Kaiden

Dec 2024

Peter Gerstenmaier

You always beat me
At every game we played
So when I broke your heart
It was only natural that
You'd shatter mine
Effortlessly

Checkmate

#losing #game #heart #break #shatter

Dec 2024

David

Shine

I stand here translucent
Shine through me sunlight
Finish my portrait, colour my grays
Until no shadows remain

Kaiden Dec 2024

To Drab

This isn't a poem but a piece of writing to remember a wonderful person that was here before randomly dissapearing. Some of you might remember him. He was that one kind, older man who wrote poems i absolutely loved and was also my first follower. I'm not sure why he left or what happened but i wanted to write this so people would remember him. I never knew him personally and i didn't even know him for long here. He was pretty active on here and i feel like it got a bit empty without him. I love everyone here but i feel like everyone remembers their first follower/supporter, especially if they were active. So, Drab, even tho you probably can't read this, thank you.

His account got deleted so i cant show yall sorry :(
also, sorry it's not perfectly written, i can't really focus today

#drab

Dec 2024

Viktoriia

sleepless

you're not sleeping well,
every next new pill
is but a means to an end,
and it barely means anything at all.
if you dream, you fall,
and that fall's prolonged
by every mantra that someone
advised you to try,
by every breathing exercise
to the sound of the rain or the sea,
and the only thing you see
is the fear of losing your mind.
there's no chemical relief
as there is no magic spell,
for what it's worth
you've tried everything
just to keep your eyelids closed
a little longer.
nothing's working,
you're not sleeping well.

#sleep #insomnia #medicine #people #life #fear #sanity

Kaiden Dec 2024

Warm water

I enter the bathtub filled with warm water
To wash away the stress and trauma.
The liquid which used to bring me so much comfort
And so much fear.

The water i used to warm my hands with,
The water i used to make food i hoped no one knew about,
The water i gave my dying dog,
The water that kept me alive.

And i sit there, thinking about it.
About everything that can happen
In the span of 4 years.
Earth is a strange place indeed,
As it is filled with water.

Kinda a reference to a poem i wrote some time ago, also named Warm water. Also, i really miss Drab, he left Hello Poetry some time ago. He was my first follower and even tho i don't really know him i still miss him :(

#warm #water

Kaiden Dec 2024

If they knew

If they knew what happened yesterday
What would they say?
What would she say to her man
If everything went according to the plan?

If she knew the pain i feel
Would she still think it's not real?
Would she regret the things he had done?
If after all of this, i will be gone.

Lost in addictions
And my own sorrow
My whole life a fiction,
With no tomorrow.

I write this words for me to remember
That i was once a child as well.
About what happened this December
And that i went through hell.

This one is one of my drafts, i decided to finish it. It's basically a message to my future self but i wanted to post it anyway.

#abuse #suicide #addiction #sh #hell