I'm afraid

I'm afraid of being betrayed
By those who I love
So I stand in the shade
I dream of
Better days, unafraid,
Of being dismayed

I'm afraid of being alone
The grey unknown
Has been shown
The darkness is now my throne
My isolation is my crown
It rests upon my brow
I've become a clown

I'm afraid of my self
I sit alone on a shelf
Collecting dust
I want to combust
Who do I even trust?

My fears have moulded to my skin
Each inhale
Can cause me to derail

                                  My tale has made me pale
                                  For my fears are like a veil
                                    I have made my own jail

i feel
you still care
to notice me

i mean
nothing
to you
but
you mean
everything
to me

Sometimes
I feel like
letting you go
but
I swear
I can't
let you go
leaving me alone
holding your memories
and crying my one last tear..........

No one
will ever
love you
like
I love you
and
I will ever
love
No one
like
I love you

I don't love you
I don't care about you
I am fine
I am happy
nothing
I am over you
I don't know you
I didn't miss you
I am okay
your eyes are not sparkling
You are not handsome
you are not smart
your smile is not cute
I don't love your eyes
my life is complete without you

you say
you don't care
but
i knew it was a lie
when i saw
yours
ever loving eyes
for i know
those sparkling eyes
will never lie
TO ME
for they are
always
FOR ME.....

my guardian angel woke me today
knocking on the front door
as usual I was too full of first thing in the morning
to be able to answer such a call
happens all the time

sometimes i love life
most of the time i hate it

i get bullied
and lied to,
manipulated

but i dont let it get to me
all because of you