it is actually illegal for people to capitalize off of his work.

Let's focus on writers that are still living instead of giving credit to one's that have passed. "H.P. Lovecraft Complete Collection" is not new, nor is it poetry. So how can it rightfully be listed as a poetry new release? Come on, please, let's make this right.
Here's the link to my book: https://www.amazon.com/Trilogy-City-Angels-Aaron-Lux/dp/1535054328
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Noandy  Dec 2016
Pengantar Tidur
Noandy Dec 2016
Sebuah cerita pendek

00.57

Dalam alunan Wiegenlied milik Brahms, dimainkan dengan biola secara gusar dan takut,
Kau terbangun.

“Kalau kamu sudah hafal notasinya, percepat temponya. Seharusnya seperti itu.”
“Aku tidak mau,”
“Seharusnya seperti itu.”

Lalu kau kembali tertidur.

                                                     ­            ///

Aku tidak tahu kenapa kau terus tertidur, Dis. Aku selalu berharap agar kau dapat bangun, membuka jendelamu, dan membiarkan angin yang masuk dari jendela lantai sepuluh kamarmu itu mengawetkan matamu yang jarang sekali terbuka. Sudah selayaknya biru langit menghidupkanmu. Sudah sepatutnya suara sunyi pagi memenuhi telingamu yang selalu mengharapkan nyanyi. Tapi kau tidak selalu terbangun. Kadang hanya ragamu saja yang terbangun, sedang jiwamu entah di mana.  Kadang juga aku merasakan adanya dirimu, tapi kau tak dapat ditemukan di sekitarku. Aku dapat menemukanmu, sepertinya, dalam Wiegenlied milik Brahms yang biasanya mengantarmu menuju tidur yang lelap—sebagaimana acara anak-anak mengalunkan lagu itu menjelang pukul delapan malam.

Aku tidak tahu kenapa kau terus tertidur, Dis. Kau ingin selamanya tertidur. Pernah suatu saat, di antara kepulan bau thinner dan cat kayu yang tak kunjung hilang, kau mendekatiku dan berkata,

“Aku tahu sekarang kenapa kau ingin mati.”
“Aku ingin mati?”
“Aku tahu, aku ingin mati—juga.”

Aku bergurau,

“Ya sudah. Nantinya juga kita semua akan mati.”

Aku tidak tahu kenapa kau meninggalkan biolamu dan lebih memilih tertidur, kenapa kau memilih meninggalkan kita semua dan mengunci dirimu, kenapa kau hanya terbangun sesekali di jam dan waktu yang tidak umum. Semua orang mencarimu, dan tak ada yang tahu apakah kau adalah kau ataukah sekedar tubuh tanpa jiwa—mayat yang hidup. Kurasa kau sudah menjadi mayat hidup sejak kau katakan hal itu padaku. Kuharap kau juga memberi tahu alasan mengapa kau ingin tak bertubuh dan tak berjiwa.

Kau menggerogoti dirimu dari dalam, Dis. Kau melantunkan nina-bobo yang mengerikan untuk dirimu sendiri. Sebuah lagu pengantar tidur yang musik dan liriknya berisi pemujaan pada kematian yang kau dambakan. Berapa kali harus kukatakan kalau kita akhirnya nanti mati juga?

Minggu lalu kita berbincang panjang—tak jauh dari perihal tubuh, jiwa, dan takdir. Kau terlarut pada sekumpulan cerita H.P. Lovecraft yang kau pinjam dariku, dan senantiasa kau bawa tidur karena baunya mengingatkanmu padaku. Sepertinya bukan hanya bauku yang meracunimu tapi kisah-kisahnya pula. Herbert West: Reanimator, dan Hawa Dingin. Kau berpikir dan berandai jika tubuh yang tak lengkap dan seluruh organnya tak berfungsi, masih memiliki kemungkinan untuk bertahan apabila diawetkan dan jiwanya ada. Bagaimana kita tahu jika jiwa itu ada, Dis? Apa bedanya dengan roh? Apa pertandanya?

Tapi aku tetap saja larut dalam lamunanmu. Lebih baik kau terus berbicara daripada tertidur atau teler karena hal-hal yang kau teguk sembarangan di malam sebelumnya saat tak dapat terlelap. Lebih baik kau terus berbicara, aku suka mendengarkanmu berbicara karena derap suara yang kau lantunkan berjalan selangkah sama dengan milikku.

Entah apa akhir pembicaraan kita tentang roh dan jiwa itu, aku tak dapat mengingatnya. Yang samar-samar kuingat adalah, kau secara tidak langsung mengatakan bahwa yang terpenting dari sebuah kehidupan bukanlah tubuh—selama jiwa itu ada.

Lalu semenjak itu aku tak melihatmu mendatangi latihan lagi. Memang aku tak selalu memperhatikan latihan aktor yang bukan merupakan porsiku dalam pagelaran ini, tapi saat istirahat menggarap properti dan menjelajah kantin atau intip-intip para aktor yang latihan, tak juga kutemukan ragamu di sana. Apa kau ada di sana, mengikuti latihan  tapi tak ada yang dapat melihatmu? Memangnya ini cerita supernatural dan kau sedang melakukan proyeksi astral?

Semua orang membutuhkanmu untuk terus melanjutkan peran yang kau mainkan, Dis. Tapi apakah mereka peduli padamu? Aku tak seberapa yakin. Aku merasa mereka hanya memperdulikanmu atas dasar kepentingan itu, dan tak sepenuhnya menelisik masalah yang menggerogotimu dari dalam. Memang beberapa kali kau merasa malas, tapi aku yang bekerja di belakang panggung dengamu sejak tahun lalu ini percaya kalau kau tidak ingin tidur karena malas. Kau ingin tidur karena ingin jiwamu saja yang hidup, tubuhmu sudah terlalu lelah atas luka-luka dan lebam yang sudah sejak lama bersarang padanya, dan atas sesuatu yang menghabisinya dari dalam.

