Today was one of those days
Where nothing goes wrong
But still life has its ways
Where it all feels too long

Nothing really happened
The world didn't end
But still you feel a rend
It's like your hearts a little bent

For no particular reason
Yiu just keep failing
Its not simply a season
And for an instant you think about bailing

But you keep on pushing
And you just have to trust
Its like your on a wing
And suddenly you see rust
And your heart leaps
But deep inside
Your heart still beats
Because you see the wing is wide
And you know you can trust
In the pikot of the plane
And though occasionally
Your faith will wain
The pilots is better than Sully
So you keep your head up
And thank your lucky stars
That your above all these cars
That you can see the world
And so you breathe and look out
And you smile and lose your doubt
Because you put your faith
Not in the plane
But in the one who flies it.

Im consumed by these thoughts
I hate these feelings
That i just cant cross
Out of my mind and dreamings

They consume me
I dont want too
But here i am i can see
How all i can think of is you

Its all you fault
For making me like you
For consuming me every thought
And it ***** cuz ik you cant like me too

So im just stuck here
With these emotions
And i dont want to care
So these thoughts i try to shun

But i cant stop myself
I really have tried
Its not like iv cried
Over you
Its just sad
That you will never like me too

The dark has come again
I don't think I'll ever win
It'san uphill war
Is there any more?

More to this life
Than this endless strife
I can't stay away from this knife

It rules me
It tells me who to be
And i obey
I follow all the way

I bow down
I give it the crown
And so on i drown

I feel so stuck
In this endless muck
I watch as others move on
They have won

But I'm still lost

I feel so different now
Its like a weight is lifted
Its so amazing how
All my views have shifted

Its like i can finally see
I feel renewed within
Here begins a new me
Christ has freed me from sin

Im no longer consumed by shame
Im not burdened by guilt
I look to you and know your name
My soul no longer wilts

Im a new creature
What is this sudden change?
I feel almost pure
Its such a sudden change

My mind was all dark
I was consumed by hate
But then you spoke to me like a beautiful lark
Your words were of love and it was like a grate

You pushed me out of my comfort zone
It was so hard
But now suddenly i actually feel at home
I no longer feel alone

I know you love me
Its like for the first time i see
Its you who i want to be
I want to resemble you more
So in my heart i will store
Your word i want to memorize
Your people i want to know
I want to actually show
How i feel in my heart
I wish i had from the start
But i can see all this time
Your hand working in me
Even when i was close
To taking my life
Even in the darkness and the strife
I can see how you took away the knife
And gave me something so much better
Your water will make my thirsty soul wetter
Your love i want to show
And slowly i hope to grow
I truy do love you Lord

I want write
To express how i feel
But i cant do it right
So on my knees i kneel

When i have no words
When i can't speak
When i can't move forwards
When im too weak

I call out to you
I cry out your name
And often i just cry too
And you wash away my shame

You give me your love
You give me your grace
It dosnt matter wether im enough
You wipe the tears from my face

I open my eyes
I can finally see
How i have believed such lies
And you show me who i am to be

I can see your hands and feet
I can see you working
In the people i meet
I can see how you are the king

Its ok i swear im fine
Im just slowly losing my mind
I don't know what you see
But honestly thats not me

Im not what i appear
Im holding back a tear
Inside im different
There is a certain bent

A bent towards evil
Its like i have no will
So i wear this mask
Cuz i must complete this task

Of an outward appearance
There isnt a chance
That you will look past
Past this mask

And really see what i could be
Not just who is currently me
 
But what if it is i
And not you who stand by
What if its me
What if i showed you what could be

What i let you in
Would it be such a sin
Could i trust you that way
Its possible that you may
Really listen
And i could let you in
But truly im afraid
To ever ask for aid
So i sit alone
Id rather be at home
Than out with you
But maybe your like me too
And maybe if i started first
It would create a thirst
Inside of you
And maybe you would let me in too