Why is it that the rising sun reminds me of you?
The drifting clouds, the ebb and flow of the city sounds,
My heart that trips and skips when I am reminded –
This heart that misses you with each moment.

It wasn’t meant to be this way,
My mind missing you everyday
My heart reaching, having things to say
And I promise you; I promise you’ll hear it one day.

The fresh air caresses my skin and I am reminded
This warm-bloodedness I long to share with you
In this life I want to hold you, and never let go
So you know how much I love you…

But I know you’re in a better place,
When I close my eyes I see your smiling face
Watching down at my old and new mistakes
In this life I call my own.

So when I come and join you
When I’ve had my laughs and loves,
We can laugh and smile together
And gaze down on everyone.

A night of sin planned ahead,
A candle lit room for two.
Dining on the fruits of seduction,
A table of satin sheets,
A plate of welcome, needy flesh.

Some might name this torture,
The way your touches make me scream,
But my shivering body knows better
And I say it’s pleasure for pain.

Your pinned and open butterfly,
Like a willing slave to your gaze.
Hot eyes like coals heat me,
Hands soft as silk please me,
Moans your reward for such patience.

Our pleasure hot and heavy
And still you wait willingly.
You’ll get your reward
If you appreciate my sin.

On my knees I beg for more
Hands searching, hunger flaring,
Begging for a taste of the forbidden.
Head bowed and always subservient
I come to you in need, my Torture.

The nights don’t appear so long with you
Until you go to sleep
Your peaceful face placates me some
As jealousy floods my heart
How can you sleep with a smile
As I while away the hours
Imagining you surrounded by flowers
And many cloaks of black
Wreaths of crimson red roses
As a tear falls at my choices
What I did while I was shaken

I hate how you sleep...

Oh mother, I’m scared of you
Of that false smile you so expertly carry
The words you speak are so wrong they deafen me
And inside I know you’re not complete

There’s something inside that frightens me
I know that somehow you’re broken
Those tears on your cheeks are tainted
I fear you, and it’s not your fault

There’s something inside that shakes me
I know you’ll always be broken
Those tears are red with hidden anger
I fear you, and it’s not your fault

Oh mother, I know you’re healing
Slowly, bit by bit every day
But the wound will scar, I’ll always see it
It’s a constant reminder of what you are

Oh mother, it’s breaking me in every way
My heart so strong doubts it all
I don’t think you’ll ever be the same
You’ll carry that smile while I expect you to fall

There’s something inside that frightens me
I know that somehow you’re broken
Those tears on your cheeks are tainted
I fear you, and it’s not your fault

There’s something inside that shakes me
I know you’ll always be broken
Those tears are red with hidden anger
I fear you, and it’s not your fault

Oh mother, you’ll always be broken to me
You’ll always be a horror carbon copy
And as these tears roll down my face
I know you’ll always be a mother... To me.

Blood on a show white landscape
Grace of the dancer in silk wrapping
She seduces, sleek and ornamental
Wearing a masterpiece of the sunset
Burnt orange and gold adorns her
My Geisha, my ultimate Queen
With eyes like the sea, she flows like water
She’ll break down my **** without exertion
With her sash of mahogany around her stomach
Binding back her heart and free will
Eventually I will cage this fluttering bird
Steal her and keep her in my guardian walls
With eyes averted she keeps the sake flowing
Giving me a quirk of lips before fleeing
A sigh escapes my wary body
Will my white dove ever follow me home..?

So when I walk through that door
Will you greet me?
Smiles and spitted lies that will pass
I remember when you said that you would miss me
But now that I have grown up
I now know that there’s no fun
In going home to a mom
That talks nothing but ******* about me
She’s always telling me to grow up
Yet she is stuck in the same little ******* rut
That agitates the **** out of me
So which direction, ******* mother, should I go?
Tell me if you think that you know
This heart that beats inside of me
That tells me what I can and can’t be
Will not take instructions from the
Worst ******* mother I see
So now that I have figured where I’m going
Picking a direction and not knowing
Whether I’ll ever see you smiling at me
So I’ve left you with my brother
Left him with the mother
That I never really knew
But one day I know
That every day he’ll show
More intelligence and potential then me
So goodbye for the last time
Remember that I’ll be fine
Like I always have been
So if we meet again
I hope we can be friends
And I hope you’ll see the better side of me...

It’s gripping, its hold on me growing tighter
I can’t keep it out much longer, it’s flowing
This fog is creeping through my mind
One of a kind, it’s there to remind me
To hurt me, heal me, shield me
Pure insanity sends me reeling, am I healing?
It rends me in two, leaves me checking on you
I don’t know what to do with you,
Two of a kind, birds of a feather
A daughter and a mother, struggling to recover
Struggling together, together will they stay?
Though this hurts, my heart barely beats
I’ll be there to dry your tears and kiss your cheeks
As I feel the insanity setting in
Don’t worry about me, it’s you that’s worsening.