Malam itu, saat semua orang mengutuk namamu dan ketidakhadiranmu, aku tertunduk dan menyembunyikan mata di bawah topi hitamku—sesekali mencuri pandang ke jendela. Ada perasaan yang menyiratkan padaku bahwa kau juga sedang menoleh ke arah jendela, dan entah kenapa, aku mendadak berdiri  menuju balkon lantai dua—tiba-tiba aku takut jika kau sedang memiliki pikiran untuk lompat dari jendela kamarmu.

Mereka terus mengutuk namamu dan bagaimana kau mengecewakan, serta menyulitkan mereka. Tapi mereka tak pernah berusaha menghubungimu. Mereka hanya mengandalkanku dan Erma untuk terus mencarimu. Tidak ada yang peduli, Dis, tidak ada. Semua menyendirikanmu. Kau pun seolah tak peduli dengan mereka, sulit dihubungi melalui apapun.

Itulah yang membuatku bergegas menuju tempatmu—menaiki tangga darurat yang pengap tanpa jendela itu sampai ke lantai sepuluh. 1007, kamarmu. Setelah beberapa kali ketukan lembut tak kau perdulikan, aku menggedor keras pintu kamarmu sampai akhirnya kau bukakan dengan enggan. Celana pendekmu, kaus merah tidak karuan, kakimu yang terluka dan matamu, membara merah menyambutku. Jendela terbuka, angin menyelonong masuk dan menghantarkan bau alkohol serta asap rokok yang tersisa sedikit saja. Di antara bebauan yang mengaduk rasa itu masih dapat kucium jelas wangi parfummu—parfum berbotol biru yang umum, tapi baunya sudah kucap sebagai baumu. Tinggiku hanya sebatas lehermu, membuatku harus sedikit menengadah saat menatap matamu yang merah, merah, merah entah kau habis menangis atau kurang tidur atau mungkin terlalu banyak minum.

Aku tidak tahu kau habis menangis atau tidak, tapi aku menangis. Dan aku juga tidak tahu jelas mengapa tiba-tiba menangis. Bisa jadi karena aku begitu lega bisa bertemu denganmu, mungkin juga karena semua beban untuk mencarimu dibebankan padaku serta Erma sehingga emosiku lepas begitu saja saat bertemu denganmu. Aku tidak tahu. Aku langsung mendorong pundakmu untuk menyingkir dari pintu dan masuk tanpa izin. Alih-alih menghentikanku karena masuk tanpa permisi kau membiarkanku dan mengikutiku. Aku melihat buku Lovecraft-ku tergeletak di samping bantalmu dan seantero ruangan kacau balau.

Kita saling terdiam, dan tanpa mengucapkan sepatah kata, aku mencari sapu dan membereskan tempat tinggalmu.
Aku tak keberatan, kita sesama orang berantakan yang terserak dan sudah diatur untuk menata satu sama lain.

Angin terus berhembus dari jendela  dan kita duduk berhadapan. Alih-alih lampu kau ambil beberapa batang lilin dan nyalakan mancis sehingga deretan lilin itu terjejer membatasi kita. Aku menatap wajahmu dalam pendar merah lilin dan kau lakukan hal yang serupa.

“Tubuh yang sempurna bukanlah hal yang berarti untuk kehidupan.”
“Tanpa roh dan jiwa tubuh tak akan bisa bergerak, begitu?”
“Ya. Makanya, yang terpenting adalah jiwa. Bahkan dalam tubuh yang tidak sempurna seseorang dapat hidup—seperti para penyandang disabilitas.”
“Lantas mengapa orang-orang meregang nyawa karena tubuhnya terluka hebat?”
“Karena tubuh itu memberi celah bagi jiwa untuk merembes keluar.”
“Berarti jiwa butuh tubuh untuk dapat terus bertahan, kan?”
“Tubuh ini bukanlah cuma badan. Bisa saja sebuah benda lain yang mampu menampung jiwa. Lagipula roh dan jiwa dapat mengembara kemanapun.”

Aku, belum sepenuhnya paham hubungan antara tubuh dan jiwa dan roh versimu, memilih diam dan mengalihkan topik dengan membujukmu untuk kembali ke kampus dan datang latihan untuk pagelaran yang akan kita tampilkan, semua orang mencarimu.

Kau mendorong jauh mancismu sehingga masuk ke kolong laci lalu mengangguk lemah. Melihat tubuhmu menjadi jauh lebih kurus, aku tak tega mendesakmu terlalu jauh. Aku berniat mengambilkan mancismu dan menyadari bahwa kau menyembunyikan tas biolamu di bawahnya sehingga aku turut mengambilnya. Kala aku merogoh, aku ingat mendengarmu berkata lirih “bagaimana jika kita hidup tanpa tubuh?” sehingga aku menyahut,

“Maksudnya tanpa tubuh?”
“Tubuh dan jiwa sebagai dua hal yang terpisah. Tapi jiwa dan roh tetap satu.”
“Tapi kalau terpisah, menurutku jiwa atau roh akan hilang sepenuhnya karena tidak ada yang menahannya. Seperti wangi yang lambat laun menguap.”
“Bagaimana jika kubilang  kita sedang dikerumuni oleh jiwa-jiwa tak bertubuh?”
“Hah, apa, Dis?”
“Seolah jiwa dan tubuh itu terpisah saat sedang tidur. Aku ingin tahu apa kondisi itu juga bekerja pada kematian. Aku ingin tahu mati itu seperti apa rasanya—apakah seperti tidur—dan lebih lagi, aku ingin membuktikan apabila yang dibutuhkan bukanlah tubuh yang sempurna. Jiwaku yang penuh sesal ini menggerogotiku dari dalam. Waktu demi waktu. Perlahan-lahan.”
“Sudah, Dis. Tidur saja, kamu terlalu penat. Jangan ingin mati dulu, nanti kita juga akan mati kok.”
“Bersama-sama?”

Kau melintasi pagar lilin yang kau buat sendiri dan bersandar di sampingku lalu tertidur. Aku yang belum ahli memainkan biola mencoba merekam permainanku.

00.57

Dalam alunan Wiegenlied milik Brahms, dimainkan dengan biola secara gusar dan takut,
Kau terbangun.

