You've ruined blue eyes,

For when I gaze into his,

I'm still seeing you.

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep...
But so many thoughts were distrusting me
I spent about half an hour thinking
Hoping of what should come true for me
The thoughts of my mistakes
I have committed during the day
So flashed in my mind
I became weak at once
I couldn't resist that morbid fear
All of a sudden I realized I was wide awake
Was I awake somewhere in my sleep?
I saw myself going to bed again
This time around I realized that I was dreaming
Could I be dreaming in a dream?
I had no idea of where I was
I saw the sky fade obstrusively
The mild breeze rustled through the tree tops
Everywhere was screeching and croaking
The hazy atmosphere so stunned me
I was in a **** state of claustrophobia
It then got to a time I couldn't speak or move
At once I woke up.
But then I was in a room.
A room I never thought I could be in
I also realized the change in my acts and thoughts
I forced myself out the room
I was welcomed by a loud ****'s crow,
Momentarily I became concious of my real self.

I'm alive
I want to die
I hope you're happy
I hope you cry when I'm gone
I smile all the time
My smile is fake
I have so many friends
I have so many blades
I have a family
They hate me
I don't need help*
I need saving