This is not the end this is not the beginning.
This is the way you left me, I’m not pretending.
Truth be told I never was yours.
This heart ain’t built for two.
My heart is like a stallion
But I may snap as I move close
I tear my heart open
Waiting on a secondhand pick me up
I don’t care what you think as long as it’s about me
You can read all about it
I know what you’re thinking but darling you’re not thinking straight
Mind over matter never worked for my nemesis
Don’t regret me like the tattoos on my skin
This will never end cause I want more
I’m just saying you could do better
Or is it just madness keeping us afloat
Is there any chance you could see me too
Cause I love
Love love love you

At least I think I do

I beg of you
please don't
make this
about yourself

It feels like seeing chocolate cake
And when no one's looking
Swiping a finger across

Like icing in your mouth
And a glance to see if anyone saw
Sugar on your tongue

Like the little smear on your lip
No one wants to comprehend
But everyone sees

Like slowly, carefully
Licking it off your fingers
In full view of the world

Like smiling widely
Knowing no one knows
Your mouth still tasting of it

Like sitting patiently
Hands folded in innocence
Waiting for your own slice of cake

Like getting your piece last
But having it taste of
Going back for seconds

Like an explosion in reverse
First there was everything
Chaos, Misconduct,
Eyes wide and mouth gaping
And now
Nothing

Like the universe
Expanding, Expanding
But suddenly you learn
It could be as big as a marble
To some other being
Insignificant

Like walking backward
Through months and years
Through friendships and hatreds
Through love and *** and tangled fingers
Until you're standing at the start
Alone

Like spreading your arms
And finding out they're folded still
You've closed them without noticing
And can't find the release

Like the budding of a sad smile
In reverse