“Kalau kamu sudah hafal notasinya, percepat temponya. Seharusnya seperti itu.”
“Aku tidak mau,”
“Seharusnya seperti itu.”

Lalu kau kembali tertidur.
Aku mematikan perekam suara pada ponselku, dan entah kapan, aku tertidur. Jendela masih terbuka karena dapat kurasakan semilir anginnya. Langit hitam tak menyegarkan. Hitam bak tidurku tanpa mimpi.

03.40

Aku kedinginan dan terbangun. Lilin-lilin sudah memendek dan mati tertiup angin, kau tak ada di sebelahku. Jalan menuju jendela kuraba dengan memegangi perabot, aku memegangi jendela dengan kedua tanganku untuk ditarik ke bawah. Kepalaku otomatis kukeluarkan sejenak untuk melihat pemandangan sekitar dan apa yang sedang terjadi di dunia bawah.

Dalam pendaran lampu jalan yang posisinya cukup jauh dan paving yang mungkin hangat-hangat dingin, aku dapat melihat sebuah tubuh tergeletak berbalut kaus merah dan rambut berantakan. Kaus merah yang kuyakin milikmu, entah berlumur darah atau tidak. Aku mencabut kunci dari tempatnya dan membanting pintu, turun lalu mengitari gedung untuk mengambil tubuhmu yang terkulai di bawah sembari berusaha agar tidak terlihat oleh siapapun.

Bercucuran keringat dingin aku menyeka luka di dahimu agar tak lagi terlihat darahnya dan aku dapat naik kembali ke kamarmu tanpa perlu dicurigai.

Sesampainya di kamarmu aku terduduk dan menggerayangi lantai mencari mancismu. Aku menyalakan semua lilin dalam bentuk lingkaran mengelilingi kita. Kupeluk jasadmu dan kubiarkan darah dari kepalamu terus mengucur di tanganku.

Tuhan, jangan biarkan ia mati.
Aku tahu tak akan mungkin ia dapat kembali ke dalam tubuhnya yang telah memberi celah bagi jiwa untuk keluar ini.
Aku tak tahu kenapa kau terus tertidur, Dis. Dan akhirnya tertidur kekal sebelum waktunya. Jangan tidur dulu, Dis,
Jangan tidur dahulu sebelum waktunya.
Sungguh aku tak paham apakah kau masih di dalam ruangan ini atau sudah hilang, sirna sepenuhnya. Seperti wangi seperti wangi seperti wangi.

Darahmu
Darahmu
Darahmu
Memenuhi tanganku.

Jangan pergi, jangan pergi.
Aku membersihkan lukamu dan membalut perban yang kudapat dari kotak P3K dengan meraba-raba wastafel di dekat dapur.
Aku membersihkan lukamu meski tak dapat rasakan nafasmu lagi.

Ponselku menyala, dan memutar sebuah rekaman tanpa aku menyentuhnya.

04.44

Dalam alunan Wiegenlied milik Brahms, dimainkan dengan biola secara gusar dan takut,

“Kalau kamu sudah hafal notasinya, percepat temponya. Seharusnya seperti itu.”
“Aku tidak mau,”
“Seharusnya seperti itu.”

Akhir rekaman.*
Aku tertidur memeluk jasadmu.

08.23

Angin masih masuk dari  jendela yang tak jadi kututup. Aku melepaskan jasadmu dan mengambil biola yang tergeletak dengan tangan berlumur darah. Memainkan Wiegenlied—Lullaby.

Dalam alunan Wiegenlied milik Brahms, dimainkan secara resah dan basah,

“Sudah kubilang, percepat temponya.”

Aku terkesiap, namun tak menoleh ke arah jasadmu. Kuteruskan bermain dengan peluh bercucuran dan gesekan tak karuan, menghapus darah yang mengering di tanganku.

“Ternyata memang sudah selayaknya aku berkabung atas jiwaku. Bahkan  setelah terlepaspun, ia masih saja merintih penuh sesal dan tanya.”

Not terakhir,
Aku menoleh,

Mulutmu menganga dan mengatup seolah mencari nafas, menganga, menganga
Matamu tak berkedip menatapku, terlentang, memandang lurus ke arahku.
Ke arah jendela, langit yang biru, angin, nyanyi,
Lalu kau kembali tertidur.

                                                      ­           ///

Aku tidak tahu kenapa kau terus tertidur, Dis. Aku selalu berharap agar kau dapat bangun, membuka jendelamu, dan membiarkan angin yang masuk dari jendela lantai sepuluh kamarmu itu mengawetkan matamu yang jarang sekali terbuka. Sudah selayaknya biru langit menghidupkanmu. Sudah sepatutnya suara sunyi pagi memenuhi telingamu yang selalu mengharapkan nyanyi.
Untuk.. Kau tahu untuk siapa.
Anastasia Webb Apr 2014
Once there was a mad Arabian poet,
he said,
who wrote a Book of Death
and an Unsettling Couplet
and inspired him
in the way that a car-wreck
may inspire a tattooist’s
gruesome designs.

O, the frightening things
that ran through his mind!
So unsettled was he,
so disturbed.
O, the way that they leered
at his table they dined!
So confused were his colleagues,
so perturbed.

God, the things that came creeping
in the early hours of dawn
when the town was asleep
and the moon was forlorn.
How he tossed in his sleep –
Was it sleep? was it real?
There were Things he did see
there were Things he did feel.

Lovecraft, Lovecraft –
my quiet recluse –
why are you so pale?
Pray tell. What phantom-horror
did you see in the night?
Why are you so blue?
Why do you shake? Are you
ill, are you sad, are you
broken in the mind?

But all of the doctors,
the scientists, the friends,
THEY COULD NOT REALISE
the horror, the nightmares,
the Things in the dark.

Escape through your head
through the blood-and-ink stained alleyways
within. Retire to your room
with a pen and an electric light.
Try as you might
not all of your stories with
their horror that some find unspeakable,
others disturbing –
THEY CANNOT EXPRESS
that pure form of fear
your mind feels at the idea
of the mad Arab’s couplet.

