Your smile is the light of the sun,
Beam brightly

I'm tired of it,
The darkness,
Pulling me under,
Making me feel,
Heartless
How far fetched would it be for me
To live life, free, happily
Not having to worry about the
things that you want back from me
You laughed at me, a catastrophe
Had me sick like a disease
You cannot ever put at ease
A heart that deflates easily
I could not feasibly
Ever win you back to my side,
Fingers locked with mine
And we're looking in the eyes
Very deeply into my mind,
Seeing past all the dirt and the grime,
And the hard times, and the sad times
And all the good and all the bad and in between times
You used to be mine, I used to see my
Self taking vivid swims inside your grayish green eyes
Flowing freely in a streamline,
And maybe if you look deep inside,
Maybe you could still find
Love

Words you say,
Have a tendency to reach under my skin,
Like an infected I.V I cant pull out
Phrases and insults burning on your tongue
Shoot sparks and burn those that don't deserve
The treatment you're giving them

You can't hide your true colors anymore
I truly know your heart is black
And you live in a colorless world
While mine remains
Full of hues
And views of places
Far away

I'll throw a penny
Softly to the wishing well
Waiting for release

I wasn't enough,
I hope she finds what she wants
It's clearly not me

Your tongue said you were leaving
My eyes cried *stay

Today, my greatest love left me
She uttered simple words
That sent my complicated world
Crashing through space

She said she needed space
But how am I supposed to give you space
When my only thoughts are of your face
And the memories we made within this place
Between these wretched walls I live within

I hear your laugh on the wind
And I catch your name
Sizzling on my tongue like hot grease
And when I call it out to the night
It's only the echoes that return my cries
And I'm reminded of the bitterness of being alone

I gave up my time,
I gave up my peace of mind
I treated you right
And everybody will testify
That I did

It's your loss babe
You won't find anybody better
When you come back, I'll be here
Observing the distant weather

Take this crumpled heart
It only beats in your hands
Hold it, forever

I'll sing to the mountains
And I'll sing to the sea,
And I'll sing to the winds
And the adventure in me,

I'll sing to the clouds,
And I'll sing to the sky,
I'll sing to the sun,
When it shines too bright

I'm wandering, searching,
for knowledge, profound
From whence I came,
Were the foolish grounds,

So I sing, and I play,
And wander, far and wide
Gradually opening
The Mystic Eye

Every tree is sacred
Lending their shade,
No thanks required

My eyes open slowly,
After being crusted shut
I feel like I am floating,
Moments pass...

Oh my god, I'm floating!
I observe my surroundings
Everythings... black?

A streak shoots across my field of vision
It appears to be on fire
I roll over on my side and feel nothing beneath me
I look down, and there's nothing
But what appears to be stars
And floating pieces of dust

"I am dreaming" I say to myself
"I am aware that I'm dreaming..."
"I'm in space..."

I flip myself around in the zero gravity
To find myself staring at the center
Of a spiral shaped galaxy
And all I remember
Is feeling myself fall towards the middle

I wake up, sweating

These synthesized notes and drum loops
Have me travelling through space
Phasing in and out of reality
Passing through a unicorn shaped nebula
Into the face of the sun
Where I gather energy
And explode into a radiant burst of light
Illuminating all the galaxy with a force
That is clear and white
And shining true onto all beings
Savior of the universe

A man sat in his cramped airline seat,
His teeth chattering,
Biting down on his haggard fingernails
He had never flown before
And he never planned on it
But with the passing of a close relative
He had to take his first flight from Philly
Back to his hometown in Washington state.

Next to him sat a young boy,
who appeared to be much to young
To be by himself on this 737
The man just turned away from the young mans face
And went back to his nail biting

The boy tapped the man on the shoulder,
And he said
"Sir, I know this is scary, but there's no need
To be afraid
I've done this a hundred thousand times
Enough to know that we'll arrive
Exactly thirteen minutes late."

The man was stunned, this boy
This... small man
Enunciated his words like that of an Elder
The man turned to him, and said
"I'm sorry young man, I just can't help this
My whole life I've been isolated,
Closed off, like a shellfish"

The boy turned his head from his window and he said
"Sir, There's no need to fear the events that will unfurl,
Because you know when the oyster opens up
All that's revealed is the pearl."

