I was created from car crashes and cigarette smoke and alcohol and neglectful and broken parents
I was created from their hurt
I was created to be hurt
I was born unlovable
I was born not being able to love
I was born sad
I was born with a name that means to be brave
I was born with a curved spine and was made into a titanium one
I was made into long legs and unruly brown hair and green eyes and loud opinions with a soft voice
I was made to be resilient.

Gentle tender night
Blows soft endearing kisses
Making daylight blush

laying down on the sand
the sun has set - so cold
shoveling gently through with my hand
feels like caressing pure gold

you stand by my side
on your face lies the brightest smile
I had hope that times like this will never hide
yet I knew this would end vile

three years pass and you leave
maybe someday we'll forgive
and in this moment I believe
this is something we'll both relive

yet I still treasure our memories
these will remain for centuries

I was euphoric, ecstatic
when you held me in your arms,
and kissed me a million times
under the starry sky

Your love affection
and your lips is my favorite addiction
The way it touches mine
I feel so high that I can touch the sky

I can't imagine myself without you
My soul feel so lost and longing for you
I know sometimes we argue,
but I will never leave your side and always be there for you

Your laugh is my favorite melody
You are the one whom I wish to love to the infinity
Boy, I love you dearly
You are my dream of love

I couldn't move
I couldn't scream.

I sat there frozen
Not knowing what to do.

My brain had shut down
While my body went into auto pilot.

My throat swelled shut
While my lungs fought to inhale the air around me.

My eyes welled up with tears
While a lump formed in my throat.

My heart beat felt like a jack-hammer in my chest
While my stomach sunk deep into a hole of shock.

The world spiraled around me
While I felt out of control .

I sat there frozen, unmoving.
While the tears threatened to over-spill.

My body ached to jump up and run away
My throat dying to let out a scream.

But my body did neither
I was traumatized both physically and mentally.

I looked calm on the outside
While I crashed on the inside.