*That is not dead which can eternal lie
And with strange aeons, even death may die.
Creep  Jan 2015
Dear Lovecraft
Creep Jan 2015
Just read Lovecraft's most recent "poems"
and started laughing my *** off.
I think I'm going crazy XD
I'm SOOOOO HAPPY that he would take the time
to write poems about me,
and think about me!
I'm honored, sir, truly honored, that you would
take the time to remind me of what I am,
a, "Creep who loves is NOT a dove"

Bravo, Lovecraft!
And I thank you for your idiocy,
your mean words,
and reminding me that I ****,
cause I do, I know. :)

Love,
the Creep that does not love you.

PS. Love your profile pic and background pic, where'd you get them?
The Creep Who Loves You ( only if you 'like' her first )
by LoveCraft

The Creep who loved you
Only loved herself,
Writes incessantly, drollest Drek
Wants it all to be celebrated,
Unfortunately she never read,
ANYTHING
EVER
deep or substantial,
She is a TROLL!

She's a fluffer, she's a troll, she is vacuous - she NEEDS a dictionary
AND a thesaurus
#awful   #shallow   #wannabe   #yikes   #prattle   #drek   #gossipy  

http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1053300/the-creep-who-loves-you-only-if-you-like-her-first/

NO IM NOT TRYING TO BE SARCASTIC, JUST KILLING HIM WIH KINDNESS :)
WistfulHope Jan 2015
So apparently I'm a troll.
Funny, most joke I look elvish.
I think 5'6 is too tall to be a troll,
I could be mistaken though,
Afterall I've never had the displeasure
of meeting one in person.

So apparently I'm a troll, not sure why.
I think it has to do with some stuck up guy.
Can't we all just get along?
I just want to write and not be accused
of things that I'm not.
I think I'm done here, hope it's not too long.
I end with a sigh,
because I'm tired of this already.
You heard of Love Craft?
No? Well,
1) they're spamming, 2) they're attacking non trolls and 3) they are starting to come up with ******* reasons (like having 'too many' followers) to call people trolls.
I'm just sick of them. It's fine to make posts venting/warning about trolls, but I think they're taking it too far.
No, I don't support the real trolls either, I've had my share of complications with Carvo and Dov.

Do you guys think I'm a troll?

**Alright, now he's attacking Ember Evanescent because she defended me. He's officially ****** me off beyond belief now. What the **** man? She's wonderful, don't take your **** with me out on other people!! Yeah, people, BECAUSE WE'RE PEOPLE NOT TROLLS!!!! LEAVE EMBER THE **** ALONE!! I feel sick.

****He appears to have found some reason. Thank you, LoveCraft, sorry you feel offended by me. I'm glad you appear to be leaving the non-trolls alone now.
- - -
Frank Ruland Jan 2015
Okay, here is my list of people who I think are awesome. They come in no particular order, mind you! If you have been left off, I apologize </3 If you're reading this, you're probably awesome too! Except the artist, Logan Carveo, Beryl Dove, Edna SweetLove, Lovecraft, and every other troll on HP. Kindly fall off a cliff!
Now, let the list of awesomeness commence!

-Rex Forte': Dude, you and me and have been commenting back and fourth for awhile now and I think you're a really down to earth guy! You stand against the trolls when you have no obligation to and I have meassive respect for that!

-The Emerald Outcast: Emerald, you appear to me as one of those sweet, endearing innocent souls! I really admire the purity of your poetry and the word choices you employ. It's all so smooth and I want you to know you touch people on here.

-ThePoet: Sarah, how sorry I am to have left you out! Surely my wires became crossed when I was writing this. I've been messaging you for a while now, and you're nothing but a sugar cookie (sorry, southern euphemisms :p). Hello Poetry needs people like you to perk up the downtrodden masses. You are a beautiful person, your words are uplifting, and you are beyond poetically sound. Much love!

-Alyssa Rose:: I've only just begun to see you on here, but you are awesome none the less. I did my "I Love Doing Lines!' challenge on you because of the raw emotion I saw in your poetry.

-TSALOVERLOVER: I don't know you extremely well, but you appear to be kind, generous, and nurturing with your comments (compliments!). You are attentive, and you point out positive things in people's poetry.

-chimaera:You are a talented poet. Albeit I don't know you too well personally, you strike me with the power of your words.m

-The Girl Who Loved You: Melanie, you have been my personal friend and peer for quite some time now. We can joke, talk about poetry, and get pissy with each other from time to time, but it doesn't change the fact I love ya! Thanks for having my back with trolls <3

-SPT: I don't know you well personally, but not a day goes by where you don't post a poem that is just rich with personal experience and soul.

-Elsa Angelica: My, my, my. You are without a doubt, one of the sweetest people I have come to know. Your heart is gentle, but there is a fire that burns hotter than the sun above Texas! I thank you for being my friend on here and all your sweet words!

-Adreishka Luciano: I love you. i remember your first message to me concerning my profile background! You are one of the most creative, musically gifted, beautiful people I know. The collaboration that we did was one of the smoothest going I've ever done, and I think it's because we sync so well.

-WickedHope: Wicked, how I always wondered why you picked that for your screen name. You are the farthest thing from that ever! Try: gentle, loving, affectionate, kind, sweet and endearing! You write such heartfelt poetry and I have come to know you in depth more so than some others, and I think you have  a beautiful soul.

-Spencer Craig: Here's to my biggest Public Service Announcement supporter! You've been there from humble beginnings to what they have evolved to now. Thank you so much for your wonderful compliments.

-Maha Salman: I don't know you too well, but I think your poetry is divine! Keep writing!

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-Sir Poet: Adam, I know you somewhat personally, and I have a lot of respect for you. I love your nature inspired poetry, as well as your pieces concerning racial issues. You are a very in depth person. Keep at it.

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-Poetic T: Dude, your stuff is far out! And I mean that in the best way possible, You really hooked me with your sci-fi writes, and I'll never forget the amazing collaboration that we did! I hope you feel better, man. I know you have some health issues. Never stop writing.

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-Joe Malgeri: Dude, you are one of the most socially conscious guys out there! So much of your poetry concerns things that are bigger than us, and I have the utmost respect for your style and continued interests in my works as well!