And suddenly, the man felt none of the fear
He'd been living in for all these years
He rested comfortably, no longer fighting tears
His cycle was broken, the moment was chosen
When he leant the child his ear

A man was sitting in a barren landscape
Only cracks in the orange clay
And scorpions for company
And it was very dry

One day the man was sitting in meditation,
And felt himself to be hot,
So he breathed
And when he released this breath,
Trees sprang from the ground
And a pool opened at his feet
He opened his eyes, and he said
"This is not enough"

The next day, the man sat in meditation once more
And he held out his hand and said
"By my divine energy I will there to be a palace for me!"
And from his hand leapt 10,000 bricks
That formed themselves into a castle
Greater than the Taj Mahal
And he sat upon his new throne
And was happy

One day, again, he sat in meditation in his palace
And he thought "I need servants to tend to my whims!"
And he regurgitated 4 servant girls
who would see to his needs as he saw them

Many months later, after much lavish living and unhealthy eating,
He found himself with all of his riches,
all of his silks, and his exotic animal skins and servants,
Still unsatisfied, he went to meditate in his great hall,
He asked himself "Why can't I be truly satisfied? Give me a vision.
Give me a sign that I've made the right decisions"

The man found himself in the place he was truly happy
But he was confused, as he had been here before
He was seeing himself sitting on the orange clay,
At play with a scorpion,
Searching for his water for the day

"But I've had my fill" he tells himself
"I drink so much water a day I could drown a fish.
I wear such nice silks I counted down to the ten thousandth stitch
How can I be unhappy if I'm so lavishly rich?"

And that's when he realized,
that happiness isn't measured in the gold of a ring,
Or being acknowledged as some sort of king,
Happiness is having just the right amount of water from the spring,
Not the precious metals and fabric to which we cling,
And as his palace of fools gold crumbled down,
He sprang and danced and looked all around
And felt so happy he started to sing

The waters of your soul
Are so warm and inviting

I feel like I'll eventually be
Forgotten
Placed in the footnotes of histories *** crack
An insignificant blip on the radar of Earth
Fading away into the memories
Of a dead planet and a dying species

As my ancestors came before me,
So I shall be
Dead in the dirt, while the worms
Feed upon me,

I just wish I could be a hermit
Spend my days quietly meditating
Watching young trees grow tall
While the world forgets about me,
And I was it spiral into chaos
While I sit here,
Watching, and waiting,
Perfect equanimity
As the world falls around me
In small glass and steel pieces

But it's okay to be forgotten,
It means you never made any ripples
and if my life goes as I want it too,
I'll be pushed out of everyones head
Before I am even dead

And I want it that way

I miss your touch
The taste of your skin
Sweet like chamomile
and honey
Dancing on my tongue
Like venereal ballet dancers

It's only you that can light this fire,
Carnal desire,
Lay your head back,
Let me take you higher
And know that I'm not a liar
When I say your eyes drip liquid lapis
On a world that's only known
Black and white

Speak with kindness,
Act with mindfulness,
See with clarity,
without disparaging
Keep yourself clean,
Never take unjustly
Give, openly
Love, wholly
Walk in such a way that
Flowers bloom before your path
And birds sing the praises
Of the good you've done to this awful world  
Free yourself from suffering,
This cycle of death and rebirth
Live compassionately and devout
Without wanting, or ego
Detach yourself,
Let go..

Gimme a funky bassline
Slap that thing like it stole your money
Bring in the sax just right
Get on the floor and bring a honey
Cause we got

Music flowin'
******* blowin,
Everybodies vibin
With the love they're showin

Take your hats off to the band
and give them the respect to dance
When you hear that funky music
Cause It might be your last chance

So get up, down,
round and round
Make a noise complaint out of this town
So get up, down
round and round,
got kick drums by the pound,
So get up, down,
Round and round
Rock this place, to the ground!
Oh, let me give it to ya

Guitars soundin' real real clean,
Good God almighty, it's a party scene
I couldn't find this in my dreams
Let's rip this house down at the seams!

So get up, down,
round and round
Make a noise complaint out of this town
So get up, down
round and round,
got kick drums by the pound,
So get up, down,
Round and round
Rock this place, to the ground!
Oh, let me give it to ya

Silence befalls the ears with too much noise
when you're silent, people forget you're there
In my mind a thought sounds like a drop of water
Splashing against a puddle of its previously fallen predecessors
Followed by a high pitched ring of a tuning fork
As the muddled waves find their way back to a glassy flatness

Then all is silent again..

