I notice you the way you notice me
I'am aware of your existence
And i sometimes think of you
You are often in my head  
Not as a friend , maybe as an enemy
Maybe as something which im not capable of uderstanding
I feel your thoughts destroying my thoughts
It all happens inside my ****** up head
Which got ****** up because of
your voice harassing my inner peace
**** how much i want to get rid of you ...
And these days I wonder if i should **** myself to get rid of you
It's a battle where
I **** you ,
You **** me
Or we both die
That's why we'll never be  
We cannot be .

Pour me a drink
I want my ******* soul to sink
Deep enough to  float and chill
Maybe then i will take it easy

Maybe then i wiĺl fight no more
Maybe then it will all be smouth

Pour me another drink
I dont want my mind to overthink
About the future
Maybe i will **** things up
Wait , things are already ****** up
**** , how did they get ****** up ?

Pour me another drink ( a strong one this time )
I want to sit and overthink
About how did i **** things up ?
Was  i angry  ?
Was i reckless ?
**** no , i actually  was indifferent
So ******* indifferent .

am i ****** up ? And if i am , how can i unfuck myself up ?
Am i hopeless? And if hope is life , how can i keep on living ?
Am i evil ?  And if love is good ,  tell me why i love her well ?
Is this beautiful ? And if beauty is sin , are we both going to hell ?
Is hell so fun ? And if it's so fun , can it unfuck me up ?