-Midnight Writer: Midnight, you are a kindhearted soul, and I love everything that you put out! Truly, you are an amazing person and writer! Please, never stop writing.

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--Awesome people who I don't know too well--
-Sjr1000
-Bloom
-The Noose
-BetterDays
-Maggie Grace
-Earl Vandorn
-olestoryteller
-kylia
-The Jolteon
-MercuryChyld
-AcidLovesMercury
-Ashley Lopez
-lildicktornado
Okay, I tried REALLY HARD! I really hope I didn't leave anybody out. Seriously. I worked on this for like an hour. You guys are all awesome and I love you all.
Mateuš Conrad Jan 2020
someone once said: only the natives can be designated
free speech...
the immigrants can have their dog
and let it bark, along with whatever thinking comes
their way...

exploring the last remains of thought -
well then... suit and boot me up for some "thinking"
as i extend it into writing...

if i were of the native stock... "elsewhere":
most probably h'america or australia... even in italy
having tea with mussolini i'd be:
an expat... as an outsider among outsiders
but among my sameness-namesakes of surnames
akin to jones and smith:

i will never be an "immigrant" among...
it's not even a voice of cocern, this little voice of
mine...
an englishman who decides to move
to h'america is an expatriate for the native
englishman who stayed behind...
he's never an immigrant...

perhaps other nations view the people that left
them in such a positive light?
where else to emigrate to that doesn't
speak basic english with a tinge of
a "welcoming" plethora of accents?

proudly having expatriated...
or having to have had to humbly emigrated...
bark bite and tail in tow...
my the luck of being an expatriate...
readily prepared with a francophile basis...
e.g., or some other: less frost-bitten
idealism as the work ethic of:
work work work...

we know the english immigrants
as expatriates... but i doubt that people
from where i from would call me...
an expatriate... they'd call me...
eh... hangman noose... a deserter...
god forbid the fact that i somehow managed
to integrate... but then found myself wondering...

have, have integrated into... "what"?!
today i was truly astounded...
after all... Romford, Essex... England...
can boast about a few things...
notably? it's the past place you can buy vinyl
without amazon.co.uk...
you can actually play the buyer and the person
that loiters with his shadow...
flicking through a dictionary of sorts...
finding a record...

i actually left the house for ulterior motives...
but i succumbed to the allure...
and as i walked the January 2nd 2020 highstreet
in Romford...
i heard english... as a spoken language...
twice in the pedestrian commute...
and of course when it came to a lingua franca
scenario of buying or selling something...
otherwise:

perhaps i retained my primitive instincts
and the tongue and should have left it with a ghost
of me back in the clarifying vicinity of
an airport 50 miles from Warsaw...
i have bigger things to worry about though:
how i should start learning Romanian...
even though: i thought bilingualism was a good
idea?
it's not?

not among the natives could i ever be
an expatriate...
an ever: never... like any more thesaurus
sharpening would do the trick to balance
the optics of "perspective"...

if it wasn't a mistake...
it has still been a purchase:
freddie hubbard on the trumpet,
jackie mclean on the alto sax,
kenny drew on piano,
doug watkins on bass
and pete la roca on drums...

the only reason as to why i bought
a gramaphone was to buy the only cheap vinyl
there is... jazz...
to escape the earphones...
to find the complete volume of space
that would later be deemed:
confined to a room... cell... or some alternative
variation: but... oh jeez...
how wrong it was of me...

make a note: alto sax jazz is not for you...
remember: alto sax jazz is not for you...

a sensation of being a foreigner in
an already double-dutch foreign sense of land...
anything that drops from clinching
to the London transport system
with the trains and the tubes and buses
is: england...
the england of my youth where i remained
like that... dunce in the ****** tunes cartoons
interlude...

and what of my citizenship on paper?
wave a passport around
like a benchmark or an otherwise easy
accent-identifier?
perhaps i don't even know:
Bristolian - my best guess with this acquired
tongue...

but at least buying jazz is getting easier...
freddie hubbard a known name...
but... no... alto sax jazz is not for me...
now it figures...
i can get away on a whim when
a trumpet solos... but not when an alto sax
solos... i really can't stomach it...
will i give this Bluesnik record back?
no, i need a testament -
i have bought something
but the self-reflection is free...

there's only so much classical music escapism
you can try -
before long you realise that the people
listening to classical music...
mostly... when they make requests...
want "something soothing"...
want "something jovial"...
or usually it's a piece of music that has
been attached to a movie...
classical music - apparently doesn't feed
people a subtle stream of images...
and it's obvious: those requests are not phoned
in on by blind people...

imagine... the ****** of F... when you have ⠋
to work with...
what is an sunrise... a sunset but a dash
of colour... a spring of the heavens
an autumn of the heavens...
but my my... in this inverted listening of jazz...
⠙⠑⠑⠏
⠃⠇⠥ ⠑    DEEP BLUE...

if i were blind: and came to the pearly gates...
i'd ask for letters: primo pronto!
later i'd worry about colours and shapes...
as i'd probably stick to my first passion
and hearing this fathomless shapeless
sounds that... abide to no lineage with a recant
of a triangle's use of 90°...

otherwise... what if you've been fed
the: classical music when listened to when a child
will increase your i.q. -
but what are the chances that you will:
"regress" from listening to classical
music and take to jazz?
perhaps because jazz has to be felt,
it has to be heard, first,
rather than... the silence and scribbles
of a composer at his desk -
where a classical music composition
is very much like writing:
that whole a prior shabang!
none of the a posteriori zigzagging
of impromptu and jazz?

one thing is certain... i'm not going to
be a fan of alto sax jazz...
sonny clark on piano - yes...
art blakey on drums - yes...
kenny burrell on guitar - yes...
alto sax no... ah... but give me tenor sax
and... no please no big bang jazz
equivalent to thelonious monk...
at least jazz gives you pedestrian tastes
and whims...
nothing akin to bowing at the altar
of a Beethoven: or talking lightly of
the man - "the man"...

