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I no longer know who ya heart beats for
Who ya soul screams for
who ya naps dream for
who ya body needs for
Who ya times free for

before i find out
I want our spark to be restored
Replenished & refreshed
Id rot away without ya sweet flesh
& kind hearted gestures
Youve fulfilled me
Like pirates are by treasures
& Taken my heart to unmet measures
Something in me tries to blame
The lack of guidance that i had
Da lack of advice from a dad
I only act right when she's sad
It shouldnt reach that point.

Reachin low emotions frequently
Theres no longa anything she need in me
No reason to be pleasin me

Truth is so hard to ingest
I make it so hard to invest
Ive really putya to the test
Ive hardened you in da chest

They tell you that our kid isn't the glue
Why you with him? If you always blue
Even you wish dat u ****** knew

Im no longa why you get up
But im alway why you fed up
Im Surprised you havent let up

I made yo attitude become so bitter
Brought the worst up out you
I wanna fix this, ya i really do!
I been watching how-tos

But waiting on a broken record
Isnt worth anotha ounce
Inbox fulla otha cats
Who always trynna pounce
So I know the end is near
That's the way the game go
No needa live fear

But ayo listen to dis
Da OG told me
Boy, she just anotha fish
But she aint bitin yo bait/
So don't be trippin *****
If she ain't fighting dont say/
Love letter love sad cute relationship truth
don't do anything that she expects of me
The more I try, the less it happens/
I want her to be free , but she feels trapped in/
When I express myself
She thinks I'm just ****** yappin'/
She wants days full of lovin
and straight laughin /
No matter what it takes I ain't crackin/
This an opportunity I aint passing/
You feel like there's a lot
That i just ain't graspin/
Don't ever think I aint lastin/
Cuz I'll fight this battle to the death of me;
I'll be in a state of unrest,
Till my heart is pumpless.
She says I'm rude and ridiculous
She Says it ain't gonna work
So the emotion I'm livin in
Is love at its worst

I just wanna explode
I just wanna burst
I fail at this,
she seems so hurt

She says she's done
That she gave me time
It hits me like a gun
It's sour as lime

Nothing ever betters me
I bring back her worst memories
She's fed up with my presence
I'm not her lover, Just a peasant

She says I treat her like ****
We used to love and be close knit
I love when we talk and sit
Made her trust go to ****

She says 'For me you've done zip'
It's making my heart rip
I'm just watching her slip
My goal is to get a grip

Our daughter won't be the glue
But her heart will be affected
Her I don't want to confuse
Cuz it'll always be regretted

In my heart her spot is embedded
So I never want to say 'it ended'
I hope I can fix all this......
mentally , its happening now
i aint physically acting it out
i guess its imagination
ill have to take it, put in life
and really make it
its something theyve never seen
days where ugly weather's a pretty scene
the beauty within disaster
i've lived it and became a master
of cherishing my lifes disasters
am i what i Ponder?
if so , my perception is a bother
give me a clean slate
a mind with no negativity
like a free taste- of a life
a life with pure divinity
wisdom thats just infinity
ill create the humblest ministry
My love for you is deeply skewered down to the pit of my soul
You fill in all the cracks and every whole
They're mending , you hurt them but the recovery is ending
I'm feeling trust and truth
Were on a higher peak
Climbing past
the pain
Was a bit of an emotional drain
But for you I had to stay sane
Deeper lessons were learned
And more respect was earned .
But this isn't for any benefits
It's for you , and what I promised
Seeking to keep my word, but humbly and not with pride/
Around you I used to get mumbly and want to hide
But I feel the security now
But i question if it's real, can't just see it now
I must feel and see
Cuz I want you to be as free as me
By being authentic
Forget the self centered and prideful egocentric
Let's move on and make our own world.  Even if we've got to parish
I'll give u what i said I would ,
An eternal commitment, spiritual marriage.
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