Last night, I fell apart.
I woke up blanketed in sodden ash,
Tears saturated into the eruption's fallout
The proximity of crackling fire assaulting my senses,
I was still angry.

I felt intoxicated, drunk on words never said
But the ones that were spoken lay spiked into my head
Partners apart, but strangers together
The hawks are gone in my life, but you can still find the feathers

Questions slicing through my mind
I run away from stormy brine
These tears that fall, I think you know
Have haunted me since long ago

Buried in formaldehyde
These skeletons reflect our inside
The secrets that we made to keep
Take me before I fall asleep

Though you're my fixer and my mess
The walls echo with you less and less
I fear it's not you running from me
I'm forgetting what we used to be

You said you loved me

Then you laughed

Ever since then I knew,

you didn't mean that...

Have you ever drowned in your own thoughts of overthinking and contemplating?
Trying to breathe but your anxiety won't let you stop shaking

You said you no matter what you'd always be here
So how come when I'm reaching out you're never there

Why make promises to only abandoned me?
I'm speaking more literally than figuratively

This overwhelming feeling of loneliness is too much to bare
Did I not do enough for you to leave me in despair?

All I ever wanted was someone to listen and wipe away the tears
Someone to talk me down from the ledge and talk away the fears

But I've just got stuck with a voicemail and no response
Except the operator and the pain exploding in the ambiance