As I search for you,
I slowly forgotten every inch
Of what made me as whole.

As I search for you,
I have to fight the urge of
Being with you and having
The freedom to myself.

As I search for your name,
I cannot seem to grasp the idea
That what ''you and i'' once had
Is nothing but a sheer memory.

As I search for your name through every accounts,
I still get butterflies in my stomach
I still smile and hoping that there's a slight chance
For us to become as one again.

As I search for peace within this chaotic world,
I still carry you with me.

Mulat na naman ang aking mga mata,
Kakaisip sa mga iniwan ****
Alaala sa akin.

Mulat naman ako kung anong estado natin,
Alam ko naman na hindi na dapat ako
Umasa dahil siya pa din naman pipiliin mo.
Iba kasi siya. Wala akong laban.

Mulat na ako kahit noon pa man,
Na hanggang tingin na lamang ako.
Na tapos na ang lahat.

Mulat na ako na kahit anong gawin ko,
Wala nang salitang ''tayo''
Kailangan kong matutunan
Tanggapin.

Mulat ako na ang lahat nang
Ito ay isang bangungot lamang.

Kailangan kong gumising.

Tulungan mo ko.

Why do you beat yourself up?
because you had the courage to love
gave all of yourself in hopes that she was the one

Why do you beat yourself up?
When it was her choice to be unfaithful
Her choice to hurt you

Why do you beat yourself up?
Knowing that you had done everything for her
supported her, comforted her,
loved her more than you loved yourself

Why after she laid down with someone else
do you still love her? and want her to love you
Why after the repeat of hurt and trust being lost
do you think that she deserves a love as pure as yours

Why do you beat yourself up?
over what you could have done better
when you know deep down there was nothing

What makes you search for answers as to why
when they will not change the past
Nor mend your broken heart

Why when a person decides to cheat do we blame ourselves?
why does it make us question every little detail about who we are
Make us think that we are not worthy of love

Why when a person cheats do we still long for them to change
Realize how wrong she was, and fall in love with us again

Why do you beat yourself up?
When you deserve more
When all that you have done is loved someone completely

Give yourself time
You will see that you are still you
Still wonderful, beautiful you

Nothing has changed except your experience in love
And your determination to share love with another.