Inhabiting the space between
Chaos and harmony

Entering the warmth of
Scarlet rivers

Indulging in verdant
Pungency

Soft lips of
Salt and honey
Meet mine

Haplessly embracing
A plate of cheese
And wine

I can still feel your sweet kisses on my lips,
I can see the lids of your eyes closed.
Such passion in your kisses,
As if you had waited years for my lips.
Your hand caressing my cheek,
Such sweet tenderness.
We laid down and indulged in the pleasure of our lips.
Then you pulled away,
Stared at me in a way.
That I had never been stared at before.
All while grabbing my hand and tenderly kissing it.
I miss it.
We were in perfect sync.
Our bodies moved and nothing was retained.
We needed each other.
My mouth grew hungry for your kisses,
You didn't stop either.
I have never felt such feelings when I kiss someone,
Your are the only one.
You make me feel like my body is elevated,
Traveling over me and looking at the beautiful scenery.
I long for you,
I've tried to feel how I feel with you .
But I can't my heart hurts when I try.
My heart belongs to you,
And it's been that way all along.
I was blind to not see where it belonged.
You hate me,
Despise me.
And I'm stuck with this feeling that kills my heart.
It makes me cry.
Why do you kiss me with such passion?
Is it payback?
Is it a lie?
No it isn't a lie,
You can't lie that connection we have,
Those looks you gave me,
It wasn't rehearsed .
Are you punishing me?
Don't punish me , I wouldn't hurt you.
Not again.
It's hard to believe but I really wouldn't.
I always thought of you,
I looked for you.
Now that I found you,
And had you.
You seem to let me go.

When loving someone, we sometimes get lost
I went from someone you wanted
To someone you resented
Because love has the power to change us

And now I realize that I miss my old self
The one you loved before becoming this empty shell
And now I realize I must become that self again
Change for the better so that I will keep sane

And now I realize that you miss that old self too
But you still love me like I love you
And that has made all the difference
That you kept holding my hand while I fixed myself
And become once again the girl you deserve

I drowned once in the bottom of a bottle.

The infinite possibilities weighing over me, endless as the sky.

But he beat me..

So I prayed for strength.

I drowned twice in the bottom of a bottle.

Regret a heavy burden.

All the things I could have done, counting the casualties of my blindness.

I drowned three times in the bottom of a bottle.

Rock bottom never hurt so bad.

Realizing fairy tales don't come true.
No prince can slay my demons.

I surfaced when I realized,
That I must free myself.

Now I count my days and still I pray for strength.

I don't want to be

one of those girls that need love

but I think I am.

I believe
That writers are
So brave
Because each time
They start writing
Blotting ink onto
Their paper
Frustratingly typing on
Their laptop
Frustratingly typing on
Their laptop
They rip their heart out
Of their chest
And show the world
What it's made of.

I've made a deal with the devil
Signed in blood I gave him my soul
With each passing day my life unfolds
I wake to serve, to fulfill his deeds
My twisted words cut others with ease
What choice do I have when that's all that I know?
I play with your head until you grow old
With the devil on your shoulders
I stand blindly in a trance
Knowing those were my orders
I send you a glance
I Brighten your day
Am I a normal person?
Who's to say?