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Feb 2016 · 174
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Katelynn Feb 2016
There's a war in my head
And it won't shut up
I just want to make it stop
But I'm trapped behind the words and the lies
I just want to feel good enough
Feb 2016 · 184
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Katelynn Feb 2016
wrestling with the same old devil
year after year after year after year
I've had it with me
so long
I don't know where
it ends
and
I begin
Jan 2016 · 167
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Katelynn Jan 2016
I promise you my name has never sounded so lovely until it was on your lips
Jan 2016 · 184
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Katelynn Jan 2016
i used to think i was in love
but the depths of that ocean were dangerous
the surfaces were calm and peaceful
but the further i plunged
the darker it got
i became ensnared in the trappings and twistings of you
the storms were always on the horizons
but you convinced that this was how love was
love didn't equal trust

but oh, darling how i've learned to swim in much sweeter waters
the storms are never brewing
the depths are translucent and clean
because
he is much better than you
this is slightly mean but i don't care
Jan 2016 · 191
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Katelynn Jan 2016
I want to capture this feeling in a tiny glass vial
And send it you
And maybe when you get it
You can have a little taste
And maybe if I'm lucky
You'll say
You feel it too
I met this really amazing human being
Jan 2016 · 255
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Katelynn Jan 2016
i don't like capital letters
their formal figures towering over the others
belittling
mocking
always looking down upon
oh, capital letters
i am tired of you saying i am not good enough
because i know why you hold your nose so high
it's so that you can't smell the rotting of your soul
Jan 2016 · 198
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Katelynn Jan 2016
i love the sound of the rain and the smell of you
Dec 2015 · 215
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Katelynn Dec 2015
My chest is filled with black
But is it filled with black?
Or is it so empty it's black?
I can't tell because
The blackness has spread to my head
And all my axons have stopped firing
Dec 2015 · 220
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Katelynn Dec 2015
there's a cave inside of me
dark and dripping in blackness
it's where i run and hide
when life comes crashing down
some may find it lonely
but don't worry, darling
the echo of my screams and strangled cries
soothe my tears away
Dec 2015 · 275
Ocean of (death) love
Katelynn Dec 2015
You say that you love me
I believe you because
I'm drowning in your love
You may think "how romantic"
But it's not
Because it's creeping higher and higher
And I know one day
I won't be able to breathe
It'll slowly creep in
And
Crush my lungs
Your love is killing me
Nov 2015 · 196
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Katelynn Nov 2015
The confusion in my heart is weighing me down
It's filling my body
My brain is giving up
The fog is too thick
My heart is too heavy
Nov 2015 · 694
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Katelynn Nov 2015
My heart is torn in two
But I still can't give one half to you
Nov 2015 · 325
Dear 'in love'
Katelynn Nov 2015
Where did you go and why did you leave me?
Was I not good enough for your companionship?
I can't remember the last time I felt you around
Did you quietly slip away into the setting sun or were you more like the switch of a light, suddenly gone?
I know it wasn't your fault
It was mine
For changing
For wanting to grow
I pulled away thinking you'd follow along
But you didn't
The string was cut
The sever was left frayed and uneven
And I can't get it back because time doesn't work that way
I want to move forward
But I'm stumbling around in the dark
Waiting for the spark of your love to ignite back inside me
Nov 2015 · 237
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Katelynn Nov 2015
you were the sweetest man to live
your kindness
your happiness
your love
radiated from your body
I bet Death smiled when he kissed your lips and took your last breath
because even he felt your love
Oct 2015 · 186
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Katelynn Oct 2015
the sigh of a feather reminds me of the color of your eyes
Oct 2015 · 204
12 AM
Katelynn Oct 2015
I confessed my sins
I let all the toxic filth drip down my face
Come out of my mouth
I showed you my blackened heart
Sitting deep in my chest
I opened my thoughts
And you closed your eyes and pretended
You never saw
Oct 2015 · 180
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Katelynn Oct 2015
I miss you more than words can say

