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Christopher Mata Jul 2014
Darling, can I just have a moment of your time
I promise it won't take long
I know you're busy but
I love you
Darling, can I have more of your time
I just need to see you
You don't have to stay long
I love you
Darling, can I be your time
I only want you
Just stay forever
I love you
Darling, ... darling???
I wanted to be your forever
Only yours
I loved you
I hate you
But love you

Despise you
But adore you

I tried to list your flaws
But instead simply realized your perfections

I want you to be happy
But I can’t stand being so sad

I wish I could forget you
Wish I had never met you

But at the same time,
I can’t imagine anything more upsetting

Than having never had the opportunity
To fall in love you.
  Jul 2014 Christopher Mata
20something
I think that I may be addicted to you;

Because I'm hooked on those eyes that look past what everyone else sees,
and always finds the little bit of "worth it" that's left in me

And I ache for those hands that electrify my skin with each touch;
that overwhelm my every sense until it's almost too much.

I crave the familiar smell of your shirt when I lay curled up next to you,
with the surrounding peace so comforting it's almost too good to be true.

You are more dangerous than any nicotine
or any alcohol that has passed my lips
Because you always seem to return into my life,
and at least those are habits that I can quit...
Christopher Mata Jul 2014
Its a sign of affection
An act of trust

Somehow its been abused and over used
As an action triggered by lust

Kiss after kiss
Do you even feel a thing?

They say forever can be tasted on the lips for who your would was meant for

So how many never have you tasted? How many souls have been pushed away by the touch of your lips?

Should I be envious that so many have gotten to try and taste your forever? Or should I be thankful that none have been granted that pleasure? Or should I be afraid that I too will never taste your forever?

Because every tear that has rolled over your trembling lips has been caused by a never, that never should have happened.

Now call me a fool but is it better to always be there to wipe away every tear or to take the small chance and hope that you're the one that can forever stop them

Am I reaching for something that's just out of my grasp? Or am I just not grasping something within my reach?

But the beautiful thing about a forever is that it has to start somewhere and somewhere has to be caused by someone , however you can add up all who have tried giving you the sum but leaving you with the question of "whose the one?"

Leaving me with the question

Am I the One ?
Christopher Mata Jul 2014
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a ghost of memories past

a small boy no older than 12

he had curly black hair just like mine

he had brown eyes just like mine

he looked just like me

but thats because he had a last name ... just like mine

this was no tragic accident

but a carefully crafted punishment of a young boys mind

and the piece by piece fragmentation of his soul

every hurtful word, every disgusted look, every should turned

slowly braided itself together to form a string of ideas

every moment of hurt, every memory of pain, every day of neglect

slowly looped itself around him and knotted everything together

as if it was a gift of a ticking time bomb, wrapped in images you wish to forget, topped off with a bow of stripped and flattened emotions , signed with a card that simply says ... **** yourself

they say no one is responsible for his death, and the kids who teased him said " I was just joking"

well here's the punch line, i wonder which one of you ran through his mind when he finally kicked the chair out from underneath him

he stepped up on that chair with his final words that should be as historical as "four scores and severn years ago" or as revolutionary as "I HAVE A DREAM"

and hearing his last cries would be like hearing a nuclear warning siren... a scream of an inevitable end

and walking in and seeing his body hanging there like a forgotten halloween decoration was as sickening and heart breaking as seeing a ******* painted in a synagogue

i still keep his noose and i keep it mounted on the front door like a wreath , as if to say

HANG YOUR PRIDE AND OFFER A HELPING HAND BECUASE IT COULD BE THE LIFE LINE SOMEONE NEEDS

please , from a father left incomplete because they are burying a part of me

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