i am a silent soul,
forget about me, if you must.

but one day you'll wake up
to find my bed made, but empty.
i will be off to nowhere,
but i will get everywhere.

i'll scatter myself from the sky like ashes,
i'll fall like the rains of July,
i'll kiss mountain tops like the snow of December,
i'll drift around like the golden leaves of October,
and i will be left to the wind.

i will no longer be a soul
trapped in this cage of flesh and bones,
i will run through the world,
writing post cards about all i will see and do,
but sending them to nobody.

Don't give up your heart,
you need it to live.
waking up beside you...
what I wouldn't give...
Tell me your okay,
don't let me cry.
I'll hold your hand as we say goodbye...

How careful was I, when I took my way,
Each trifle under truest bars to ******,
That to my use it might unusèd stay
From hands of falsehood, in sure wards of trust!
But thou, to whom my jewels trifles are,
Most worthy comfort, now my greatest grief,
Thou best of dearest, and mine only care,
Art left the prey of every ****** thief.
Thee have I not locked up in any chest,
Save where thou art not—though I feel thou art—
Within the gentle closure of my breast,
From whence at pleasure thou mayst come and part;
    And even thence thou wilt be stol’n, I fear,
    For truth proves thievish for a prize so dear.

I see
tears
before
sunlight,
feel
pain
before
warmth

sense
invisible
shackles
grow
so heavy
I can
barely
move

In
quiet
desperation
my body
attempts
to
drown
itself

my soul is a basement
flooded with un-choreographed movement,
rapid waters of words I never really meant
and empty fish bellied breaths
My heart is no different
just one big blue gilled vessel
aching
wishing for stars within black veins

Nature is beautiful,
Nature is awesome
Nature is wonderful
and has no comparison
Nature is permanent
and can not be altered
Nature is good and has
No Rival
Nature says
I will never fail
nor forsake you,
Nature has no regret
nor issues relating to controversies
Nature says I am the same
I changeth not

Oh Beautiful Nature
How I want
To
Be your friend
Forever.

FIRST POEM FOR MY OLDER DAUGHTER

She's vast and full
Blossoming like the tides high
Too perfect, yet soft
She is like a full fledge rain
Falling and brooding the earth
She wants to heal the world,
But in so doing,
She has to learn that she can't do it alone

she needs to balance getting a PhD and having a family,
The two must be balanced to be a full woman.
A woman must Create a world, A world called family