My love for you fills my chest with warmth and sleepy comfort

Somehow I'm living without you

But is it really living when you're not beside me?
Sep 2015 · 161
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Katelynn Sep 2015
Oh, my love, what I would do to feel the satin of your lips and the taste of your tongue
I miss kissing
Aug 2015 · 338
dear dad
Katelynn Aug 2015
To the man who is supposed to be my hero
You are my villain
To the man who is supposed to be my protector
You are my attacker
To the man who is supposed to lift me
You are the reason I fall down
Aug 2015 · 348
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Katelynn Aug 2015
my heart goes out to you
1,000 miles away
i hope it wraps you up
in warmth and love
i hope you smile bright
when you picture my face
and remember my laugh
Katelynn Aug 2015
I would say "I love you forever" but forever still doesn't seem long enough
So grateful for eternal marriages
Aug 2015 · 273
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Katelynn Aug 2015
I love to watch the sunrise
The yellow gold of the sun
Reminds me of the
Yellow gold in your eyes
Each day renewed with the shining of the sun
Each day my love renewes with the shining of your eyes
Idk
Katelynn Aug 2015
It's okay to cry
It's okay to fall apart
It's okay to feel the world crushing in around you
It's okay to want to smash your face against a wall
It's okay to feel so empty you question if you're even alive
Having a bad night but that's okay because tomorrow is a beautiful day
Jul 2015 · 1.3k
You're my patronus
Katelynn Jul 2015
I'll love you for as long as
Snape loved Lily
Harry Potter is life
Jul 2015 · 385
watercolor hearts
Katelynn Jul 2015
I love to watercolor paint
To watch one color bleed into another
Because that's really what we all are
Bleeding hearts
Waiting for another color to come along
To bleed into
And make the perfect shade of an in between color
Jul 2015 · 371
5 am
Katelynn Jul 2015
I can't sleep
My heart is wide awake
I can't breathe without your pheromones filling my lungs  
They're like earth and mud and the good kind of sweat all mixed up in one
But I can't quite catch your smell anymore
My heart is left without it's oxygen supply
So I'll stay up and feel my heart slowly suffocate
11 more months and I get my love back
Jul 2015 · 3.3k
I am a cockroach
Katelynn Jul 2015
Today, I watched a dying cockroach try and drag itself across my bathroom floor
It couldn't even drag itself properly

Sometimes I feel like that
Like the dying cockroach who can't even drag itself properly to the unknown safety of beyond
I actually have a fear of cockroaches so I left it to slowly die I know I'm awful
Jul 2015 · 276
early morning
Katelynn Jul 2015
to watch the laughter play across your face
is to watch the sun rise finally break across the horizon
When you can't sleep, write right?
Jul 2015 · 175
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Katelynn Jul 2015
i miss you more than words can say
more than the stars miss the moon
more than grass miss the rain
more than you could ever imagine
Katelynn Jul 2015
behind my eyes
you're so clear

when i open them
i almost expect you
to be laying there
next to me

but each time
there's only empty space
to match my empty
heart
Jul 2015 · 228
336 more days
Katelynn Jul 2015
i can't seem to breathe without your touch


i can't seem to live without you here
Jul 2015 · 447
you're my diagnosis
Katelynn Jul 2015
i miss you
so much
it's almost
*paralyzing
Katelynn Apr 2015
Is there anyway I could just die without really dying?
Maybe all my atoms could just simply be absorbed back into earth
They could create something more useful and pretty
Maybe my soul could be swept up in the wind
It could whisper sweet messages to all those who need it
Maybe my pain could create a deep, engulfing canyon
And all those who come across it could understand why
Katelynn Apr 2015
I know it's your fault
You even said it

But then why do I feel like this
Like sadness is dropping off my body as if I'm drenched in sweaty sorrow
Like I'm drowning in my own self hate as if I'm the one holding my own head down under my own self pity

Because a part of me
Feels like
I couldn't even keep you
Interested enough
Apr 2015 · 892
My dear old besties
Katelynn Apr 2015
'Hello, old friends' I say
As the voices in my head come rushing in
I thought I got rid of you
I thought I was
Beautiful
Stunning
Gorgeous
Magnificent
They smirk at me
Because we both know those things
Are
Not
True
:(
Jan 2015 · 908
Maybe, goodbye
Katelynn Jan 2015
I love you