What can I do to make you love yourself again ? You literally make me the happiest person on earth. When I wake up you're the first thing in my mind and I dream about you when I sleep. My whole day is preoccupied with thoughts of you. When I think of beautiful sounds I think of your voice. When I think of beautiful sights I think of your smile. I wish I could do something to make you see this is all worth while. I want you to love you the way that I do. When you look in the mirror I want you to see a person that emanates light from all your pores and supernovas in your iris. You're all the good things I could never find in myself. My other half. But I've blinded you to these things through my own moronic action and ethical pitfalls. And for that, I'm truely sorry... I love you so much... Please don't leave me..

All our lives are transient,
So just live

For me

The callouses are rough
On the feet of
The Pilgrim
His every breath filled with purpose
His calling something higher than himself
He trudges on
Over lush forest and craggy heights
sun-warmed sand and swampy pools
He can't stop
Until he finds his peace

Her lips taste like gold
And I smell lilacs on the wind
As a breeze brushes back her hair
She looks me in the eye
And traces a finger down my cheek
And along my jawline
Just to pull gently on my chin hair
She wraps her hands around my face
And pulls me in for a long kiss
No words need to be said
We were speaking with our souls
And I knew there was a reason for everything
In that moment

You make me know how it feels
To be breath taken

I'm about to have a panic attack
These four walls growing closer
I feel like I just woke up inside a casket
With the dirt being thrown on top
And I can't even scream

I can't breathe,
I can't ******* breathe!
Get me out of here!
I can't be here anymore!

I can't cough because my throat is clutching
I'm drowning on snot and tears
I can't push this away
I have no choice
But to suffer
Through this

I don't know where I'm going,
But I'm getting somewhere

*******,
You're not anything I intended
You to be

What a waste of flesh

I saw the lotus,
When it bloomed I stopped to stare
And I saw myself, rising

Your kiss is sweeter than
The nectar of hummingbirds flowers

I got up this morning
And tasted the air
And it held a twinge of salt
And regrets I can do nothing about
It held a taste of
the bitterness
That comes after actions you wish you hadn't committed
And it made my mouth twist and contort
Into the only shape it feels comfortable in now,
As I mutter "I love you.."
I know you're not thinking of me

I can smell the dishonesty
In your veins, running...
Putrid.

Woe, is me
He who cares not for himself
And not much for others
Woe, is me
I haven't left my bed in days
I'm safe under these covers
Woe, is me
Part of me wants to get up,
The other wants to smother,
Woe, is me
Woe, is me
Woe, is me...

I'm about due
For a smoke and a back rub

I was walking down a dirt path
Deep within a great forest
The trees laid bare by Winters chokehold
The background varying shades of gray,
It was a dreary day

I stopped on a cliff face above a river
And sat on the edge of it's furthest point
And stared between the trees into the early morning sun
Coloring the horizon burnt orange
With the silhouettes of branches swaying in ballet

This was it.
I'd found it
The most perfect spot in the world
to be alone
This cliff a shrine of inner monologues and meditation

I have laid my soul here
This forest and I are one
Everything is connected, a system
Inhale, 1, 2, 3, 4
*Exhale

I met a wise man, named Mister Hank
I went to his store, because I had  no money in the bank
But a broken laptop to sell, and an empty stomach

The door was locked, but he let me in still
He said "Sit down son, talk if you will
Because you look like you've got some troubles"
I sat down across from him, and felt my stubble
And then I felt my stomach rumble
Looking right down at my shoes

He said "When I talk young man, I want you to look me in the eye
And I figured he thought what I was saying was a lie
When I was trying to talk about my broken laptop

But I couldn't have been any more wrong,
He just looked like an old time song
That's seen it's share of plays
And wanted to help me out

I told him how I write, and how I sing
And he said "It's good that you've found the thing
You really have a passion for."

"The thing that this world lacks is drive,
But I see the spark in your eye,
The kick in your side
And I know you're gonna make it out there"

We talked about drugs, and we talked about love
Everything we were taught, and the concept of
The things we were taught to believe

But the most important things, that I learned from him,
Is you can't spread happiness, if you don't have it within
"It's a sad fact son, but look out for number one,
Because sometimes love can't carry you through,
All the cold winters and the midnight blues
Just take a step back for a while, and maybe you'll find a better view"

It's just one of them things that'll do you right
An old soul with some good advice,
Sometimes, that's just all you need.

