"You need to get out of the house"
"Come over I miss you"
"Let's go do something"
"You stay inside all day. That's not healthy"

They have no idea what's happening to me
They don't know why I shut them out

The cuts on my legs remind me of prison bars
& make me think I'm a prisoner in my own mental state

"You'll come visit us at school right?"
"Don't forget about football games"
"Everyone will love to see you"

They have no idea that I can't come back
They don't know that I'm leaving soon

I havnt told a soul about the hospital visits
Or the thoughts in my head

"Let's go swimming"
"You're getting pale lets go tanning"
"This bikini would look so cute on you"

They have no idea why I can't wear bathing suits
They don't know why I can't go swimming

The marks on my skin would shock them
& I don't need a reminder of how crazy I am

They have no idea

the flight of
the soul
thus swims
through a
brook  and
through a meadow
then upstream
through a
bubbling universe
weaving through
other worlds
let heaven rest
her hands
upon the soul

When,when did it become alright to harass people that are different
When is it ever alright to harass anybody whether different or no
Let me ask you something when was the last time you got harassed or pushed around, did it feel good no did you want to do something about it of course but did you no why because people say your not so you don't iam no saint I've been harassed before and didn't do anything about you know what II did that was better nothing nothing not because they said i wouldn't but because i knew if i did it would only cause more trouble for i am not saying walk away every time someone confronts you but stand up for yoursef once in awhile or everytime if your a trouble maker

Every time you don't stand up for yourself it's like your beating yourself up along with them

don't undress my love
you might find a mannequin:
don't undress the mannequin
you might find
my love.
she's long ago
forgotten me.
she's trying on a new
hat
and looks more the
coquette
than ever.

she is a
child
and a mannequin
and death.
I can't hate
that.
she didn't do
anything
unusual.
I only wanted her
to.