Sunshine after the storm?
All I've seen is rain.
Things get better?
Too late, I'm already going insane.
I'll find happiness?
Apparently not soon enough.
Life has its bumps?
More like life is rough.
I'm beautiful the way I am?
Please, I see right through your bluff.
I'm being ridiculous?
Really, because I feel like I'm dying.
I'll be okay?
You only say that because you never witness me crying.
I'm perfect?
Have you even looked at me.
I have a distorted view?
Well what I see is what I see.
I need to eat?
No, I don't.
You'll make me?
No, you won't.
What's wrong with me?
I wish I knew.
I'm going to die?
Well, just know I love you.
You'll get me help?
I can't be fixed.
Stop being negative?
Sorry, my feelings are mixed.
I have such a bright future?
How can I when I'm broken.
You love me?
My love I've already spoken.
My friends love me?
I have no friends.
I have tons of friends?
Are you kidding me, I have one.
People will miss me?
Just stop, I'm done.

A mystery unclear, unknown
yet so frequent and known.
from him they escape and run
but every path leads to only one.
each living must fight him
just to loose a battle grim.

She held my hand
And dried my tears.
Comforted me
And eased my fears.
Yet now she struggles
To remember my name.
God is playing
A cruel game.
She's not here,
But she's not dead.
The future fills
My heart with dread.
She lives in her memories,
Trapped in the past.
The illness has taken over
So fast.
But I smile with her
And lend my ear
Because one day she
Will no longer be here.

There seems to be
     A sea in me,

And my ribcage is beginning to leak.

I have so many memories written on my skin
They're my daily reminder of the pain held within
I have so many problems I'm starting to wear thin
So I take a couple pills and wait for the heart ache to dim
I have so many secrets they're hard to hold in
So I let them all out with my blade and some gin

Tonight she will tell her parents "I love you" and hug them very tightly.
She will ask if she can sleep beside them just like when she was young and afraid of the dark.
Then she'll text everyone she cares about a "good night and thanks for being a great person :)" and call the person she really cares about and say "I love you".
All of them are clueless,
that she plans to sneak out at 5 in the morning,
before the sun rises
and walk to the bridge near her place.
And at her final moments she will finally cry, because she had to make sure everyone's last memory of her will be a good thing.
They couldn't see her like this, so miserable and pathetic.
No, she has to make sure that everyone will not see the side she despised the most,
so that's why she wrote on her note how her friends are amazing,
and how her parents are very loving;
because she has to make sure they wouldn't blame themselves,
it's just that she could not make it to the finish line.