i tell myself
i like being alone,
there's no one to:
impress,
be with,
be ready for,
or even worry about.

but my heart
tells me i hate it
i hate being alone
there's no one to:
laugh,
to hold,
be with,
or even love.

i can't ever seem to decide
if being alone is want I need
or someone to hold me.

i don't care which one
i just want to feel whole
or at least alive.

-r.y.s

Caught in a concoction of insanity
on the edge of reality madness jousts with sanity.
On one side taunted with a blackened stare,
Far over forms a light from a whispered prayer.
Isolated entities await the clash of spears,
while both riders rest among their fears.



.

Late night thinking imposed on my mind
confused left bare, completely undefined.
Deep terrors of the mind latching on to me,
fiery feet, fighting to be free, but I'm blind
as I try to see.
The devils persona posses my soul,
I paint my plan as I try to gain control.
A peaceful pilgrimage through hell itself,
the layed out path cursed with false wealth.
Condemned to walk alone down the path
of madness, In hope at the end I can leave
this sadness.

We met by chance
we was happy
then sad
then angry
and confused
distance hindered us
as we lost touch...
But at last we met
with joy in our souls
hand in hand
we lost control..
In awe of each other
and so grateful...
but then we missed
and yearned..
sad again
angry again
lost....
I was misunderstood
you was stressed
I was shattered
you was exhausted
I was confused
you was done
while I looked for answers
to find there was none.

Wondering though the same place
I am reminded of you.
Here you energy lingers,
hand in hand where we locked our fingers.
The photos you took, frozen moments in time
when I was around you everything felt just fine.
The calmest feelings I can't explain,
I miss every moment with you, I just can't refrain.
Enduring torture as I patiently wait
we'll see what's round the corner, I know it'll be great.

Perfect Passion reignited at last,
My heart beats ton fold, so fast.
As I stared into your eyes the world
around us stopped.
Not for a moment was my gaze upon on you
dropped.
Grateful for every moment, I was blessed to
be with you.