quantum intimacy was always my breakfast
only now do I understand
many masks all unique in texture and shape
when we're young we learn how to play on swings
as adults
we all know the up swing
only the lucky ones can pump us back and forth
up down
up down
up down
(god that sounds familiar)
(like a cheap wire spring mattress on a tuesday night when you promise I'm the only one and my body melts in your palm)
cards are kept at the holders eye
you never let me know whats up your sleeve
so why should I show you the gold I have hidden?

Does anyone actually know what love is?
or what the difference between loving someone
and being in love with them?

They tried to bury us my dear
But they didn't realize that we were seeds

Snow covers valley—
Solitary raven staining world,
Love has turned black.

I sit here alone...
in the corner...
crying...

In the next room over...
I hear them laughing...
hysterical laughs...
taunting me...
of what life has neglected to give to me...

without you,
there's no point in trying.

I am enough**



…



aren't I?

It feels different; everything's changed
Something that was once normal
Is now a stretch, a pain
An answer that used to flow easily
Seems strangled and in vain

What shifted? What's new?
It seems likely it's me

(But maybe it's you)

Hear the voices
So many choices

Which would you like?
Here comes the strike
The joker, the depressed, the one who dreams?
Split personality? So it seems
Maybe you'd like to hear
They're getting closer- so near!
The one who's quiet, likes school, is neat
Time to go out; voices to greet
Or the bubbly, popular one
Quick, run
Perhaps the one with snarky comments
Use common sense
Oh, wait, you don't have a say
Go far away
In what invades your mind
Dark, cruel, or kind

Hear the voices
*But there's no choices