Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

Help me decide if
this pain is simply
exhaustion
boredom
loneliness
burn out
or fleeting.
But don't tell me if it's depression.
I can't handle that right now.

I whisper to my heart
Shush
When it is anxious.
It will then rush
to respond in a voice, hushed
No.

im falling
deeper and deeper
into this hole that is reality.

the walls are screaming
the falls are spinning
the trees are de-rooting.

im falling
deeper and deeper
into this broken conscious

but its okay, i wouldnt remember me either.

A smile is such a lovely thing especially upon your face;
Behind it a glimpse of grimace
none can trace
hiding all the sorrows or simply taking their place.

A kindly spoken word means so much when it's from you,
Sending comfort when the heart is blue

Your touch can make a heart dance in pretty fast-paced clips
when I hear the melody in your voice I'm wowed by it's unconquerable grips.

A smile, a word, a song, a touch – seem small little things
Your ecstatic vibe I'm grateful to always find;
Lock your hands in mine
and peace will fill my mind...

#elspirito
#poem

Dracula
Discovered
Deep
Decisions
Drain
Dramatically

illusions of grandeur
oh you're the master
wana get inside that mind
become entwined

just to see the gears
know your fears
do your synapses fire
as quickly as your comebacks?