My Girl loves me despite
What i'm saying?
I'm not too high to realize
What i'm longing.
Too much difference between me and you
I need to take off my wings
I need to pull off my fascinations
I'm insane and my mind losted !
I'm stained around this pain
It's ain't enough.....

Through your sweet smile and round face
Where i'm belonging
I ain't feel alive without my phone ringing
selfish too much 'bout you
Despair but much i needed you
So you can love me much as i can?

To my all questions i ain't go shut up.
So why don't you admit it.
If you did with your choice.
I'm asking !
How far you've given me a space
Do i exist to your life
Do you wishing me right next?
Do you suppose me to kiss?
tight.
Do you suppose me to hug?
Holding me up for a while,
Effortlessly, you'd says  don't know!
Had you seen yourself at my place
Although never i'll meant you to feel hurt.
That's all i got instead,
In the name of LOVE.
19/07/19

There's nothing left to heal
though most of pathetic anixety feel
no longer love would be rotten
quite after you betray.
all i do is screm to myself
Everything, Doing everything I can,
It's all about part of my pride...
but, i hate to say I'm proud
still i say, do you hear my echo aloud...

Which type of mesh is it?
too much lye between in pain,
nobody beware it's vain.
for these pleasure SCARS,  
i never ment to spites...
i went out of my insane
heart felts torn apart
too much bad at goodbye...

Need to take off "circumstances"
wishing for time machine
to change the past of we
yet it hasn't built...
no magician can do or so
do i shut up? god !
-clean up all the mess
"Lit, the flower
Dare to expell the fake,
SHE'LL back with the asthethic face"

SHE belongs to my dreams.
like SHE’s only my last string
hanging to the endless screen
to the room of “love scenes”
yet! it’s not clean...

for love inside our mess
which was not all a hate
I’m not a worse,
just fool of my hope.
the way the
circumstances betrayed
do we need to
pretend our spare?

HATE which I neither did
LOVE which i always did
though most time happened less.
but the the two are always
tied with knots...

how could you let me down
easily,
where’s all the promises
that we made early.
oh sh*t! i got this
moment right.
yet dare to
spell something.
unless my poetic
mind stops.
perhaps DAY is near
i’ll went out soon.
this tied knots brokes out
with the piontless cause.
01.07.2019

is this what  feels good,
though i don't feel through
i know i'll be fine without you…
without messages and takls
but despite we rushed up
in the millons of thought
searching where place to go.

i can't handle my emotions and tears
but i'll ready to withstand all missery,
and fear...


knew,
it wasn't enough for you
can't even we  speak through
you might looks it  absurd....
you ends up all.....
but, i don't

we nothing left else,
only barely hanging in the memories of......
cause we left there. in the same
we know that it can't  turn backs
i wish that , i can,
and  change things
and RE-START the life once again......

without reason...
we can't love,
without known..
we can't love,
without medium..
we can't love,

we don't even try,
we don't even trust,
we don't believe,
we tell it absurd....

but when
, closing an eyes,
dreams start talking,
nerves starts reading a heart
the picture of our scene
moving upright to paradise
liting up all the light
dancing on the sky
only we'were in the sky
all four direction so new,
peace by a side

opening an eyes
searching you by my side
movement of sadness
in  a bit second. it mad me upset
we dont know where we relate....
but where we came up  is same
dusk and dawn passed by
just in your memories......
in the shut of an eyes


feeeeeeel my love.................
if you try