With every pill I take… I lose a little of myself
It almost makes my life bearable
With every pill I take… my mind borders on insanity
It almost makes my life bearable
With every pill I take
I break with reality
Pop another pill
It will never make my life bearable
Pop another pill
Just in case

When you put your hand upon my face
I was transported to a safe place
It helped me come to realize
I had so much pain to erase
But I wasn’t alone…
I drew strength from your touch
Your kindness meant so much
It came from your heart
And went straight to my soul
Making a connection showing me how
To win back my life
To take back control
But I didn’t miss
The wistful look in your eyes
It came as no surprise
As if to say:
“Another time
Another place
Your hand upon my face
No pain to erase
Wondering
What might have been….”

Today my sister died…or maybe it was yesterday
I’m not really sure …how… why… or  when… it doesn’t matter now
If only I could talk to her again
I would let her know…
That If I knew that our brief encounter would be our last
I could have been kinder
The words flew thru out of my mouth
I wish I could take them back
Yes maybe I could have been a better sister
You pushed me away so much
That I had no reason the stay
You were wicked… spiteful… and …mean…
But you were my sister
You never moved on with your life
You suffered from the day Daddy died
Never to love again…
Your high expectations were written in stone…
In your cold …broken… sad… heart
You never knew the love you so needed
You never got what you deserved
You asked so little of life
Yet should have gotten the world
Your life was not sprinkled with true happiness
You were loved...but only felt pain
Why I will never know…
You had so much love to give
But you never found peace..
In life and
Now death
I now wish you peace
I wish you love
I wish you were here with me again
(roll your eyes at me…I know you want to)
Love is for giving
Love is Forgiving
I wish that from you…

No one really knows
Where my mind goes
When a circuit blows
When unreality shows
When chaos blows
Into my mind
I usually wake up to find
A version of my life…so unkind
The silver lining in that cloud
Now again unlined
Replaced by doubt, despair and pain

Help me now, I cry
That my life I will regain
Words come:
“Pray to the Lord
No longer refrain
Let his love
Sink into your brain”

That was so easy to explain
Only one thought does remain

“Will He remember me?”
I’ve stepped away so far
“Yes, He knows who you are”
“You are not alone”

Your soul he will feed
To great peace it will lead
No longer will your heart bleed
Let His love encompass your need
In the Lord your troubles are freed

“Oh yes…
He remembers you…”