and who the hell said that being
objectivity "works all the time"
that objectivity "runs the marathon"...
alto sax jazz is pedestrian music...
don't get me wrong...
you want to walk down a busy street
and you want to drown the sounds
of progress: no horses sneezing,
no horses' hooves playing tic-tac-toe
chess on cobweb stones...
alto sax jazz is your take-out
walk-through...
but when you're hunched in a chair
and pecking at a keyboard with
ten good beaks of the tips of your fingers...

again: how do the hands rest before
the keyboard?
the right hand:
index middle, pinky and thumb...
the ring finger is used for the: delete button...
a revision - the pinky does the enter -
and the cascade follows...
the left hand?

primarily the index and *******...
the thumb is always attached to space...
shared with the right hand's *******
to space,
i can't remember if i ever used my ring
or pinky finger of my left arm...

so much for inverted chiromancy...
the polacks will never give me the wings
to be an expatriate...
i will be forever: he who abandoned
that land running with milk and honey...
but... look at how they stand behind those
from england that decided to go "elsewhere"...
they are not immigrants...
they are... expatriates...
have nothing filthy them it comes to
the connotation...
it's not sad it's not funny it's: somewhere
"in between"...

because we know that the only russians
that ever make it out of russia
are the oligarchs... and by that standard
of "sentiment": they're always welcome...
who wouldn't welcome the pharaohs without
giza pyramid ambitions of construction?!
passing chalk as cheese -
and passing... ink for blood...
perhaps i haven't sweated enough to be allowed
to write but as little as this...

there's always this sense of alienation
among the germanic tribes of "israel":
europe... even if they are the scots or the welsh
suckling at the teats of romulus & remus' lupa...
as the old saying goes among the slavic people
when "integrating" into a germanic-esque society -
by the time you have integrated...
there's this dog-**** pile of Babylon left...
and the germans are: "nowhere"!

the saying goes via:
if you go among the crows...
you must croak their croak...

here's to flying high as an imitation seagull!
brazen: into this arable land...
that's being teased by the Thames estuary...

passing through a Warsaw train station
i noticed the immigrants / the expatriates
on the eastern front...
mostly mongols...
notably the ukrainians...
but now in england i'm starting to think
in concrete terms... better start learning
Romanians...
and on the street: you can't see a focus of
who's here and who isn't here...
back east the Roma people stood out
like a sore thumb or a voodoo plum and...
that didn't bother the locals since they were
meshed like glue...
but, here, in england?
everyone's a sore thumb a voodoo plum...
because the natives,
the blessed idiosyncratic professional
eccentrics have left and...
i'm not going to be the first chasing them down...

London the only and last bastion is
overrun with the whole lot of us...
well: the "us" vs. "them" mentality...
don't get me wrong... i'll still listen to the concerns
of the peripheries... in this cest pool
of immigrants, degenerates...
old people who "forgot" to move...
the lunatics the in-betweeners and the old guard
clinging on...
perhaps, after all... english was a very
accomodating language...
it wouldn't take a genius to learn it from scratch
being thrown into the deep end of the pool
aged 8...
who was mute aged 8 going to school
being moved from "east" europe to this island
with... no prior to linguistic connection?
moi...

and now look at me... i'm teasing myself
with... sordid welsh as if i were ever the posterboy
for welsh nationalism...
scottish nationalism? eh... if they were to retain
their gaellic roots...

expansion:
the longing for those who have left:
in the anglo-sphere - expatriate...
the abhoring sense of those who arrive -
immigrant...
otherwise... the english are always
and everywhere: welcome...
hence the expatriate status of those
who have left their native land...
even in h'america: a shared language:
to be an immigrant... while speaking
the same language?! how preposterous!

the difference between eastern style
comedy presentation and western style
comedy presentation: on stage...

the eastern folk prefer cabaret: theatre dialogue
montages...
the western folk prefer stand-up:
monologue samuel beckett esque
performances...
'woe i... stand alone in this infinite
space and... find others to laugh with...'

- perhaps we're not being less funny because
we're lowering our "i.q.": yes, the we are...
we are... lowering...
i find lee evans to be funny...
a laurel and hardy weren't exactly funny
by modern comedy standards that:
it's only funny if it's intelligent...
if there's a crossword puzzle at the end of "it"...

perhaps pride is the shackle...
and ham... what ever happened to self-depreciating
humor that managed to somehow
elevate you as also having a sense
of humor:
do intelligent men even laugh
at something that isn't a word-play or
a corset of wit?
perhaps we're experiencing a drying of wip...
perhaps the jokes are only supposed
to come: days after as a form of
reflection on the sigma canvas:
the joke has to exist outside the performer
and the stage... it needs to be: a live-experience...
it has to take on DASEIN qualities?
it has to be internalised?

that: oh yeah... that's funny...
perhaps the same thing has to be observed
and it can't be retold in an impromptu
fashion shackled to a stage?
the stage is the new camp-fire?
i thought so too... about the television...

as: here's to slagging off everything that's
being published online bypassing
the editorial process of selection...
well... if it weren't for all the seriousness
surrounding internet banking...
and internet shopping...
pen to paper...
******* clinching a ripped roll
of cushioning paper
and a pseudo-***** imitation
for a wipe while massaging my prostate
over the enlightened prospect
of dropping the blitzkrieg plump-dump-plum
into an echoing lake in the ceramic basin...
otherwise...

a seanse with that moment of realisation:
"something is happening to us
collectively"... it's as if: we're under a spell...
oh i was under a spell today...
watching alec guinness in the fall of the roman
empire...
and as coming from a people
that were never conquered by rome?
on this fine fine island that was...
well... my hopes were also high for
the conquests of the mongol empire...
and the remains of it in the form of the tatars
in crimea...

here are my tattoos... it's hard to break from them,
it's hard to wash them away...
but at least i can attest:
my brain might be all fat and sponge and
electricity... but there's some skull and skin
to be had of it...
otherwise... why would the year 1066
be important for me... why would the magna carta
be important for me?
i too have my years in tattoos on this big brian
of mine...

otherwise there's that copernico-darwinian
surge of: journalistic science...
i still find it staggering that darwinism continues
to capture the imagination of people...
"of people"... only in Wittgenstein was left
alone in finding that Copernicus did something
astounding... this surge of "awakening"
via darwinism: this statistical bombardment
like it was some tabloid journalism:
throwing a pebble at a mountain while
also ushering in a mantra: grow by
a poppy's seed added height! grow!

