the sun is up
and it's 7am
i lay here awake,
dreaming of you again.

i dream of
the endless possibilities of the love
we once shared
and the places it could have taken us.

i dream of
the times our hands were clapsed so tight because we never want to let go,
the times we spent together,
and the times when we still loved each other.

i dream of you
for i know that what we had was something beautiful
and we were destined for something wonderful.

i guess it was the distance
that caused our love to reach its end
or maybe we're just lost pieces
that don't fit.

the moon is up
and it's 7am
i'm still laying here
dreaming of you again

my first thought was nothing
for that was what you left me with
as blank as a canvas
with no colors to fill it in

you were suppose to be the rainbow
that i looked for, after the rain
but instead,
you became the dark cloud
that took my sunshine away.

there were a lot of songs
i used to sing
but i never really understood
what they mean

then You came into my life
and little did i know why

You have turned into the
the melody of my songs
and the beat to my rhythms.

You meant more to me
than i have known,
and You gave me the meaning
that i have been searching for.

i
have
lost
you
to the world of darkness
and the broken

i
have
lost
you
in a whirlwind
of pain and misery

i
have
lost
you
to reality
we tried so hard to escape

i
have
lost
you
and
*you have left me
in this pit hole of agony

dear little girl,
you have a purpose.

you are to bloom like flower,
you are to shine bright,
and you will become something great
for you are special.

i know you have heard this,
over
and over
and over again.

but i am telling you this again,  
because maybe this time around,
it will sink in.
maybe this time around,
your mind will finally grasp the idea.
and maybe this time around,
it will be etched in that delicate heart of yours.

doors are all around me,
they're here.
to my left and to my right,
they're big and small,
wide and narrow.
i struggle to get to them,
for they seem too far away.
and there are giant barriers
that block my way.
they're huge and strong,
and it seems almost impossible
for me, a single being,
to jolt them away.

he said hi,
and my heart skipped.
that's how it all started,
one small conversation.

one conversation
that lead to another
and another
and another
and it went on and on.

one conversation
that brought me joy,
they brought back big, giddy smiles on my face.

but as time passed,
those conversations stopped.
and i never thought that that it would hurt this much.