My heart doesn't flutter when you walk by me

I guess we just weren't meant to be

I knew you would never give me a second look

Cause you're a preppy guy and I'm a stoner girl who's into books

Your girlfriend's pretty and I'm not

I am hideous and you're not

I've been dumped and been cheated on by different guys

She isn't worth it, they all realize

My friends all say that it's me that you like

But since you won't admit it, you can take a hike

Just lay it down, it's really simple

Your mixed emotions, are leaving my heart crippled

Just tell me the truth

Did you like me the way I liked you?

Did you know
that I drink molten lava?
I like the way it burns.

I am not afraid of you.
I've let the Earth's poison
melt and destroy my insides-
re-solidifying around my heart.
You cannot hurt me.

****.
My insides are melting again.
And I cannot speak;
I can only observe-
eyes wide with horror.

I chugged you down
because you were the
only glass of water in this desert.
But your water
turned out to be acid.

And I am falling
down
        down
                down
into abysmal nothingness.

My eyes are wide with horror
because I'm watching my nightmare
take place in broad daylight.

(I'm falling for you.)

people won't remember
your pretty face
nor your pretty clothes
and the money you had.
they will remember
the melody in your laugh
and the way you loved
and the beauty of your heart
and the bravery of your spirit
and the kindness of your soul.
they won't remember what
you looked like
they won't remember what
you had.
they will remember you
and the words you told them
and the life you spoke to them
and the water you used
to bring to life the dead garden
in their souls
and they will remember the
sunshine in your smile
and the stars that
hid in your eyes.

I saw your name somewhere...

Violins sing of purest flame,
Alluring harmonies warm the air,
As it goes from my insides,
and jealousy sings.

I look upon your past,
with such jealousy.

I cry it out,
and move on.

Find me a corner of the world, she said
Where tears turn to streams
And the flowers it seems
Burst with laughter, the song of birds.
Where the sun shines bright
And beholding the sight
Of the wings on butterflies unfurl.

Find me a place to lay my head
Where the stars they twinkle at night
To hear the breeze blow, softly and low
And the full moon warm for light

Find me a corner of the world, she said
Where the fears of the day, wither and stay
Far away
From the dreams in my head

I am proud of my stretch marks
they are war paint
for the battle people call life

I am proud of my thunder thighs
they make it easier to
smash the patriarchy

I am proud of my chub
it keeps my heart warm
against the cold winds of people's insults

no longer will I let misogynistic views
control my life and
decide my social standing

and no longer will I be told that
I'm pretty "for a fat girl"
or smart "for a fat girl"
or kind "for a fat girl"

because fat is not a taboo word
and longer will I let you
define who I am with a simple word
that cannot hurt me

You are my late night lover.
     My romance under the stars.
             Both of us using the other to fill a void inside.
                   Two lonely hearts bonded over confessions in the dark.
You're brokenness out in the open, on display for all to see.
     Mine hidden away inside, pushed down into the depth of my soul.
           Saying sweet words to each other as if we'd somehow believe them.
                 Whispering the truth so quietly even we could barely hear it.
Now as the dawn comes closer I'm starting to realize... I want a relationship, and you don't know how to treat a girl as anything more than a fling.