Pepper Dove

Pepper Dove Sep 2017

I followed in a dream
one day,
a melancholy sound
Beating the drums
in my ears
as my heart
pounds,
With every uncertain step
I took
the sound began to fade,
reaching an empty
candled lit room
with a child,
wiping tears from her face,
I asked
what were those
haunting sounds
I had heard?
She opened her mouth
with a bit of a smirk
"It's a sad machine,
I play...
I found it in a dream...
when I followed
you,
one day."

#dreams

Pepper Dove Jul 2017

Quiet

is what
I do
all too
often
it engulfs me
smothering
me to
realization
that all
I have to
do
to breath
is

just

SCREEEEEEEEEEEAAMMMM!

#quiet #nomore

Pepper Dove Jul 2017

Freestyle

Bright lights may blind me
but it isn’t the light I see
slipped back into time,
you see
it wasn’t the right time for me
Daily pains become mundane
it's the insane reframed
within this window pane
shattered glass that
once reflected my inner mass
scattered on the floor
swept into the past
A different point of view
than you, it isn’t new
it's just a clue to how
the tables turn like pages
even though they’re burnned
like sage is

Just a little freestyle, letting the words flow without over thinking it

#freestyle #letgo #befree

Pepper Dove Jul 2017

Blushing Eyes

I arrived
and just in time too
for you
to show your face
oh that face
you make
when I enter the room
I can feel your eyes
like lasers
scanning my body
when I’m turned away
I know
that when I glance
in your direction
those piercing blues
will meet mine
for they were already there
just as I had hoped
so I could steal a smile
blushing red
quickly turning away
mouthing the words
I love you
in silence
to yourself

#love #eyes #blush

Pepper Dove Jul 2017

Pain in the Beauty of Rain

It was one of those
gentle
rainy days
with rain clouds
so thin,
revealing
baby blue
hiding behind.
The roads became
mirrors
for the streetlights
peering down,
smiling bright
at the young girl
seated on the curb
below;

solemn
and
alone.

#rain

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Webs of Solitude

Darkness is here
beneath the canopy
where tiny insects inject
venom with apathy
Swiftly spinning
webs
of solitude
watching you
taunting you
wanting you to intrude
Lingering notions
of spraying potions;
hypnosis
You're helpless
and hopeless
Unconscious
and motionless
Can't you hear the cries?
From the spirits
fallen victim to
all of it's lies,
gripping you with eyes
grinning
at it's winning
of your steady
slow
demise.

Metephorical for all those sneaky spiders in your life, always trying to manipulate you to fall into their webs of deception so they can use you to their benefit and consume your whole being.

#metaphor #spider #deception #manipulate #fake #intruder #caution

Pepper Dove Jun 2017

Not Enough

My hand becomes paralyzed
at the thought of
writing out my thoughts
true
but blue is the color
that shades me
hiding me in its hue

I want to express
how my heart aches
it craves
to connect

known for my patience
so a lesson
you must be
then

teaching me

to not waste
anymore time
oh how little time
we truly do have

so I toss and turn
in the moonlights beam
like a coin flipped into the air
what side shall I be?

caught in the middle
between waiting
and going
I cling to this meaning
of my middle name
hoping
for it all to fall into place
hoping
for you to just understand
me

All i want
is for you
to look at me
as though
I will not be
here
tomorrow

I teeter with this meaning
of love
when the word
routinely
leaves your lips
so mundane

what does love actually mean
to you,
******!?

Is it having
someone around
to deal with
your piles of clothes
scattered on the floor
like
my thoughts
indisposed?

is it knowing
that you can
stack the dishes
as high as
my anxiety builds
in hopes for it all
to come
crashing down?

Is it that you can
leisurely
spend your money
on
toys?
oh how your car needs
that ******’ loud exhaust!

though home
isn’t your concern
because love to you
is not having
to be concerned
about how I feel

I am just here
to cater to you

how am I so
easy going
to just grin
and bare it

you love me
so
you don’t
have to
consider it

because
you say it
routinely
so surely
my heart
is content…
right?

Venting... and it was much needed!

#empty #love #disconnected