Focus on what makes you happy instead of trying to ruin other people's happiness, dear.

I'm tired of people telling me how I should feel or what I should do or how loud or quiet I should be about my own love and my own pride and in what ways I am allowed to show it.

I woke up feeling like I do not deserve to be this lucky, but God, I truly am so lucky.

And yet somehow through all of the pain, I am still here

It bothers me the way she looks at you
The way she makes you laugh
The way you ignore me when I walk by
And that you never called me back

It bothers me you don’t like my pictures anymore
Or that you know her fathers name
It bothers me you don’t shave your stache
Because she’ll love you just the same

It bothers me that I kept your number
After you obviously deleted mine
It bothers me I still wear your shirt to sleep
Or that you never asked if I was fine

It bothers me we don’t hang out
Or that I didn’t see us through
But what bothers me the most
Is that it doesn’t bother you

Maybe I've been searching for love,
When loneliness is all I can have.

Maybe I was trying to make a smile,
When tears are falling in my eyes.

Maybe I've made you my fantasy,
When "us" can't be a reality.

Or maybe I was hoping for more,
When all I deserve was less.

-MCJ

I never belonged in your life.
I'm  just a chapter that's about to end.
Or maybe I wasn't a chapter at all,
Just a single paragraph would do.
I know I don't have the right,
To feel hurt or sad,
For I am nothing and so is my heart.
I feel the burst of emptiness,
In almost every moment.
Please let me have peace,
And take my heart,
For it wasn't mine anymore,
Let me be just empty,
Cold, dark and numb.
Let me forget you.
Let me move on.
Let me be free.

-MCJ