090116

I can feel the skin of the contoured walls
As I saw her w/ her rivers of tears.
Beyond the four corners of her entity,
I can taste her bitter fears
Of months-old existence of hurt & defeats.

But I can see the future of the Dust
As she laid herself on the golden Sky.
"I was searching in the invisible Sky,
Grasping every Word that floats.

I quiet my soul as I thirst for more.
For it's a picture of my future.
Words aren't illusions; but a Magical Being
More than my empty words,
Yours are my infinite praise.
Like air, like wind, oh Your Breath of Life
My Bread of Life as You speak."

081716

Inagaw ko ang silya kay Itay,
Nagdabog at nagkalansingan ang hain Niya;
Nilisan Siya kahit may habilin pa.
Nagmamadali ako, ayokong mahuli.
Pero ang oras, Siya pala ang Eksperto.

Nadapa, nasugatan --
Umiyak ako sa sobrang sakit.
Di bale nang pagalitan ako ni Itay,
Gusto ko lang talagang makauwi.

Kaya't bumalik ako,
Hindi ko napigilang mas umiyak pa
Nang yayain Niya ako sa Hapag-kainan.
"Kain na, anak."
Parang walang nagbago.

Alam ko, bawal ang "Tayo"
Kaya umupo ako sa silyang alok Niya.
Saka na ako tatayo,
Ayoko na kasing mauna.
Bahala na si Itay.

081216

Saturday --
My 5.5 hours trip was full of intense prayer,
All the time, I tried to hold my heart.
It was thumping in minutes unknown,
For I have no words to tell you.

We faced each other
After months of changing routes.
And then, we uttered tears to Heaven.
I had a glimpse of you,
So you'll know it's really me
You're talking to.
But deep within,
I hide the tears
Of months of pain
So sweet as vain.

You drove me home,
With clueless words
With cheerful emotions.
You stayed,
For it wasn't a closure
But a second chance.

Sunday --
I know we heard the same preaching
Of forgiveness and pain.
Of experiences that cast out fear,
Of true love, more than earthly's paints.

I tried to search for you in the crowd
Just wondering if you're not gonna hang up.
I went home, without your goodbye.

Monday --
I felt the Spirit's conviction
And so I get my phone
I was praying that you answer
So that words will be bound home.

I found my words too straightforward,
Now we just have to let go.
To stop this crazy feeling,
For love was not yet home.

I passed by with memories
Of the past hurt and the new restoration.
I thank God in my heart.
But I was still hanging,
As I wait for your word.

All the time I've been waiting,
My feelings got confused
And I wanna hold on to us.
I became a beggar of love,
Though I beg Him to take this love.

I thought you were gonna fight for me,
But you let go so easily.
In a moment, I was in tears
And everything was shuttered in me.

I was crying all the time,
Praying that you'll stay.
My heart was a stone
But God held me so tight
And in the end, calmed my soul.

Tuesday --

I cried over and over again
I was in total shock of pain.
Drowning with regrets of letting go.
What was in my mind
That I did set you free?

I cried countless tears
I was torn into something's not me
But I found myself searching for answers...
Searching for Truth to set me free.

Wednesday --

I woke up in Heaven's rest
As if the pain was all gone.
As if it's all done.

The Lord has comforted me
The Lord became my refuge.
He took away the pain
And love me as who I am.

Days of mourning have ended
My soul dance with waves of blessings.
I am blessed to undergo pain
For grace and love have brought me home.

Thursday --

The Lord has granted me peace
He has destroyed every weapon
That I may live by His grace
And live life as He had lived.

I was born again
Again and again
And day by day,
He utters, "Rest, my child."

And so I sing a new song
To laud my Lord
With infinite praise.