if you can come out of a depressing situation and
after a while you find yourself again in one
compare yourself to your earlier self
are still just as miserable like you were in the past?
if not;
you've grown.

Diffidently, so as not to disturb the silence,
I dip dripping paddles into the distorted image
of blue-broken green above my head,
each quiet splash sending my little vessel
flying across this peaceful mirror sky.

Beneath the moss-draped canopy, all is still,
heat-oppressed and thick with clinging moisture while
reed-throated and washboard-legged insects
spill their lullabies into the laden air
just for my thin-blooded heart to hear.

Before me stretches dark mystery,
possibly shallow, possibly deeper than I imagine,
murky liquid hiding the algae-cursed treasure
of some forgotten Spanish explorer, to whom
these still waters would have seemed so alien.

To me, this place is as familiar as the distant peals
of treble laughter that awaken memories
of my not-so-distant past, more simple and refreshing
than the drops sliding down the browning skin
of my arms as I work to pull myself forward.

we were so ******* close
i thought for maybe a second
that you could possibly like me back
but when i saw you with her

my heart broke into so many pieces
it put the stars to shame
why can't i find someone that cares
just as much for me as i do for them

tears poured down my face like acetone
so fast that i couldn't feel my face
the stinging made the pain come back
and it made me cry even more

you may be too sane to love me
or you're too insane to pay attention
but i'll always be there because
i'll never find another like you

the scent of her sweat
cigarette ash on my skin
she says, "don't forget."
as she whispers to my ear
the story of how we met

1.  ?
2.  ??
3.  ..???
4. ...
5. you don’t.

i could wish upon my heart
but when your eyes meet mine,
nothing else can match the sky

you say you’re not a poet but
with a girl like that,
how could you speak
anything less than
the stars?
-a.c.b

You.
Are.
A.
Walking.
Masterpiece.

Dear myself,
Thank you for surviving all these years, even if we know that we're struggling.

Thank you for being strong, to face all the problem, even if we're the only problem.

I know you're tired, me too.
I know you're hurting, me too.
I know you're barely breathing, me too!
I know you can't even show your smile anymore.

But, thank you for already survive these hard years.
Thank you.