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Rana Ayman Mar 2015
For a moment there or two, I wished it was you
For you to be the one and for this to be true
You're like this beautiful scene of a wide open ocean
Everything is so vibrant even in your simplest motion
A radiant star, that fills me up with emotions
It seems like it's all crystal clear
Yet something holds me back, There's always this fear
I take a deep breath -inhale, trying to clear my head
I let it out -exhale, why can't I just be dead
My problem is, I still live in the past
And honestly I don't know how long this will this last
Just get me a **** bomb, and let me blast
Leave this world and let it be, I'll dive into the endless sea
But then you show up again, right before my eyes
I take a glance and it hurts that I have to disguise
If only I could tear off those layers I hide under
Will I ever show you who I am? I always wonder.
Tears pouring down with grace,nothing for me to chase
I'm leaving this life
I hope it's peaceful and quiet like you pretty face.
Rana Ayman Feb 2015
I hope someday I'll find a way out of here
A way that would show me how to conquer my fear
I put my head on the pillow to rest
But that's the only thing I do best
They said I suffer from a brain trauma
Leading to all this emotional drama
I sit right there staring at a wall
Trying to find a way, trying to find a door
Everyone keeps thinking I'm a villain
Driven by hate into my own prison
Their problem is,they never listen
Listen to my words, read what I write
Because that is what gets me through the night
A complete freeze, I'm not in ease
I think I'm sick by my own disease
Pulsing its way through my veins
There's this force, breaking all my chains
Now i know what my brain sustains
I have reached my absolute zero
From now on I'll be my own hero
Rana Ayman Jan 2015
Trying to find a reason between all the sounds
A sound that tells you why on earth you're on these grounds
What is it that you do, what difference do you make
You start to wonder
Am I a gift? Or perhaps a mistake
Will I ever reach greatness while I'm still awake?
Or maybe I'm of no use, maybe I was born to lose, built to break
All those hopes and wishes, everything's at stake
All my life I've been moving wherever the winds go
'There's no place like home' they'd say, but how would I know?
All those struggles inside my soul
Trying to find who I am
Trying to take control
& I keep wondering if I'll ever reach my goal,
Or maybe I'll keep looking forever and end up with nothing at all
Rana Ayman Jan 2015
Put a bullet through my head
Cuz I'm alive yet I'm dead
I'm sick of everything and everyone
I see no moon, I see no sun
All I see is a gun..
So I'll take it and put it to my skull
But all I feel is null
I no more feel a thing
Not the joy of a swing
Nor the pain of a sting
So give me one reason to why I should fight
Tell me the story,  what's wrong and what's right
They said at the end of the road there will be light
But all I see is the dark black night
I'm on the edge of darkness
Some may think I'm heartless
And all I write is artless
But all I feel is blankness, and it's driving me to madness..
Rana Ayman Dec 2014
So maybe we're broken
Maybe we're bent
Maybe, yes
we've reached our end
it's over, our time to spend
There's nothing to be said
Nothing to be done
All those endless battles are gone
See the blood pouring through our veins?
See those scars, see those stains?
There they are
covering our remains
We've been through hell
The suffer, the dwell
The ground beneath us is shattering
We're sinking in
Falling and Scattering
but no, we didn't fall
we just lost it all
the agony was all out of control
too painful to be real
too hurtful to feel
it's too much to take
we bend
we break
Rana Ayman Dec 2014
Never ever
Let the river
Drown you down in shiver
Never ever
Let the lover
Hurt you bad you can't recover
Never ever
Act so clever
It's no good
For a gun to be a giver
Never ever
Stand in quiver
While they slit you like a sliver
Never ever
Give the ripper
The chance to rip away your dither
Be angry be bold
Stand up
You're Gold.
Rana Ayman Dec 2014
A girl once sat alone on a swing
She saw a tiny bee, flying with its wing
Mesmerizing as it is, with its golden rings
She reaches for it ,then starts to sing
But no one knows what happens then
She wakes up to pain
She feels the sting
Piercing its way, through her soft skin
Yet all her conflicts are still locked in
Trapped within
She feels the earth shaking
She feels herself breaking
And only just then, she starts awaking
To teardrops on her forehead , falling like ice
Which makes her realize
That it's the rain , washing her pain
And on the ground she found the bee,..drained
All the conflicts inside her , are now crystal clear
The good inside us, is what we hear
The bad is the part that we always fear
But you can't live with only one
cause without the moon, there is no sun
And along with the agony, comes the fun
This is the life we live in
Everything and its opposite, is what makes it begin
Contradictions and Contraventions , are what gives it its Perfection.
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