The hardest part about meditation
Is coming out of it
Why would I ever leave?
It's so perfect in there
I feel the earth spinning
And the vibrations of the energy around me
I am whole
We are one
And the connection we share is beautiful.

Send me down the river
And meet me at the end
I'll find your hand beneath this current
And pull you above the surface
So we can swim together
And I'll never let go
So we never drift away again

Just because **** is sterile
Don't mean that it's drinkable

I want to write a rap, but I don't think I got it in me
Kick it with my girl and marvel at our scars symmetry
I'm bothered by the ministry
Trying to tell me these churches work in synergy
Well I don't believe it
Take a priest as a slave, lash out, and beat it
While I'm contemplatin suicide, getting more heated
Having conversation with cold eyes where his severed head is seated!
I **** with Jesus!
Frowning upon his subjects for their tattoos and their body mods
I Speak with more sin than the ancient priests of Babylon
While I babble on,
I'm purely evil,
I'm sitting with a ****** rifle, perched on the steeple
My rage burns at a higher temperature than Jet diesel
Been festering inside, nursing it like it was fetal
Now I feel it's time for societies upheaval
I'm fully loaded
A poetic god ready to separate the broken from the chosen,
You can try to warm my heart but I assure you that **** is frozen
Take the first shots, Breathe in, line em up in my focus
Not anything escapes from this area that I be scopin'
I'm homicidal,
I'm on my set quest to rid the pests of false idols
Don't you move Mr. Preacher Man, I'm aiming for ya vitals

When your tears fell,
I watched diamonds catch the light

Humming,
In my mind,
An empty blank space
Binaural noise
Tune out,

Breathe in,
Contemplate my existence,
Wonder about the afterlife,
Breathe out

A circuit between thumb and forefinger,
Feel energy flowing through me
Wrists resting on the knees,
Palms up,
Back straight

Endorphins flowing,
Peace creeps over the body
The world blacked out,
Behind colorful, closed lids

In silence, I meditate

I wish I could give you people something of substance
But the fact of the matter is I just feel so uninspired
And that leaves me to think,
What the hell happened to this world?
There should never be a moment
In any poets life where they can't draw some inspiration
where they can't paint the sky burnt orange on a snowy day
With their words as a brush
With our words as a brush
And All of our stories as our color palate
I think we could paint the universe together
In a fantastic mural of culture, and love

Cop A Nop
Yop O U
Dop E Cop I Pop Hop E Rop
I-top?

Mop U cop hop
E A Sop I E rop
Top hop A Nop
Yop o u
Top Hop I nop kop

My eyes are fluttering
The letters mocking me as I type these
Words
And I feel my head
Crashing towards my desk
In 3, 2...

When she smiles,
It's like a baptism
Freeing me from all the worst things in life
Her happiness floods over me like God reforming the world
And I'm adrift on the arc of her love
The only thing keeping me afloat
Above this sea of melancholy and despair

Though sea monsters reach from the bottom,
Trying desperately to sink a claw in my throat
I feel protected by your omnipresence
As if your hand could smite any foe
From a thousand miles away

You are the lighthouse,
That guides me to the safety of your shores
And when I port, I'll step out
And kiss the ground you've laid before me
In eternal gratitude for your safe harbor

I'll always find safety in you

Baby, you know I love you
Won't you marry me?

I feel a shiver run through me
As her fingers touch my neck
And she bites my lip
While she tells me she loves me

I could sprout wings and fly
Every time she speaks my name
Her enticing words rolling off her tongue
And composing a symphony in my ears

When she walks,
I'm fascinated with how she sways her hips
And how she turns back to look at me and licks her lips
And my heart starts beating in anticipation

Her skin is soft,
Like I'm running my rough hands across flower petals
And when I kiss her neck,
I hear her breathe in gold and exhale diamonds
While she pulls my hair
Just the way I like it

There's no place I'd rather be

I walked into class
The students all turned their heads
Do they smell my ****?

Though I may fall down,
My spirit will stand strong
Though I may be starving,
You should eat my bread