My heart is longing
Longing for something
Or someone
To fill this void in my life.

Someone who will love
All of me
Including the bad and ugly parts.

Someone who will take the time
To learn my secrets
What haunts me at night
Who will not run away when it gets tough.

Someone who will help me
Fight the demons inside
Who will stand next to me
And hold my hand.

My heart is longing
Longing for something
Or someone
To fill this void in my life.

I am here
Where are you??

I am

NOT

Your

Pet project!

You cannot fix broken!
Walk away
Don't look back!*

STOP

I am done
Done struggling
Finished trying
Doesnt matter
What I say or do
Never good enough.

I will never become
What you want.

The struggle is wearing me down
I cannot take it anymore
I am tired
So tired

Tonight
I am
Walking away.

The end is here.

I stand here
Alone
Afraid

Unnoticed
As the world spins.

What am I doing wrong?
Why will nobody help me?

I try so hard to figure this out
This mystery of life
Why some are accepted
While others are cast out

I belong to the outcasts
Unloved
Unworthy
Forgotten

I stand here and watch
Nobody pays attention to me
A broken hurting little girl
Unless I get in the way
Then it's a swift kick to the curb
Learn your place
You are not welcome here

I wish I could flip a switch
Make things right
Know how to fix the wrongs
Turn evil into good

But life is not a light switch.

Each day is a struggle.
Does not matter what the situation.
I never seem to fit in.
I try so hard.
I observe what the others do.

I hear his voice,
You're bad.
You're broken.

I think he was telling the truth.
I will never understand how to be normal.
How to not stand out like a sore thumb.
I am broken, bad to the core.

I want to be normal.
I hate not feeling a part.
I hear their whispers,
Feel their stares when I enter.

I hang on the outside.
Wanting so bad to be included.
Nobody wants the bad girl.
She has been broken.

**Poor broken NitaAnn

I cannot think straight
Life is a muddy blur
Nothing makes sense
I just sit here
Cannot process
Try to focus
Find a purpose
A direction to take.

My heart is hurting
Broken into a million pieces
Not sure if its worth it anymore
How do I do cope without you?

I do not want to continue alone.

Why do we make plans?

We plan our lives
Out day by day.
Saying we want
To go here
Accomplish this and that.

But in reality
Nothing ever goes the way you plan.

Bumps in the road
Detours
Side paths.

Never the way you plan
So why do we bother?

Stop planning for a future
That may never come.

Learn to cherish today
You may not have tomorrow.