And that's what scares me
The fact that I'm accustomed to loving people beyond any level than they know how to love
I've spent my life forgiving and pouring out second chances when there were none left to give
Because that's how it works
When you love someone the way I do
And it's easy for me because I've never been loved that way
Until you

And quite frankly,
That's terrifying

Boys taught me if I wasn't beautiful
Then I was nothing
They abused my emotions
Until I did whatever the hell it took
To become whatever attractive was
I've been told that I am now
But I could never explain to you why
They always mention my eyes?

Boys taught me if I wanted to get anywhere in life
Then I needed to manipulate their desires
So they'd fall into a trap
And feel things that could never be fulfilled
They trained me to walk and smile a certain way
So I could get what I needed
As they held it in their hands

Boys taught me that my body is the greatest feature I could ever offer
Bottle up any emotions
Because they'd rather not deal with mine
Because feeling is scary
And girls are supposed to be easy
They'd make me dependent
Without taking any responsibility for my mental well-being

Sure
Girls are insane
But wouldn't you be too
If you had the weight of man's world
Suffocating you?

Sure
Girls are crazy
But wouldn't you be too
If your whole life you were taught that you wouldn't be hurt
If you were beautiful
But when you become beautiful
It becomes their greatest form of abuse?

It was foolish of me
to think that,
maybe,
you liked me back.