Pour your pain in a mug
Let it steep until it's bitter
       and too strong to taste
Sip slowly and let your lips
       curl away in disgust
But still, let it slide down
       your throat;
       tepid, revolting.
Let the wafting stench fill your lungs
       breathe in the toxins
Until your vision blurs and your head spins.
Feel the poison as it
       corrupts your heart and
       erupts into your body
Let it eat you alive
       and rot you from the inside.

Vulnerability so condescending
lurks in my mind
the mantra it's not good enough
in the darkness will find.

The devil in my heart
pulls me into my head
I keep running away
but I'm running toward him instead

And I'm falling, unreserved
and endlessly away
In lonely depths of hell
Maybe I'll learn to pray.

Gently and tenderly
You hold my heart in your hand
And I slip through your fingers
like scorching hot sand.

Clench your fist in the cavity
as you reach into my chest.
I am the body draped on your arm
depending on you for the rest.

Somehow you need this,
So calmly, hold my heart,
Let my blood drip down you,
a beautifully grotesque art.