i’d loved him so hard
i’d forgotten how to hate what he does to me.

nuh nuh no one listens
they tend to ignore
can I ask you a-
(shut up makayla
no one cares)
im beginning to become afraid.
that if no one listens to me.
then I’d have to listen to myself.
help me please.

today, i smiled in the first time since November.
my smile feel to the ground with the leaves.
froze to the ground with the snow
and rose again with the brighter sun.

when i saw that you moved on
i
washed my hair, and brushes my teeth
and pretended there weren’t tears in the mirror.

i find that the magical thing about humans is how strong willed we are.
if he wants you he will find you
if he needs you he already has you.

oh man....
sometime i don't like him.
man, i mean
he's not too nice too me.
i like **** more
she gets my point across.
and she's  got no reason to hurt me.

oh buddy!
life is rough...
times are tuff!
it all will get better soon?