I love you with all my heart and soul

But do I love you enough to let you go?
Dec 2014 · 666
What's mine is yours, baby
Katelynn Dec 2014
Have you ever felt so free
Almost like you were on fire
Like you have the oceans to yourself to swim and explore
Like the clouds were yours
Like every breath of air felt like precious gifts of life and you just want to scream with joy

Because if you haven't
I want you to have mine
Idk
Oct 2014 · 379
Calling my Confidence
Katelynn Oct 2014
It's ironic how quick you flee
It's almost funny how fast I tumble back down
But it's not funny
Because rock bottom doesn't feel so nice when you've felt the kisses of the clouds
Katelynn Oct 2014
Climb down into the bright, raspberry red of my heart
Can you hear how it beats for you?

Wrap your ocean arms around me
I want you to pull me into your depths
It's only there that I feel home

Can you tell I'm breathing easier?
Or maybe I'm just breathless
It's cliché, I know
Katelynn Oct 2014
Would you let me hear your heartbeat?
Does it sound the same as mine?
I'm convinced that you're too divine to be made of the same parts as me

I want to hear your heartbeat every night before I sleep
I want to fill in the small pauses between beats with love and joy
I am not worthy of that
But somehow you still let me
You say your heart is mine

How did I ever get so lucky?
All my poems sound the same, sorry.
Katelynn Sep 2014
I want to be your ocean tide.
Let me pull you in.
You can discover my deep depths.
The parts where the sun can't even reach.

Let me glimmer in the moonlight.
Take a plunge in my waves.
Katelynn Sep 2014
Do you ever  feel like screaming?
Or is that just me?
I want to feel the anger trapped inside my chest burst.
I want to capture in my hands
And eat it alive.
I want to feel it squirm and wiggle with fright
Before I take the first bite.

"You are what you eat," they say.
That's strange.
I don't remember eating this pain.
Sep 2014 · 2.1k
I want to breathe you in
Katelynn Sep 2014
Do you feel me in the wind?
Because I feel you.

I want to feel your arms around me again
The heat of your skin against mine
The way I can feel your heartbeat in your chest

I wish you would see me when the sunlight plays with the colors of  daisies
Can I at least pretend you do?

I want your lips gently pressed on mine
I want to hear your laugh again
I want to breathe in your heavenly smell and forever get lost it
I want to see the way your eyes light up with fire when you look at me

But I can't

Because you're gone

Do you feel me in the wind?
Because I feel you.
Katelynn Sep 2014
There once was a boy with summer sky colored eyes.
His mouth was made of wild raspberries.
His laugh of falling leaves.
He fell in love with a girl with trees in her eyes.

There was once was a girl with trees in her eyes.
Her mouth was made of rosebuds.
Her laugh of rushing waterfall.
She fell in love with a boy with summer sky colored eyes.

His hands were made of water.
When he touched her,
Her strawberry heart grew.
And grew.
And grew.
And grew.
She bathed in his summer eyes.
She tasted his wild raspberries
And always wanted more.
She danced in his falling leaves.

She lived to see the sunshine sparkle in those summer eyes.
To feel his water hands
Ingulf her in his sea.

But then the summer sky eyes filled with icy snow.
Her strawberry heart gave a sorrowful squeeze.

He told her he had to leave.

But he told her he would be back.
He kissed her rosebud mouth one last time.

And flew away.

The trees died.
The rosebuds stopped blooming.
The waterfall stopped rushing.
The strawberry heart grew still and quiet.

She looked.
And looked.
And looked.
And looked
For those summer sky eyes.

She saw
The deep blue of oceans,
The emptiness of a cloud covered night sky,
And honey filled hives.
Even green colored lemon trees.
But never the color of summer sky.

She thought they were gone forever.

But he was her forever.

He flew back to her.

She saw the summer eyes again,
When she thought she had stopped looking.
Her trees shook with raindrops.
His water hands engulfed her.
She felt the pulsing of his waves.
He said "I told you I would come back to you."

And she floated in his summer sky eyes forever.

— The End —