I long so badly for the day where I can wake up next to you.
I'll wake up before you, I already know. You've never been a morning person.
But I am- So I'll wake, stretch my body out next to yours.
And I'll lay on my side, or on your chest and listen to your calm breathing.
In and Out.. so peaceful and welcoming.  Because it doesn't matter how many times we fight, you see. We will always be right here- in this moment. Breathing in the same space and time, a rhythm held onto by our unconscious minds.
Dreams twirling together, like our fingers the night before.

"What does it feel like?"

It feels like you're encased in concrete.
You can't breath.
There's needles lining your lungs.
It's bone crushing.
It feels like your head is spinning, instead of the earth.
You can't think straight.
There's a sea of rocks in your stomach.
It's heart wrenching.
It feels like someone took your heart, right out of your chest.
You can't feel it, not until
There's a stone wall to hurl it at.
It's a shattering empty jar across the wall.

But it's all worth it.
Every second of fighting and pain.
Because at the end of the day,
We still have each other.
And we always will.

"It feels amazing."