I didn't need you.
Then why did I urge myself to do so?
Why did I indulge in the stupidity?
Why did my eyes dart back to you?
You might as well could **** me
It would leave me in less pain
Than seeing you leave
With someone who wasn't me
With someone who didn't want you.
With someone who didn't need you.
But I didn't need you either.

Then why do I feel so empty inside?

I begged silently for something
I couldn't even touch
And though you always offered
Your burning hands
I still felt nothing, just the cold,
Empty,
Solitary touch
Of hands that would never embrace me
The way they could.

Maybe it was the fact that you laughed
Even at the most stupid things
Or the way you made your problems seem unimportant
Though the pain was inevitable
Maybe it was the way you smiled at everyone
But only cried in front of a select few
And maybe it was the fact that you treated me like I existed
Though I was but a speck of galaxy.
But I found myself falling for you
Even though I knew from the beginning
That you weren't mine
And you would never catch me
And I would forever fall
In love
With you

What a Disney shape
life is no circle
life has corners
for hiding
and pointy bits
for stabbing
not sure what shape
that is
maybe
a sharpened triangle.

I hate waiting,
but I'm the one who's always late.

I hate talking to people,
yet I often have the most to say.

I hate being ignored,
but want others to go away.

I hate feeling neglected,
though I forget those around me by letting my thoughts lead me astray...

I hate clingy people,
yet I find myself obsessing over you everyday.

I hate it when others try to get close to me, however, I continue to dream of having the chance to be close to you;
wishing that you'd stay...