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Kimberly Semiday Sep 2016
Nothing stops him.
He sneaks into my bed at night while
I am asleep and wraps his arms
around me tight.

When I wake there is no relief.
He only clings to me tighter when I try to break free.

But this is the only form of intimacy
I know.
Like an old friend,
I succumb to the power of emptiness.  

I want so desperately to feel
something more.
How can I when he promises
sweet release if I follow him
into the darkness?

It’s only in my suffering
that I am reminded that I am
still painfully
and willingly
alive.
Kimberly Semiday Sep 2016
Time is ticking away for him.
Those days when he's in the awake will slip out of his fingers like grains of sand on the beach.
The rushing tide will weaken him until he is yearning for sleep.

Storms are inevitable.
Tiredness is inevitable.
We must all rest to calm those raging waves,
but when he lays down to let his mind slumber,
he knows he'll never wake up again.
Nobody told me about the colors
Of the sunset, how everything becomes
A warm sepia dream.
Nobody told me that when the waves
Break the worn shore
The sound was a million
Drums dancing to the earth's tune.

That when clouds cast over the sun
It looks like war paint
On her face.
Or when the sound of car horns passes
Beyond noise into rhythm
It could be beautiful.

It's like staring
At the world through a high definition
Window frame.
Somewhere you thought was
Just too far to travel.

They told me that it's okay
To be depressed.
But I never had anyone to tell me
That the suffering isn't permanent.

And it isn't.

Because even in the dark
Shades of the final days of your winter,
When the surface of your skin reflects
The grey that only you can see
There is warmth.

Had I known that when I got here
The grass would actually be greener;
I would have come sooner.

I saw the world through a foggy
Translucent film.
Not to say my judgement is
Usually clouded, but it can
Only be assumed.
Kimberly Semiday Sep 2016
Let us be like trees in autumn.
Let us turn colors and leave the landscape of this world more beautiful than it was before.
Let others bask in the purity of our evolutionary changing leaves.

May we not be afraid to shed our skin.
May we know that even when we are most barren, like the branches of winter it will not last.

Spring will come again.
It will put bark back on our trunks.
It will feed our roots that we embedded deep within the earth.
It will allow us to bloom again.
  Sep 2016 Kimberly Semiday
NicoleRuth
2478 friends on Facebook
4.6k followers on Instagram
2.1k followers on Twitter

Thousands of likes
Digital affirmations to an insecure soul
Hundreds of retweets
In agreement of a pretentious quote
Innumerable hearts sent
Wowing the 'hippy-artistic' Mac picture

Every portals overflowing with attention
Yet not a single shred
Not a drizzling drop
Of genuine care

We spend our lives peeping into the digital windows of others souls
Comparing. Mocking. Craving. Envying.
Physically distancing each other with every WhatsApp call.

Until one day
Staring at a dead blank screen
The deafening silence choking her
She wakes up with a gasp
Sifting through the thick cobwebs blinding her
To see the nothingness
Not a trace of warmth left behind

Finally, the silence steals away her awareness
The emptiness blinding her soul
Pushing and choking
In the end
A mere corpse remains
Still chained to the online life support
Just a being
But no more a soul
What's a poet without sadness,
Madness ?
#poet #sad #madness
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