perhaps i'm just jealous...
among the polacks i will never be an expatriate...
what a jealous people...
an englishman who moves to france...
comes 20 year later...
he will have never experienced
the mark of cain: immigration "humphrey bogart"...
he or she moved to france...
perhaps to italy...
i remember being in greece and...
i was nothing when i said i was ******:
but with british citizenship! to add...
so what?
well... so what greece...
i latched onto some north africans
and went to **** away the night
in some strip-bar where i had
two strippers either head o' mine...
and it was constellations galore...
grandmother Etna said:
rest here, among the smooches poor child...

i borrowed Etna from when Aeneas
"left off"...
****'s sake... this is the Meditarrean
and not the Baltic? where is the amber
the whiskey and the leverage of gratations
of time?!

i will agree. Macedonia come night traffic
of quicksilver tinging?
if the metal is cheap and you douse it in some gold?
a mountain dripping fresh from some quicksilver
from the moon peering at it?
objectivity what?

the finite plateau of snow-riddled Serbia...
and perhaps that's because these people
speak their own language...
and have so... and i'm just the next
"english" tourist...
a jack kerouac americanism and:
oh sure! sure!
spectacular fly-over country tourism!
everything's so so different!
and yet all so oh so much the same!

darwinism was going to run the 5000 meter
race... it's currently running the 10000 meter
race... god help it in running the marathon
of still pretending: old news is new news...
i can't distinguish between darwinism
and copernican discovery...
only in the english-speaking world
would this discovery not escape a criticism
from ancient greece and some, some predecesor!

wouldn't anyone just bore of darwinism
if they were told: over and over again:
the copernican "reality"?
a scientific fact is... akin to a religious dogma...
until... it becomes regurgitated with
enough time, with enough journalism and...
tabloid wind... and after a while...
it's only worthwhile to be spoken to
amnesia peoples of the world: unite!
it's hardly "stupid" or "intelligent"...
more or less overlooked...
because a pebble thrown at a mountain:
is... no added mountain to behold...
conventional wisdom is the only wisdom
that there ever was made to be made:
available...

nonetheless, the circumstance stands...
unless from the slavic hemisphere
of europe...
unlike any other circumstance: other than
the one given, among islanders...
among continent builders akin
to australia and h'america...
the post-racial societies of post-colonial
spain in south america?
ever wonder why the brazillians don't
look for inspiration from the portugese
when it comes to football?
you'd think: those yanks better have
the best football team in the world...
they haven't exactly looked back...
back at "us": oh god... tea afternoon and cricket...
baseball wha'?
basketball? "football"?
why are "we" looking forward and "they're"
looking back?
perhaps i should learn some spanish and
get some insinuation about:
the argentinian sense of lack when looking
back into spain...

or what else is there to be had?
move to Greenland... admire Denmark...
**** it: do the whole stretch and find
some locals on the Faroe Islands...
perhaps i too will find a tomorrow...
but tomorrow i will find: sobering up
and having to deal with: everything beside jazz...

mmm... "delayed gratification" prospects...
seven kings: canon palmer catholic school...
when boys are educated alongside girls...
what if i went to Ilford County High?
what if i were born to immigrant parents
and wasn't an 8 year old immigrant?
what if i went to the Ilford Ursulines?
the all-girls school... the former, Ilford County High?
what chances of me being an intellectual
******?

what, oh the chances!
perhaps praying: segregated... is a tad extreme?
but perhaps ******-exclusion policies:
teaching boys throughout their puberty
as segregated from girls in the same hormonal
development "range" is...
well! how else! you take a boy and girl
and you put them into the hormonal cocktail!
just because it's in a shared educational
environment... why these teenage pregnacies
you ask?
i wouldn't ask such blunt questions...
not since the genius of Copernicus
couldn't attract these...
psychological left-over intelligenstia clingers...
that darwinism has allowed...
what it darwinism and journalism?
everything! the ant as the ego
inside the mind of an ape...
the dormant tapeworm embryo
inside the mind of an ant:
with siesmic consequence of a disturbance
of the collective hive network...

borrow too much from an ape...
borrowing from an ape is one thing...
it's the borrowing from all other
animals: with the ape as the backdrop
that's truly bothersome!
at least religious spew the same facts
over and over again...
scientific dogma? who keeps track?
tomorrow might be the next:
butter vs. margarine controversy!
what sort of "religion" is science
(it's not a religion... if it's not...
why does it have to cohabit a bed
with journalism then, to spew "new",
"improved" facts, then?!)
when... it's so ******* finicky!

look via the ape long enough:
it won't matter whether it's a geocentric
of a heliocentric system that
reigns above your head, no torso,
a pickled spine...
legs and arms floating about like:
an octopus experiencing spasms
pickled in brine...

perhaps these are the zenith years of
darwinistic popularity...
perhaps like the copernican popularity...
there will come a time of:
fatalism... that somehow all of this
is... inevitable...

i see one answer: this cage of grammar
this cage of whatever this god made human
pressures me into complying to...
to the last typo! i will stand against it!
without caging me into a use of emoji or
some other hieroglyphic purse of:
shortened "thinking"...

the "seven silences" might have passed
around my presence that i dare not
call it: in concrete - figure...
and still my eigth silence to unmask
nothing more than a mask...

who are these immigrants, these tight brewed
broods, these furrow brows
representing the native pensive "squint":
of anything beside the eyes and a thought
of h. p. lovecraft?
perhaps inside of europe:
but as ever... without a russian passport...
without a russophobia that's
a tickling hard-on... the "in-between-land"...
perhaps the balkans...
who are we... to these germans and quasi-germans?

we use their tongue, their zunge...
their everything they will otherwise allow themselves
to deny: perhaps this is not Dublin,
this is not Glasgow this is not Cardiff...
perhaps this is not Italy,
this is not France...
perhaps this is "europe" as long as
Scandinavia is involved...

woe a we unto us: the viking Rus...
or some lent word of lost vogue...
last time i heard:
these northern ******* are in no favour
of treating the Spaniards or the Greeks
as their equals...
as long as they have rich arab pimps
race their lamborghini brute ******
down... knightsbridge...

then! and only then! iz ist europa "reconquista"!
"reconquista"... i'll defend these poor polacks
that didn't think it...
"necessary" to only learn english in order
to comply to the global dictum of neu-communist
internationalism...
- what, they didn't teach you you stupid
**** that it only took to learn from english?!
- last time i heard... not teachings polish
to a canape of anything beside the french,
the spanish... also worked!

english as a language is oh so accomodating...
the people will react like antibiotics,
naturally... enough of darwinism and you'll
be found, bound, to having to reference it...
past a de facto menu:
and more like a subjectivity...
there's only so much truth that can be stated...
before fiction has to reply...
because... how many regurgitated facts
can be regurgitated...
before the desert of fiction and...
there's only the fact of a bottle of water...
that remains...
and there's not impetus to walk toward
an oasis...
a fata morgana is hardly a scientific experience...
when experienced...
it's something associated with
a desert and within the desert must either:
live... or die...

what if etymology was to become the new
standard for journalism...
what if one were to escape this contant
bombardment of darwinism...
like it wasn't the next new vogue akin
to the copernican "revolution"?

is that even possible?
whenever i return to Poland...
esp. in Warsaw... i'm a deserter...
i'm not an expatriate...
the native english call those who left
with a sense of longing...
somehow: or at least that's the leftover...
the expatriates from the inside-out
perspective... never the immigrants...

i'm an immigrant and...
a paper citizenship is: no citizenship at all...
a passport is only worth a passport
at a border crossing...
in between the everyday daily affairs?
'where are you from?'
****... 'Bristol?!'...
i'm hardly going to speak
the cockney cockers or an essex schlang...
am i? ***!
all but ******* plumbers and church pulpit
mongers... and some over-ripe
riddle fruits: if not simply left
bottles of wine for the bears...

the first part though, bothers me...

someone once said: only the natives can be designated
free speech...
the immigrants can have their dog
and let it bark, along with whatever thinking comes
their way... in mere thinking...
and a dog barking...

the natives will only have a freedom of speech...
what if an immigrant becomes a citizen?
just asking...
what if an immigrant is granted a citizen
status?
well then... i am your humble example
of a civic nationalist...
such a confusing term...
it must be: for the natives...

oh ****... what language am i using?
the language of the... natives!
rubric civitas!
civic nationalism is reserved for:
those that came from abroad...
i guess the ethno-nationalists never made
this distinction clear:
watching their contemporaries leave their
native pit of woe...
and they would never call them:
deserters... only... only... expatriates...
after all... aren't we in the postmortem of ancient Rome?!
isn't this the time when the remnant
english come out and glorify being
the conquered people of this: lettering?

what is civic nationalism?
what is learnt, integrated nationalism...
this is civic nationalism...
how about the english forget about something,
like solving crosswords...
esp. among the middle-classes...
and let's envision their globalist dream!
let them learn a second language
and let us all become bilingual!
oh no... not polyglots... just bilingual!

i can't be an ethno-nationalist...
em... because (a) (b) and (c)?
aren't the post-colonial commonwealth
remnants of the empire the sort
civic-nationalists there's talk of?
what language am i writing in?
hebrew?! mandarin?!

ethno-natioanlism and its tribalism...
civic-nationalism and its state...
where does the church fit into all of this?
it's like not being an amuptee but
nonetheless being prescribed a "missing limb"...
the **** would i need a third arm for?
wilt the third leg allow me to run faster?!

i guess the term ethno-nationalist is
conflated with civic-nationalist in the ethno-nationalist
realm of "debate"...
a civic-nationalist is your casual parlance
h'american patriot...
patriotism in h'america: nationalism (still)...
in europe...
if we have to: hello, my name is: bob
do it all over again with the squares
and dictum assertions and what not attached...
between the ethno-nationalists and
the civic-nationalists...
the inter-nationalists...

i'm a civic-nationalist because:
i fear people need concrete examples...
i will not move back to Poland...
except on the holidays...
to visit my grandparents...
which is why i have retained the labour
of a native tongue... and "identity"...
i will remain in England...
until England becomes: Alle-Land...
and even when all these
ethno-nationalists ******* to Australia...
and become civic-nationalists over there...
well: over there good luck!

why would anyone ask an ethno-nationalist
the question: are you a civic-nationalist or?
civic- implies:
i'm a Brit from a grand "beyond":
circa 3000km away...
civic is a bewildering prefix for the nationalist
of a ethno- persuasion...
it really is... esp. when this ethno-nationalist
doesn't believe in the existence of
expatriates... that he would remain... "stuck"...
and that somehow... ethno-kin could come
and replace... those kin that left: "in good faith"...

savvy?!
Creep  Jan 2015
dear lovecraft
Creep Jan 2015
I'm not usually a person to hate on things.
But for you to HURT MY FRIENDS,
Well.
Things just got very... very... personal.
Now I have an idea,
Why don't you take back your words,
Back the ******* my friends,
Or I will personally make you wish you never met me, aye?
He is an ***. I swear. Amber k is the best friend I've always asked for, she so sweet and nice, and can make me laugh whenever I feel down. Kiyuki ishida is the sweetest guy I know, and makes me smile just thinking about him. He will stand up for me any day  so I guess this is my turn to return the favor ^^ wickedhope is amazing, she's really kind and caring, evenwhen shes hurt, and always thinks of others. I don't know wm or paradoxical whispers personally, but I'm sure they're both nice as well, I mean they write awesome poetry, so how could they not be? **** and ember evanescent... ah yes, ember ^^ she's just superb, she's so relatable and down to earth, funny and caring all bundled into a package of awesomness ^^ :D so plz don't hate on these ppl, I doubt they support trolls, they just don't like the hate, or just like their poetry or something. Don't listen to lovecrafts lies and help me get rid of him before his hate spreads! Hp is a loving community where ppl come to feel better, but with him polluting the site with negativity, ppl only feel worse...

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